I HATE THIS SH**(F**** it can I use foul language?)PT1

Well ok it has been awhile.....alot of you talk to me or read about me @ Facebook. So you pretty much know I've been going through some crap......pain from the car accident it is so bad I have many days I just don't wanna get outta bed. Standing and walking getting really bad.....and (DON'T tell hubby but I have been falling alot)

So with all that crap what happens? well you all know (or maybe not) my dad passed away last April and we have been going through the estate. Well oldest sister and brother and fighting us....first they tried to say youngest sister char killed our father......but they went to the doctors for the report and low and behold found char did nothing wrong. OK so now they are saying we aren't telling them about all the banks. WHAT!? OH Fu...You. You all want the truth? I will give you the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

Where to start......at the beginning is the best......dad married wife 1 had 2 children 1 girl 1 boy. they got divorced and dad married wife 2 (Our mom) and had 3 more girls. Now mind you every divorced couple will not agree about their life's together so you really cant believe who did or didn't do what.....But all my life I listened to my father talk about how bad wife 1 had been she cheated bla bla bla ok? ok! Now dad wasn't perfect by no means...oh no no no...the man abused us girls(sexually) I had locked it so far into the back of my that when my sisters talked about it I called them liar's it took me a long time to work it all out after I got married after my sister and I lost 10 years of being with each other because of our dad....and alot of thanks goes to my hubby he has a computerized mind and he watched me and her and dad and he listened to us then he threw stuff at me till I had that AH HA moment. after that it came to me in pieces. I still had a lot of problems believing but then several things came to mind alot about how every time I told them something that was true they would tell me I had a very vivid imagination. So in a sense I had been ut down by them at every turn. I had no confidence in my self and I'm totally surprised I got married. But back to the tale...now my youngest sister and I were here with mom and dad all the time neither one of us moved away. (I did 3 yrs after mom died to South Dakota but I wasn't far enough to not be here when needed and it was with my dad's blessings) And here what happened mom got sick....she wanted to die at home...I said I would take care of my parents when time came. so I moved out there to help dad and care for mom.....she died 9 days after her 64th birthday. I stayed with dad for about 2 weeks after living in my childhood home and made sure I was up there at least every other day to check on him till we moved in 99. but we came back often till we ran outta money. BUT the day my sister called me in 2004 and told me dad had a heart attack I first called hubby...then I made arraignment's for people to care for my 2 grandsons whom I was caring for in South Dakota. and I came home. I drove 380 miles home on Feb 14th 2004 in a blizzard. yep in a BLIZZARD. I had left my grandchildren basically in the care of strangers till hubby came home as he had been driving OTR and was out in Oregon and it would take 2-3 days to return home to get the kids 2 to 3 days I didn't have to wait I needed to be with my youngest sister and our FATHER. No matter what the man did to us he was still our father our daddy. When dad got home he had several rules to follow which he forgot very quickly and I was there to remind him not to do this or make sure you take your medicine or what ever....we talked about nursing home but dad said put me there I die. So then we talked about hiring nurses to come stay with him would have had to been 24 hrs at that time. it was more than we could afford. dad may have had money but not that kind of money. By this time hubby was there and we sat trying to figure out what the hell to do......ok now wait a minute what about the older two kids? Sister has a dog and bird of some sort ok but cant she put them in care with some one? or bring them? NOPE that was her answer. So we called big brother now he has several birds and a cat who was sick and he didn't wanna leave her. what? ok so hubby said to all of us there which was dad my sister and her hubby and me and him. he said well if dad could pay me to stay home and take care of the kids till they get outta school I could stay there and take care of him.....and it was agreed! So I moved in with dad hubby went home and took care of grands and all was good. Then the calls started both older sister and brother wanting to know who was caring for daddy.Oh they were so happy I was. Then the calls started dropping off and now it was daddy calling them. things went on till the day dad started a fight with me. and he kicked me out by calling the police then said go some place till he cools off then come back.....thing was he went 2 yrs not letting us back in the house unless youngest sister was there. BUT oh let me tell you what he did to me......instead of telling people including my siblings that he kicked me out he told them I had abandoned him so no matter how many times I told them what dad had actually done they didn't believe me they believed him!!!!! several neighbors out there still hold a grudge against me. I really don't care I know the truth and that's that! So ok now youngest sis and I are checking on dad often her going over on Sunday's Tuesday's Thursday's and me the other days. then I missed a couple weeks due to car accident and then there were a few more weeks off and on where I just couldn't drive even down the driveway because I was in so much pain. Youngest sis was still going over and dad was still doing ok for himself. Then one day when I was having a really good day I drove out to dad's. He was sitting in the living room on a kitchen chair facing the street...(well ok he did this to watch for the mailman so to me that was normal) EXCEPT he had his hat and jacket on. I asked if he was going some where and he said my brother was coming and he was gonna take him to lunch. So I sat with dad. after half and hour I said hey dad lets you and I go on up and when he gets here he'll call me on his cell and we will tell him to meet us up there. So dad agreed. we went to lunch and I called brother and asked him when he was due here. ????? Well surprise surprise he was still at home and wasn't planning to come up. I told dad and he told me oh he must'va got lost. I said no he's at home he's not coming. Many many months dad kept saying brother was on his way and brother wasnt coming...when ever I talked to him he couldnt leave his sick cat. (WOW his cat was more important than his own father) well life went on and next thing we knew social services were out there and they condemned the house.......now mind you this house had been like this all our lifes and yes we know it shouldnt have been that messy or dirty but we were used to it we cleaned up the main parts but as for the rest well lets just say when mom and dad went out to auctions and there was stuff no one else wanted they would buy it for a buck and our home soon was cluttered with stuff that might be worth something some day. And dad (even mom when she was alive) knew where everything was. Now a days they could almost be called hoarders with the exception that there was more room to walk than a path and you could always sit down, or find a place to sleep. some time you had to move something dad had been working on but that wasnt new to us. Now we are in a tizzy dad's home condemned and he couldnt live here but he could live with youngest sister. So there he went. Now sis has a split level compared to dads one level. dad knew how to move around the stuff including the cats and dog at sis's he rarely left the bedroom except to eat go to the bathroom or go out to the doctors. He begged me several times to take him home and I cried but told him no. Dad too wanted to die at home but now he wasnt allowed to go home. Then he misjudged the bed and fell and broke his hip. that was his down fall......his alzheimers was worse and he was more confused than ever so when he was put into the nursing home for recovery after the surgery he thought we left him there and he gave up completely. then he came to my home his last few days and died here. Now mind you in a sense he had died at home....he helped put the addition on this house so to him this was the big house and he built part of it so it was like being in his own home. Then came the funeral where oldest sister came brother did not. Oldest sister said two things to piss us off. 1st thing she said was I was daddy's little girl till you guys came along and second thing she said was she had called social services because dad told her we werent feeding him. So Now ok I let the first one slide after all she didnt have any more control than us over who dad married and stayed married to than we did. BUT when she told me the second I thought to my self you killed our father. if he had never been removed from his house the house he knew like the back of his hand he probably never would have fallen(cause only other time he fell was winter when he put a piece of plywood out the back door so the dog didnt have to climb steps only for it to get so slippery that he fell)he would never went to the nursing home were he thought we left him at(even though we visited him there alot including his 91st birthday) and he might still be here today....because this man was more alive at 91 than most people at 60. He had energy he was still building stuff by hand no less and then she sends in social services................................Part 2 tomorrow

ALL THINGS

IT'S BEEN AWHILE SINCE I LAST POSTED. I'VE HAD A LOT GOING ON AND JUST DIDN'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT.

OUR HOME HAS BEEN SAVED ONCE AGAIN, NO WE DON'T GET TO KEEP IT...NO THE SHERIFF'S SALE HAS BEEN POSTPONED ONCE AGAIN NOW IT'S JULY 9TH. WITH THAT IN MIND THEY HAD TO EXTEND HOW LONG WE COULD LIVE HERE. SO WE NOW HAVE TILL JAN 2012 TO STAY.

BUT DAMN I HATE THINKING OF MOVING IN THE WINTER. HUBBY SAID IF WE CAN SWING IT WE ARE MOVING (at least back to SD) WE ARE TALKING TO A REALTOR WHO THINKS HE CAN SELL THIS HOUSE FOR US. WE'VE BEEN WAITING TO SEE IF HOUSING PRICES WERE GONNA GO BACK UP SOME. THEY HAVEN'T SO WHO KNOWS HOW THIS WILL TURN OUT. IN MY OPINION I THINK THAT BECAUSE THERE IS SO MANY HOUSES EMPTY AND SO MANY MORE THAT WILL SOON BE EMPTY FOR ONE REASON OR ANOTHER, I'M AFRAID THAT WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN IS THAT PRICES WILL FALL TO WAY WAY BELOW WHAT THEY ARE REALLY WORTH TO PRICES BACK TO THE 1950'S OR LOWER. JUST SO THEY CAN SELL HOUSES AGAIN. AND OF COURSE THEY'VE GOTTA LOWER THE INTEREST RATE LOWER THAN NOW. THAT'S ONE OF OUR PROBLEMS WE PAID INTEREST AND PAID INTEREST AND NEVER GOT TO THE PRINCIPLE OF THE PAYMENT FOR THIS HOUSE. WHY YOU SAY EASY WE ADDED ON, WE ADDED A GARAGE, WE REMODELED AND THEN DID REDID THE SIDING AND WINDOWS AGAIN. ALL THAT DID WAS REDO THE MORTGAGE OVER AND OVER TILL IT WAS OVER OUR HEADS. WELL ACTUALLY WE COULD WHILE HUBBY HAD THE GOOD TRUCK DRIVING JOB THAT PAID VERY GOOD. BUT WHEN THAT WENT SOUTH AND THE ONLY JOB HE COULD GET WAS A $10. AN HOUR THAT DOESN'T EVEN PAY OUR MONTH TO MONTH BILLS LET ALONE THE HOUSE...WELL YOU GET THE PICTURE.

WE'VE DECIDED TO STAY WITH VERIZON SO WE UPGRADED PHONES SO I WAS LUCKY ENOUGH TO GET A BLACKBERRY CURVE. NOW THIS ISN'T A NEW PHONE IT'S REFURBISHED. BUT HECK I'LL TAKE IT......THE BLACKBERRY FLIP I HAVE(HAD) HAS TO BE AT LEAST 3 YRS OLD IF NOT 4. SOME OF THE BUTTONS DON'T WORK ANY MORE, SO MOST OF THE TIME I WOULD HAVE TO GO BACK AND REREAD WHAT I TYPED BEFORE SENDING AND IT WOULD TAKE ME SO LONG PEOPLE WOULD CALL ME TO SEE IF I GOT THEIR TEXT. BUT NOW THEY ARE GONNA HAVE TO WAIT A WHILE FOR ME TO ANSWER THEIR TEXTS BECAUSE THE BUTTONS ARE SOOOOOOOO SMALL! I NEED MY GLASSES AND A MAGNIFYING GLASS. IT DOES HELP THAT ITS GOT A QWERTY KEYBOARD BUT DAMN THOSE BUTTONS ARE SMALL.

IN OTHER NEWS WELL GEE I CANT THINK OF MUCH ELSE WE SEEM TO BE IN A RUT. ONE WHERE THERE IS NO MONEY TO DO ANYTHING SO WE SIT HOME AND PLAY ON FB.

Happiness

Our granddaughter is girl in the middle

What ever happened to

going out to a dance to meet a person of interest? why are all these people using Internet dating? I myself did my searching the hard way! I was walking down the street where I grew up on and at the house where I babysat a couple of little girls there was a guy standing on the ladder scrapping off paint. SO I GAVE HIM A WOLF WHISTLE. You know the kind that men usually do to sexy ladies walking by. And when Mr Gab (well he wasn't mr gab then) turned around I said not you shipwreak the tree.(yeah I know not very nice right?) Then we would laugh our ass off, at our cute little private joke. In reality he was very good looking(or at least I thought so) and after awhile he came down off that ladder to talk to us. Well my girlfriend only stayed like 5 mins and then she said she had to wash her hair. Ok so now Im all alone with him(sitting on the grass in my front yard out in the open) and we talked for about 3 hrs. I learned alot about him(he was the brother of the father of the girls I babysat for)I also learned he was leaving for the army that week. When he did leave I wrote to him but he never responded. When I asked his sister-in law if she knew why he wouldn't answer me she said because he thinks I called him a Sh*t Brick. I laughed so hard I almost peed my pants where did he get that from? SHIP WREAK and SH*T BRICK don't sound even close. So for 2 years I went about not dating anyone. Then Mr Gab came back from the army and the first chance he had he called me up and told me to come on over to his brothers house. Ok so this is like in Jan. COLD. so I bundle up trudge across the street. and these fools steal my jacket and throw me down on his lap where he wraps his arms around me and tells me hes not letting me go till I agree to go out with him. and there you have it we met under normal instances not Internet dating.
OH but I haven't told you why I even brought this up..............
Its so funny................ I can hardly keep from laughing now as it is...........
So Ok my daughter known to many as NY3Boys, decided to try Internet dating.
and I guess so did our oldest son. And she was here at the house and she decided to see if they had recommend someone for her....................................and yes they did................HER OLDER BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG are you serious? laughing my butt off falling off the chair..............
and then guess what? they sent same information to her brother and he like showed up and said your not going to believe this.......BUT OH WE DO WE DO LOL. He couldn't believe it they had both filled out their information like 2 days apart and the Internet dating place matched them up as a good couple. I was like cant they see you have the same last name? Daughter was like no mom we don't put last names right away just first names and email address. Our son was like when I seen ny3boys I thought gee that's sounds familiar. SO guess what they did next? they both went to another dating site filled out their information and gee guess what? they were matched there too as good matches for each other! yeah brother and sister gonna get right on that. SO I think they should both forget Internet dating and go look on their own. Like their dad and I did

Invasion of privacy

Google earth....it can be a good thing yet it can be a total invasion of privacy.
BUT OMG I LOVE IT!!!

so let me tell you about my little accident that I had the other day that didn't involve cars. I like the Internet. A LOT!

So ok I have been using realtor.com to find houses for sale in Florida. I love realtor.com! They show cheap houses and they show the OMG ARE YOU KIDDING WHO CAN AFFORD THAT!?

So any ways....it started out like this. I was watching the movie Bird Cage with Robin Williams. And they were talking about South Beach Fl. and I was thinking ok is there really a South Beach or is it something used for the movie? So I go to realtor.com and put in South Beach Fl and hit search. well one of those OMG homes came up first. 34,000.000.00 WOW so I'm like ok lets see how the other half lives.
There were about 20 pictures so I looked at them and ooohhh and ahhhhed. yeah very very nice house. SO then I'm thinking hummmmm how about I fly there and look at the neighborhood.
SO I bring up google earth and type in the address of this 34 million dollar home.
And I'm looking at it and I see all these little flag thingies. So I ran the mouse over it and what do I see? The home for sale belongs to.................................................drum roll.................................its a biggie............................................WILL SMITH!!!!

will smith? really will smith?
Well that explains why they want so much for the home. One of his neighbors is Julio Iglesias. Another neighbor is Shaq O'neal, another Elisabeth Taylor.

Ok right there I'm drooling all over the place. Can you imagine sitting by your pool and having Julio come out side a talk to you? Or maybe I could go over and get into Shaq's face and have a one on one where I win of course.( sorry Shaq its my dream).

Now if I actually had the 34 mil to buy this house I might actually have to kidnap Mr Smith and keep him for a trophy! lol
I can see it now and this is Mr Smith's bedroom where he and Mrs Smith slept when they were living here and oh here in the bla bla bla is Mr Smith himself. How ya doing today Will? Oh I'm sorry did you have a movie to do today? Well maybe I'll let you attend tomorrow. Whats that? Mrs Smith? Ya I told her you took the 34 million and ran! Sorry.................NOT.... LMAO

Ok its a nice dream of owning Mr Will Smith's home. But like you know I don't have movie deals coming my way to pay for this nice dream.
But again google earth is it an invasion of privacy? Or is it the way people get to see how the other half live?

Seriously I gotta do something about it!

YEP IT HAS BECOME A BIG PROBLEM HERE IN THE HOUSEHOLD OF GAB.

My favorites box is so full it takes me almost an hour to get through every thing. Serious! I've got stuff in there that I wanted to check out later when I wasn't busy but never got back to it. There is stuff so old in there the links don't even work any more. I was looking for something (scratches head and wonders did I find it?) and started scrolling down my favorites list. Then I thought well why don't I make some folders and put together stuff that are alike.....Riiiiiiiight? Ok so I make a new folder and I start adding stuff....then for some reason I went back to look at something in that folder and found it didn't work any more so ok I deleted it. So then I thought well I guess I better check all the links to see what does and does not work. In the middle of doing this I got disturbed by grandson #1. While I was helping him Mr. Gab yelled for something (he was in bathroom) so I went to check out what he needed. Got finished came back to computer and the lists and low and behold the Mormons come to the door. So I close down laptop chat with them for a bit. When they left granddaughter #1's mom texted and asked it I could come get granddaughter for the weekend. So I went and got dressed (yes I was dressed sorta I had on shorts and an old t not the kinda clothes you'd wear out in 17 above weather) and ran to get granddaughter. Got home grabbed laptop and thought oh yeah Ive got stuff on FB ready I best get to it or I'll loose it. So I started playing FB then Daughter shows up with other 3 grandsons and well lets just say I never got back to sorting my favorites till tonight then I seen the time and thought OH HELL NO I GOTTA GO TO BED! So what do I do instead? Post here of course! LOL Have a good night

JUMPING FOR JOY

YES! I AM HAPPY! YES I AM JUMPING FOR JOY! And if I could make a person dance on this screen I probably make 20 + people dancing across the screen, thats how happy I am.

YES....................................................MR GAB HAS A JOB AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Full time and full bennies which means I get medical insurance again! I can go to the doctors and get my pills.


YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

HE STARTS TONIGHT.

MEN!!!!

SO I SLEPT IN THIS MORNING TILL ABOUT 9;30AM. IVE BEEN HAVING TERRIBLE PAIN IN MY BACK AND AS SOON AS I LAY DOWN I START GETTING SPASAMS. I HAD SPENT THE FEW NIGHT BEFORE LAST CRYING MOST OF THE NIGHT.

SO OK I GET UP LATE THIS MORNING, AND MR GAB GOES TO THE BASEMENT.......BUT LET ME BACK UP A MINUTE.......

LAST NIGHT WE WERE IN BED AND MR GAB ASKED OUR 15 YR OLD GRANDSON TO PUT THE CLOTHES FROM THE WASHER TO THE DRYER START THEM AND MAKE SURE HE SHUTS OFF THE ALARM. A FEW MINUTES LATER HE COMES UP STAIRS AND ASKS GRANDPA IF ITS BAD THAT HE DROPPED A SCREWDRIVER DOWN INTO THE LINT TRAP. GRANDPA SAYS HOW THE HELL DID YOU DO THAT? GRANDSON SAYS IT WAS ON TOP AND WHEN HE SET BASKET ON TOP WHILE HE CLEANED OUT TRAP THE SCREWDRIVER FELL IN. SO GRANDPA SAYS LEAVE IT TILL MORNING.

OK NOW............
SO GRANDPA GOES TO THE BASEMENT THIS MORNING AND STARTS WORKING ON GETTING OUT THE SCREWDRIVER. PRETTY SOON HE'S YELLING COME OPEN THE DOOR. I SENT OUR 11 YEAR OLD GRANDSON WHO HAS BEEN HOME A FEW DAYS TO OPEN THE DOOR. HE COMES BACK AND TELLS ME NOT TO GO OUT THERE. PRETTY SOON I HEAR MR GAB TELLING ME I NEEDED TO TAKE HIM TO URGENT CARE, I ASKED WHY HE TELLS ME THAT HE RIPED A BIG HOLE INTO HIS PINKY FINGER. I SAID CANT GO TO URGENT CARE GOTTA GO TO EMERGENCY ROOM.
NOW LET ME SAY IT WAS SNOWING OUT AND SLIPPERY.
I CALLED DAUGHTER TO COME GET HER KIDS CAUSE I NEEDED TO TAKE HER DAD TO THE HOSPITAL. AS SOON AS SHE GOT HERE WE LEFT. I DONT THINK I EVER GOT UP OVER 25MPH. IN FACT FOR ABOUT 3 MILES I FOLLOWED A SNOWPLOW.
GOT MR GAB TO HOSPITAL, THEY STARTED DOING THEIR STUFF AND I LOST IT. I STARTED TO CRY SO MUCH I DIDNT KNOW IF I'D STOP.
YOU SEE IM THE ONE USUALLY IN THE BED AND MR GAB IS SITTING IN THE CHAIR WAITING FOR THEM TO "FIX" ME.
IN A COUPLE OF HOURS DAUGHTER HAD TO DROP BOYS OFF WITH ME SO I WENT TO THE WAITING AREA WITH THEM. IT WAS PROBABLY A GOOD IDEA THAT I WASNT IN THERE WHEN THEY FINALLY GOT BACK TO HIM,(A AMBALANCE HAD COME IN SO WE HAD TO WAIT A BIT)
THEY PUT 14 STITCHES INTO HIS PINKY...NOW THE SKIN HAD BEEN HANGING WHEN WE CAME IN AND WHEN THEY WASHED HIS FINGER TO SEE WHAT WAS WHAT IT FELL OFF. BUT MR GAB SAID THEY TOOK THAT SKIN AND STITCHED IT BACK ON.
WHEN WE GOT HOME HE WENT DOWN AND FINISHED THE DRYER AND OF COURSE HE COMES BACK UP BLEEDING. WE WRAPPED IT UP WITH A HANKY TIED IT TIGHT.
HOPING IT WOULD STOP SO WE DIDNT HAVE TO MAKE A RETURN TRIP.
THEY HAD TO CHECK THE TENDONS TO MAKE SURE NOTHING WAS DAMAGED. LUCKLY HE SEEMED TO SCRAP RIGHT DOWN THE OUTTER EDGE OF THE FINGER BUT YET IT WENT IN DEEP.
WHILE WE WERE THERE THEY STARTED US FILLING OUT PAPERS FOR MEDICAL ASSISTANTS.
SO ITS BEEN A LONG DAY. AND MR GAB SAYS THE NOVACAINE HAS WORN OFF SO HE'S UNHAPPY.

I dont understand

I have several things that are truely bothering me.....and to be honest they shouldnt.

Take number 1 for example: Woman who are married and know their husbands cheat on them and they know it yet they take em back over and over and over again. WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEM? they know their man will never change yet they continue to take them back. Let me tell you something If I ever found out Mr Gab cheated on me (again and again) I wouldnt want him back. You just dont know what these other woman might have....not saying that they all do but you know woman lie OH YES THEY DO!!! People ask me when I tell them my age they look at me and go oh yeah sure now whats your real age? IM SORRY ARE YOU DEAF? I JUST TOLD YOU MY REAL AGE. then they go oh well your a woman and all woman lie about their age. Well Im sorry I DONT! You wanna see my birth certificate?
So I guess if Mr Gab had been cheating more than once(once I might be able to forgive,) but more than that NO FREAKING WAY!!!!

Ok now that thats off my mine sorta....lets get to number 2


NUMBER 2: Now this is a biggie......yeah yeah cheating husbands and the stupid wifes who take them back is big but this is ridiculous.........
So yesterday I called to check on price of two of my prescriptions......One was nice and cheap...$10.00 I can scrap that up. Then the second one I ALMOST CRAPPED MY PANTS!!!!
90 days $765.00 I said is that will your savers card? No she said its $602.00 with card. So then I said what does a 30 day one cost? She said $295.00 I said guess I wont be getting those refilled any time soon!!!!! GOOD LORD ARE THEY MADE OUTTA GOLD? CAUSE GOD IF THEY ARE WHY THEY HELL AM I SWALLOWING THEM?
this so totally stinks.

OMG ARE YOU KIDDING?

Ok....well looks like this year is gonna be a bitch! My oldest sister had taken my youngest sister to court over dad's estate. She lost. So now she has a new lawyer and my youngest sister now got a letter saying she has to stop selling dad's stuff. What? Are you kidding? DO YOU KNOW HOW THAT MONEY WOULD HELP US? just because your daughter lives in Calif and makes good money and her father is filthy rich and your not hurting either doesnt mean the rest of us arent. Im sorry but I didnt go out and "pose" for Playboy and make a small bundle. So geeze give us a break we are normal every day middle to lower class people. ok no one is normal but for god sake WE DO have to worry about money.
One of these days Im gonna post A HNT post.....and one of these days I will laugh my butt off to believe I actually posted a HNT!
But for everyone else who does HNT, HAPPY HNT!

year in review

Ok so this year has been a difficult one at best. My dad passed away in April...and that kinda set the mood for the whole year. Everything revolved around dad's estate(which btw hasnt been settled yet!)My oldest sister decieded to get a lawyer to fight my youngest sister being in charge of dad's estate. Well, oldest sister lost and youngest sister is working on selling everything as dad's will stated. Well almost everything.
We took in dad's dog....who didnt bark, was almost blind in both eyes and had arthritis in his hind legs....common I guess in his breed.(he was part collie part german shepard) He loved his walks and would literally dance to go. He lasted a year and half with us before he passed. Oh now that was awful in its self but poor AJ...Buddy was kinda like his dog. He was very upset. Of course he asked if we could get another dog but we had to say not right now.
In July Mr Gab got pushed right out of his job at Holiday. He was making more than the managers were and he was an Assistant Manager. He asked to be trained and moved up but they shoved him right out the door. Everyone said we should get a lawyer but where do you think the money will come from? Mr Gab did work an OTR job till they ran out of work. SO he's been putting in app's all over the place including driver for Pizza hut...........to NO avail!
We lost the house and it will be sold in a sheriff's sale. We just have no means of coming up with over 10,000. to catch up the mortage...in fact they said oh we can re modify so you can afford your payments....they were over 1,200 when we started and after they re modified it was over 1,300. Now plz tell me how in the sam hell that got better? if we couldnt afford 1,200 how can we afford 1,300? so we lost our home of 35 years.
Mr Gab still not working and weve run outta money. I guess next step is welfare. I dont want too Mr Gab doesnt want to but as long as no one is hiring what can we do? and what are we gonna do when they come knocking and say move out now? We have no money left for any kinda of 1st month rent nor deposit!
Our christmas was bleak to say the least but we kept cheerful for the grandkids. ALL of whom were here.....YEP you read right ALL 8 grands were here....Kelley's mom has let us start seeing kelley again. In fact Ive had her all this week while she is off for christmas vacation.
Our internet,cabletv and telephone is only on thanks to our youngest son....But I dont think he'll be able to keep that up much longer so any day now it could get shut off. Im not sure how I'll handle that....I LIVE FOR THE INTERNET! I play pogo, and facebook and I still bop over to my friends here on blogger world. Unfortunately some of my friends have decided to stop blogging and I will miss them and their keen wit! But I understand as I haven't written in awhile Ive been so angry that Ive been afraid to write for fear of going off the deep end. So I just came and went on other bloggers sites mostly not even leaving a comment (unless I couldn't help myself)
I have dropped a lot of meds I need and so my health has been all over the place....I try to keep the main one which is for the heart/bloodpressure rest of them I just cant afford.... the heart one is almost 200.00 so I can do that one but heck now when I run out Im not sure what we will do.
Mr Gab has taken copper and aluminum down to sell and that gives us a few bucks, he wanted to donate plasma but he has hep b so they wont take him.
But with all my bad luck this year Im looking at 2011 as being a better year for us maybe this will be the year to move to FL? I can only hope.

HAPPY NEWS YEARS EVERYONE BE SAFE,HAPPY AND HEALTHY

10..9..8..7...6...5...4..3..2....1

MERRY CHRISTMAS

I'M SORRY-BUT GO GREEN

So I have added a new link over to the right....but for some reason I cant get it to work properly. So if you would please copy it and put it in your browser just the way it is. Hubby and I have started to be more concerned about our planet and have started to "GO GREEN" here in our home. Hope you join us in the "GO GREEN" and check out this website. Plant a dozen trees lol.
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BEEN AN INTERESTING WEEK SO FAR

Well,I havent said much about it any where else because you know if you spread it around people will know.
But so far this week has been interesting. Mr Gab left last Saturday.....he's driving again.....over the road (OTR). And so far no real problems, the kids and I have been scrubbing house top to bottom, Mr Gab wanted to know why we couldnt do it while he was still here....my only answer to that was IDK. It was like if he did work the rest of us did too and if he took the day off so did we. Our youngest son has been staying here and he said it was because his dad was "in the way" Well, ok but the man lives here hello!!!! little man hasnt been very happy about grandpa being gone and OH OH OH neither has Lucky!!!!! There is no one who plays ball with Lucky quit like Mr Gab does. I try trust me I try but I dont throw it just the right way.....I swear I think I'm throwing it up really high and he jumps up and grabs it mid air and the drops back on the bed like hohum is that all you have!? I mean seriously that cat!!!!!!!
I went to the doctor on Tuesday I went to the arthritis doc. and my blood pressure is off the charts again! I think if I hadnt had little man with me they would have put me in the hospital. They really werent happy with me. They kept telling me that it was too high. The nurse even asked me it I had taken my pills that morning. I said yes I had. I usually take them around 7 am every day. and my appointment was at 9:45 am.
Any ways.... I've talked several times to Mr Gab. It's kinda funny he calls me more now than when he was working close to home. LOL but really he calls to check to see what our bank is doing to see how I'm doing without him and so forth. He has spent the last three days in Florida. I keep telling him to look for a house for us. He told me one neighborhood had some houses for sale but they only had a sidewalk in between each house thats how close together they were he said you'd be in your house and "burp" or "pass gas" and the neighbors two houses down would say there they go again. Thats just a little to close lol. I mean here our house not only on a corner but there is enough space between our house and the neighbors that you could build a small house in between us. Now thats space. Even at our house in South Dakota we are on a corner and have space between our house and our neighbors. Of course our farm has the most space!
Mr Gab told me to "win" the lottery so we could buy a house in Florida. Yeah thats gonna happen. Well any way Mr Gab says he might be home this weekend. So hey if you dont find me here or Facebook or Pogo well........I guess you know where I'll be and hey if the bedroom is busy stay away!

I NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD COME TO THIS

Well actually I did. All though our married life I bought stuff... Oh you know the kind of stuff....collections, rings, what ever I thought at that time that I just had to have. I still enjoy alot of my "STUFF" but now here's the kicker.. I was packing some of my stuff to move with us when we go. There was certain stuff I really wanted to keep. Take for example my snow globes. I love those things. I have some unusual ones. and some that are just cute. So I packed them all away using a ton of bubble wrap, making sure I put them some place that wont get cold so they don't freeze and break. Then I had an epiphany! Ok so first I'm thinking I have to have a place to put these. then I m thinking what are they really good for? and the last thing that really got me thinking about keeping these snow globes, is all they do is collect dust and I really hate to dust. So I sat there thinking so why do I really want to keep them? I couldn't come up with a good reason, so I said ok I'm gonna look at them see if maybe I'd like to keep just a couple and sell the rest. After all we are pretty broke even though Mr Gab has been doing some work. But before I got started doing that I started thinking of some other stuff I could get rid of. Like I have a "Sh**" load of rings. I cant wear most of them because of my arthritis. So I went through them last night and off to the pawn shop we went. I got more than I expected yet less than I expected. I had a diamond solitare ring that an old boyfriend gave me and I figured that alone should have been 200. But nope that was about 75.00 Mr Gab had want to get estimates from at least 3 places but that one took so long that we both said ok we will take your deal. I started to cry cause in away those rings meant something to me but like I said I cant even wear them so whats the point of having them? So there was my start. Then I started to think of other "STUFF" I have in collections and thought the same thing why do I want them are they doing any good by having them and do I really need them. my answer was I dont need them they dont do me any good and lets sell them too. That dust factor came up alot. and so did we are really broke. So with that in mind alot of stuff is going to be put up on either ebay or craigslist. Now mind you stuff that came from my grandmother or my mom I'm keeping no matter what. That to me does have a reason. I can come up with lots of reasons as to why I need them. My snowglobes not so much. I have resigned myself to I really dont need this stuff any more and I really dont know why I thought I did but maybe now selling them I can make some money.

ANOTHER ONE

So remember on the 13th it was my sisters birthday? Well that sister's daughter has a birthday today sooo it true Gab fashion:



HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR M
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

and many more! love aunt g!

wow it's funny because this neice is now 15! OMG 15. but ok thats whats not really the funny part. The funny part is my oldest grandson will also be 15 this year just in Nov.


So when my neice was born and then 3 months later my frist grandbaby was born whew I was busy. I was trying to spoil them both. i was trying to put myself into the poor house then I think. But see I couldnt not spoil M just because I had Tj now. I had spoiled M's brothers (rotten I think lol I got them lots of those gameboy games they wanted even when I just bought them one) So I had to also spoil her and now a grandson! now mind you I think the grandson got a little more than my neice did. BUT the thing that realllllllllllyyyyy puts both these kids on top of the world is they get to drive soon!
My neice has already taken driver's school. My grandson has driven my car (with me teaching him) . He will do the school this next year or maybe in next few months after school starts. I to a point am looking forwards to my grandson driving. OMG DID I REALLY SAY THAT? I can hear it now my kids are dropping their mouths and going "mother you've gotten soft in your old age."
See because when it was time for each of my kids to start thinking of driving I said OH HELL NO NOT TILL YOUR 21!!! now here my grandson is only goingto be 15 and Im already teaching him. One reason I am ok with is it is then I can send him to the store and I can sit home. Or he can drive me and I can sit back and relax! It's kinda funny I never thought in those terms with my own kids I was jumpy nervous and definitely not calm. But with my grandson it like whats the big deal? And as for my neice? As long as I cant see her driving Im ok. But should I see her I probably freak! I swear theres something wrong with me. LOL

DREAMS

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I had my favorite dream again last night. Oooooh and it was almost like it was happening. It starts out with this delivery truck pulling up to my house. A guy jumps out and comes to the house with a envelope. He tells me he has a package for a Gale......... and he needs my ID. So I get my drivers license and show it to him. He takes the little wand thingy and scans my license. Then he takes another do hickey thing out and says he needs my thumb print. So he takes my thumb print and runs it through a machine and a green light pops on and he says ok sign here and its yours. After all that I'm like WTH is in the package. I shut the door and go sit in my chair and start to open it. There I find this cashiers check for $10,000.00. I look at it again then start to scream "what are you kidding where did this come from" Of course the very first thing I do is pay off this house and then pay all and I do mean all of my bills off. Whew that's a relief. Then I split the rest up and either buy bonds or put it into CD's. Then I sit back and dream of what to do with some of the money. I do take some and build a house on my grandparents farm which my dad left to me. I think of buying a spot in Florida and buying a boat. A BIG BOAT cause I wanna sail around to every where I can. I buy some new clothes (after all most of the ones I own now are about 25 yrs old) But I just don't go crazy. I do let Mr Gab get a new truck after all he's been driving junkers for so many years now that he most definitely deserves a new vehicle. But the biggest item I buy is Motor home. Then I drive around the country to all blogger friends and have a party at each and every blogger friends house. It's such a great dream.

I started this Blog yesterday morning before we left to get our oldest grandson. We had to drive up to Hibbing to get him and that's about a four hour drive. We left around 12:30. we got back here around 10pm. We stopped in Milac Lakes to eat at the casino. Our grandson didnt want to come in because he's only 14 and there are signs every where saying no one under 18 allowed in the casino floor. We finally convinced him it was ok we were only going to go eat not play. Then a little girl who was about 10 came out so he figured it was ok to go in to eat. The buffet was pretty good. Our grandson was impressed by the lake. Milac is the biggest lake in MN. We finally got home and I crashed big time.

This morning I was doing good till I took a tumble across the kitchen floor. I hurt my legs pretty bad. My back is also not doing very good. sooo we will have to see how badly its going to be. right now my legs are getting stiff.

IT'S FRIDAY THE 13TH AND MY SISTER'S BD

ITS THAT TIME AGAIN.....SO IN TRUE GAB FASHION:


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR SIS
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
and many more!

Yep it may be friday the 13th but its also my baby (oops sorry sis I forgot)sister's birthday. so just like any other time I blog about it and I text her and this year I bragged about it on Facebook.

I was trying to remember a little anidote to tell you all about her when she was little to go along with this birthday wish but I really couldn't remember anything new (the mind is going I think).
So I just wanted to say Happy Birthday sis I love you and wish I was closer to spend time with you on your day, but your gonna have to just accept this blog and Facebook and the text as me being your pain in the butt sister letting everyone know it's your birthday.

Mr Gab can drive you crazy if you let him.....

So Mr Gab has now been home about 3 weeks,with about 3 trucking jobs to talk about. 1 for the actual company that he left Holiday for.
So for the most part he's here at home on the internet while we still have it. He has checked out places to get help for my prescriptions, at home jobs and going back to school. If I thought our phone rang off the hook before I was sadly mistaken,now it rangs just about ever 5 secs.About the time the answering machine picks up and they either leave a message or not the next call comes through.
The only really good thing is all the work here on the house is now finally getting done. The new doors on each room looks great. He has helped me finish the dishes (i can load dishwasher but all pots and pans and anything else that cant go in dishwasher I gotta leave for someone else) He washed and dryed all the clothes and I put them all away(I cant find any of my t-shirts I wear cause I put them away)Some of the other things that Ive been waiting for Mr Gab to get around to are getting done. So yeah its good that he's not working but not so good for paying the bills getting my pills or even buying food. We are talking about food stamps something we've only had to do one other time since we've been married. Mr Gab has applied for unemployment again something we've only had to do at least twice before. Mr Gab has called my lawyer to find out whats happening with my lawsuit for the lady who ran the red light 2 years ago. He said he would check into some stuff and call back ....ummmmm that was also 3 weeks ago. I also have talked it over with Mr Gab and pretty much decieded some how we've gotta get a lawyer to fight for my disability for SSI. And in the middle of all of this we are still waiting to see what will happen with my dad's estate. UGH!

So much has been going on

That I really dont know where to start. So lets just start at what I last remember.
About 3 weeks ago, hubby decieded he was going to change jobs. So he went to Walbon's to see if they had any work. They said yes, this was their busiest season. And they were so short on drivers. So he had drug test done again he didnt need a physical because it was just a year ago that he had one done and that was still good. So Mr Gab. put in his two week notice at Holiday and got ready to drive. His last day aat Holiday was a morning shift 6:30am to 2:30pm. So he wouldnt be tired the next day for his new driving job. We were sitting down to dinner when phone rang. It was Walbon's and the job that was set up for the next day had been canceled and they didnt have any thing else for him. so here he sits day after day searching for another trucking job. We did have a friend who owns his own firm call him to take a weekend job for him so he could have a weekend off. Mr Gab took the job. Thing is with him not working I have no insurance for my meds. AND OMG ARE THEY EXPENSIVE. So I pray every day for him to find something.

Then in the mix......My cousin whom I haven't been getting along with her daughter who was 25 and just had a baby and just got married, got sick. She went into the hospital complaining about a headache. So they gave her meds for migraine, but they were talking about doing a spinal tap. But she started to feel better after they gave her the meds so they sent her home thinking she had a migraine.(our family suffers from migraines) Next day she went back in sicker yet. they were going to fly her to another hospital for better care but she was too sick for the flight.
Then the worse possible thing happened she died. 25 years old. BRAND NEW BABY BRAND NEW HUBBY. and she was gone. They did the autopsy and found she did have spinal meningitis. OMG! SERIOUS?
I didnt go to the funeral even though I ask my cousin if she would be upset if I was there. I was so tired from staying up the night before caring for the grandkids. I fell asleep and missed it.
So all in all it has been busy here. I come and read blogs I sometimes leave a message and some times either laugh or cry to myself. The simplest things, be them funny or not I end up crying. Life just doesn't seem fair.

And once again we are facing loosing this house. They did the remodifcation only to keep the amount of the loan at 1,400.00. which is what we told them to begin with he couldnt afford. So because they didnt drop the amount we are again today 4 months behind. They promised all good things lower amount lower intrest and they didnt follow through. it all stayed the same. what kind of help was that? oh yes they were gonna save our house for us, yep they were. righttttttt! So in the middle of all this jumble we are trying to find money to move back to South Dakota. The reason we will go back there is when we bought that house in 1999 we used all of Mr Gab's 401k money to pay for that house out right. We were keeping this house and renting it so that we could have extra money. After all this is the 1st house we bought when we were first married. So we figured we would live in South Dakota and rent out this house and yeah all would be good.
But you know what happened right? no ok let me tell you. We moved out there because I've always loved South Dakota my dad grew up there and we have a family farm. Dad left me part of the farm so I wanted to be out there. But that house was in no shape to live in so we bought a house in town. We thought we would get a house in town live there in the winters and in the summer we would live in our trailer. it worked out fine. Then in 2004 dad had a heart attack and I came back here to care for him. I moved in with dad in Feb. In may on mother's day I gotta call from the police here in Bloomington telling me to bring a camera. My renters wrecked this house. it was a mess. no doors some of the windows were broken and couldnt close. Oooooohhhh it was awful. When dad and I had a falling out about why I was there careing for him we moved back down here to this house and been here ever since. We have since been slowly fixing this house to try to sell this time then of course the housing market dropped. UGH when it rains it pours!
So there you go....all the stuff thats been going on since I posted my new hair doo.

WOW

picture 2 after!

Picture 1 before

Its messy in pic 2 but you get the idea

hello its me

Well I'm back......sorta. My dad's death has hit me harder than I expected. I lost my mom back in 1996 and I didn't think I'd ever get over her death. Mom and I weren't real close per-say but I would call her several times a day just to talk to her. And when I was upset I would call her and talk until I calmed down and realised hey it wasn't as bad as I thought it was. For excample.......
I really really wanted a mercury Topaz. I don't really remember why I wanted that perticular car but I did. we finally found one we could afford and bought it. I drove that car like I was the queen and every one better move on out of my way. Then came the day about 3 months after we bought the car when I needed a new belt. Mr. Gab was grumbling on having to spend money on the car but got the belt. He had just installed it when he got called from his job and had to go to work in Wisconsin. He asked do you wanna go with? I'm like sure. So we left our kids at home ( they were teen agers) and took off for Wisconsin. Mr Gab has a lead foot, and drove quickly to the job. we got to his job and he went in to work and I sat in the car reading a book and enjoying just being there. I'm not sure how late it was when he finally came out but I was starving. Mr Gab Had said same thing when he got into the car. So he told me we would drive over to where he knew there was a Hardees. We got our food and got back on the road. Now because we were no longer in a hurry Mr Gab drove slower. We hadnt even unwrapped our food when outta the ditch came a deer. Mr Gab tried to miss it but couldnt. Now this deer hit hard and I do mean hard. I heard the glass break, but I didnt know which window broke. AND I dont know why but I had covered my head with my arms closed my eyes and kinda ducked down just as we hit. When our car came to a stop I slowly sat up and looked around. It was dark and no other cars seemed to be on the road. Then all of a sudden I remembered Mr Gab and asked if he was ok. He said yes, and asked if I was ok I said yes. I knew I was covered in glass so I reached up and touched the windsheild fully expecting it to be gone. It wasn't even cracked. Then I reached up to my side window and discovered that it was gone. Mr Gab went out to look for the deer but couldnt find it. We sat there for a bit and realised no one was coming by.( we didnt have a cell at that time) Mr Gab said there was a gas station up the road and he said if the car starts we will head there. It started. we slowly drove up the the shoulder of the road and made it to the top of the exit ramp before the car gave up the ghost. We managed to cost down into the parking lot. Then Mr Gab went in to call the police and also to ask the guy if there was someone who could tow us home. I went to the phone and called my mom. When she answered I burst into tears and was hysterical ,said we had hit a deer and my car the car I had wanted to damn badly was gone, totalled. The I babbled about the money we just wasted putting in the new belt and now we didnt even have a car. AND MY MOM SAID TO ME well at least your alive and so is MR Gab. Well, yes but I lost my car. I'm not sure how many times mom had to repeat that before I caught on. But I finally calmed down and figured out what she was saying. THEN CAME THE BIGGER SHOCK.......
when the police finally got there to take the report, he told us that looking at the car and damage that he figured that when we hit the deer the deer rotated some how and kicked out my window. The side mirror was on Mr Gab's side of the car on the floor and the way the front window was still there yet the front end was smashed, he said had I not ducked his hoof would have hit me in the temple and killed me. Talk about angels watching over me. He also told us it had to be really big to do the damage it had done. But when he went looking for the deer even way out into the field he couldnt find it. But see little tings like me loosing my car had me so upset but mom kept telling me but I was alive. Who cares about a car it can be replaced but I cant. It took me a bit but it finally sunk in.
Now that my dad has passed....I have realised I have no parents...... I am almost 56. Mr Gab is 59 1 year away from 60. And I dont know why but that bugs me alot.
I know one thing I think I didnt appreciate my parents when they were alive as I should have. And now its too late to tell them that.
Thing is.......just about every night since dad passes Ive had dreams about both of them and my uncle who is dad's brother and my favorite. This week I had two unbelieveable ones. On Monday night I went to bed covered in my blanket and quilt. I'm sleeping and all of a sudden I break out laughing uncontrollably.... I mean I just couldnt stop. When I finally got my breath back and calmed down I got so cold that I started to shake. Here I am totally wrapped and warm and now freezing. Then it happened a second time that night. Tuesday night I had a nightmare. I was trying to scream in my dream but couldnt seem to get the sound out. The more I tried the more nothing came out. Mr Gab woke me up and said I was crying in my sleep. I said no screaming. He said well go to sleep. But before I could fall asleep I got cold again.....freezing cold to the point I was shaking and shivering. Then it passed. When Mr Gab got home at 12 am on weds, I was still up I was too afraid to go to sleep.That night I pleaded with my mom and dad to let me alone that night I needed sleep. And I didnt have any dreams.....MY sister C did on the other hand. So I tried again on Thursday night and again I had a good night. I also told my mom and dad if they had something they wanted me to know to please just tell me and not scare me to death or laugh me to death.
We shall see how it goes tonight.

ADJUSTING

I borrowed this from VE although I made a few changes. To me this Black Ribbon means death. I have just suffered through my dad's passing. Only to learn that my big bro may be next. He is very sick.

So while I am still adjusting to my dad no longer being with us, Im preparing myself just in case.

It seems really strange that I now can no longer call either of my parents. But in exchange for picking up the phone dialing and talking to them I just open my mouth and talk, just praying they are listening to me.

We all have questions why of course. We all know he was old as he had just turned 91. But he was a tough old bird and never let anything get to him. This man is one who would eat garlic (the whole clove) and rub vicks on his head in hopes of regrowing his hair, and keeping busy even though it was getting harder to walk. He has a brother in South Dakota who is 101. I was positive that dad would live that long as well. He would never let this brother out do him in anything.

That is one reason its so hard to believe he gave up.

But I console myself knowing that he is finally with mom. And maybe just maybe he finally got to meet his dad who died when my dad was only a year old.

R.I.P. Dad

I love you and will miss you very much. I hope you and mom are now up there watching over the rest of us till we get there as well.

Sad Day

Last night every 2 hrs I was up giving my dad his meds. @ 9:30 am when Mr. Gab got home from a doctors appointment, I asked him to keep an eye on my dad so I could grab a nap. I had been asleep about 10 mins when Mr Gab woke me to tell me my dad had passed. So dear blogger friends I will not be posting for a few days.

short but not necessarily sweet

First the good note: HAPPY EASTER


Now the not so good note:
This one is short its one I don't necessarily want to write either.
My dad is dying. Here in my home.
my dad is 91 so he has had a good long life.
yet I don't want him to go.
I love my dad despite all the things "bad" that hes done to me.
He has made me strong. He has made me a fighter. He has given me a soft heart. And he has in his own way given me love.
Dad showed me how to be a carpenter I can go out and hit the nail on the head and not my fingers although I have done that time to time
dad tried to show me how to work on cars so I could fix my own......I can change a tire, check the oil and add if needed but thats about it now since most cars now a days have computer chips in them.
Dad showed me what the value of old things could be if kept nice Dont throw nothing away.
Dad taught me to drive and eat a piece of fried chicken with out ending up in a ditch or hitting someone else. (i'll tell you that story later)
dad is dad! everyone has one somewhere. Either in their lives or not they do have a dad. And its a possiblity their dad has passed too.
In my head I know its time. But in heart I want my daddy to stay a while longer.

Birthdays

Yesterday March 12th was my dad's 91st birthday. Mr Gab and I drove out to see him and was met there by my youngest sister and her oldest son. Dad slept almost the whole time we were there, but the nurse had told us he had both PT and OT just that morning.
Today March 13th Is our daughter's xx Birthday. Yeah Im being both nice and well ok lets get to the real point! Im not sure how old she is today. I think hummm I think 33 but wait let me check 2010 minus 1977 yes she is 33 today. Which means my oldest son is 35 till Oct and youngest son is 31 till Oct. This is the point when they are all odd numbers. Then in Oct 2 of them will be even and then next march they all 3 will be even till oct again! In a way thats how I keep them sorta straight.lol

So Lets do this all up right


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR DADDY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOOOOUUUUUU
and many more!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR TONYA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOOOUUUUUU
and many more

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo to you both Love your daughter and your mom respectfully

Oscars the red carpet

I did not watch the Oscars. I wanted to but I let my son and grandson play the PS2 on my Tv.
So today they have the best and worst of dresses. Well I guess the first thing I must say is good thing Im not rating these dresses. Now don't get me wrong most of the dresses were FAB! But on the wrong people I think. For example Miley Cyrus. That dress is too grown up for her and too bland. A Little colour would have been better. Jennifer Lopez her dress was ok till you got to her hips. Now most woman want small butts but this dress made Jennifer look like she had a mile wide butt. (sorry Jennifer) Meryl Streep Had on a beautiful white dress that was great till you got to that dip in the front which looks like it belonged in back and on someone who had the chest to support it. Mo'Nique had a very beautiful dress on. And I believed it was a great choice for her. WTG Mo'Nique. But the dress that Gabourey Sidibe made her look like a Hugh plum. She should have worn black. Vera Farmiga had one of the most beautiful dresses but she seemed to be lacking color in her face (which is surprising to me since I use no make up but I think a little something would have make her look less like a ghost wearing a Fab dress.) Im afraid I would have given D's or F's on some of the dresses that got A's on. I guess Im not a very good judge.

Some days

There are some days I wonder how I function. I wasn't very good in school sorry to say I had a lot of F's. Although I did get some C's and D's. Now here's a surprise my senior year I had mainly A's. WTF!? Well ok the counselor told me if I didn't buckle down and get better grades I would not graduate. So ok I started to turn in my work instead of saying the dog ate it, or the wind was strong walking to school today and ripped it out of my hands and blew away I just couldn't catch it. But I had art that year. I can't draw worth crap!!! And then I had the most obnoxious teacher! Oh how I disliked him!!! so much so it was a true hatred. I could not stand the man. I would sit in class and take that F! I refused and I do mean refused to do any work! and guess what? I passed with an A! Now I'm sure your asking how can that be? Its true I passed with an A. How did I do it? lol its kinda funny in a way. We were doing silver. making jewelry. He said one day I wish we had some polished rocks That would make your jewelry look very nice instead of plain. And I raised my hand. He looked very surprised and said ok Gale what do you have to say? And I replied my dad polishes rocks. He looked totally amazed. And he asked would he sell us some? I said I could ask and let you know tomorrow. He agreed. I asked my dad my dad was more than willing to sell some to our class. I told our teacher and he made arrangements to go with me to my home and get some polished rocks. They ended up buying 2 coffee cans full(large cans). Now I never did do any of the assignments in art class but because I told them where to get polished rocks to improve the other kids jewelry I passed.
Now why is it important to tell you all this? Because I'm having trouble with my grandkids. They don't like school. And they have heard the story before about me and how badly I did and still graduated. But I tell them school today is much different than when I went and the world is in a whole different spot than when I went to school. you need to learn more do more and pay attention to what is going on. with to days every day changing faster and faster technology moving faster you need to learn everything you can in school to keep up.

Mr Gab thinks it was wrong that I told them how bad I was in school while they are still in grade school. He said I should have waited till they had graduated before telling them. I thought I was telling them be smarter than grandma was.
So we do a little fighting with the grandkids to get them to understand school is important.

is it real or fake?

I was sitting in the doctors office this morning and this woman came in and sat next to me. First thing I noticed was her nails. I myself just got mine done. Yes I have fake nails. Because of everything going on here with my dad, kids and grandkids I was bitting them to the quick. So Mr. Gab surprised me the other day and told me there was this nail place down close to where he worked and said would you like to get your nails done? Silly question. My hands looks bad with my nails all chewed yet I just couldnt stop myself. But this lady had about 5 inch nails. She sat down and said ooooh I like that color what is it? I said moving to montana. I said I like yours. Now trust me I was wondering how the heck (insert h*l* there) she used her cell, which she was typing away on. Then she goes for reasons unknown to me my hair is dyed my real color is red(she was a blond) and my true eye color is brown( I looked but couldnt tell so she said they were blue now, the wonders of color contacts) as she got up to go in for her appointment she goes with a little sneaky smile and the breast are fake too!
Now mind you I would never tell a complete stranger all the info she shared with me. Another person fairly close to me said "Yeah and I bet she was born a man too"
I laughed and though yeah I bet! I was soon chatting with my nurse and she said she had seen me talking with Karen before her appointment. She assured me she was a woman and her problem was how not to share personal information. Again to much information I didnt ask for.
When my appointment was over I had to rush home grab my oldest grandson and take him to his Doctors appointment. As I was waiting with him, for some reason I started to look at others and wonder if anything about them was fake.
Me on the other hand Ive never colored my hair.....high-lighted it not colored and its a dark drab brown, my eyes are my eyes...... brown,my nails yes they are fake.....and my breast......are all mine!
I wondered most of today why woman and yes even some men do these things to them selfs? I also wondered why woman would lie about their age as someday the truth will come out. Me? Im too honest I tell every one my real age.
So what did I leave out? Nothing Im as real as you can get.......and on my next birthday I will be XX!


lol just kidding I will 56!

HAPPY VALENTINES

I'M TAKING THIS ONE DAY OFF OF BITCHING AND JUST TO SAY ONE THING TO ALL MY BLOGGER FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS IS:




HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

SHARING THE LOVE TO ALL TO DAY!

YES I AM

You probably know or maybe not, know that I am a big time cat lover. Ive had a cat in my life since I was 2. My first cat trusted me so much that I used to carry her by her neck. Now remember I was 2. But even after I was old enough to carry her the right way I often still carried her by her neck. When I was old enough to read BIG words I read all about cats. In our school library they had several books about cats. So after awhile most people asked me questions about their cats. Now I'm not claiming I'm an expert on cats but I come pretty damn close.



My girlfriend from way way back (3rd grade) called me the other day and started to talk to me about the new kitten she got. She was talking away and I had part of my ear there listening while I was trying to keep grandkids settled when all of a sudden I caught what she was saying.

"my kittens whiskers were so long that I took a pair of scissors and cut them all the way down to her nose."

"what" I screamed into the phone "are you kidding me? You never ever cut cats whiskers"

" why" she asked me
"Are you kidding me? Ok wait a second while I catch my breath. Ok now listen to me very carefully! You never cut their whiskers no matter how long they get. even if they stick out farther than the cats body!!"
" Their whiskers are how they tell how wide a spot is so they know wheather or not they will fit though that spot. So if their whiskers arent long enough they will think its ok to go through a spot and possibably get stuck. their whiskers are like a ruler"
"oh" she says "so if they are cut close to their noses they will get stuck?" she asked me.
"yes they could" I tell her rolling my eyes thinking didnt I just say that?!
"well what about the whiskers up above their eyes can you cut those?"
"no no no" I tell her "dont cut any of their whiskers"

Our conversation covered more stuff like triming nails what way would be best. What about cat nip do you give that to cats and how much in a day that kinda stuff.

So after all was said and done I guess you could say yes I am an expert on cats!

things move

So I'm sitting here after having the first injection in my back and feel pretty good. So what do I do? Over do it. I go and load the dishwasher and thought wow I haven't done the whole dishwasher in 5 yrs all at one time. Before shot I would load bowls on top go sit for 5-10 minutes. Come back load glasses, go sit. Do plates go sit do silverware go sit add anything else that would fit go sit. Now I could come add detergent, turn the dial and go sit. Now though I had to sit about half and hour. But usually I couldn't sit even that long I'd have to get up and walk a little like down to bathroom or my bedroom or just to other end of house. Then of course I had to sit again. This would go on all day some days I couldn't even get more than dishes done. Some days I would walk down the stairs to do laundry and wouldn't be able to pick my feet up for 2-3 days and shuffle around the house.
Then I washed rest of dishes by hand. I still was feeling good. Ok lets bend over and clean out cat litter. Yep still feel good lets scrub bathroom. And vacuum the living room and my bedroom and oh there is a little snow on sidewalk lets go shovel that.
AND WHAT DO YOU KNOW? Now I hurt.
I got one of those little shock electric thingys that I hook up in the spot that hurts. Hummmm how can I do my back and legs and arms all at same time with only 4 leads? I cant I need to put all 4 on my back. Then I was silly and wasn't watching the numbers while I was setting it and next thing I knew I had it up to 5.0 and OW that hurt worse than me over doing it.
Now I notice that one certain spot in my back hurts all the time. Its not a strong pain its mild but I do notice it.
I go next week Friday for another injection. You can be sure that I will not repeat what I did.
I will take it easy and slow.
My lawyer is still working on getting a settlement for me. But because of the newest problem he was waiting to see how these injections do.
So now its been 1 yrs 4 months since the accident. I so hope something works cause I don't wanna have to do these shots very often.
I also went to physical Therapy and they found something in my neck that isn't suppose to be there so when I go back in 2 weeks they probably will need to do an MRI on my neck. All I know is she found it brought in another doctor to confirm that it wasnt suppose to be there. and said can you feel that when I move it and does it hurt. To which said yes and not really. So I will let you know what they find in 2 weeks time

FINALLY I THINK WE ARE HAVING A BREAKTHROUGH

If I had the money, the ways, and means of supporting this cause I would be in the #1 spot and screaming as loudly as possible. What is it you ask? Well its the word I hate the most.

In our St Paul Pioneer Press paper today was an article saying:

'RETARDED' VANISHING FROM LAWS , MEDICAL BOOKS.

well its about damn time. Ive hated that word for many many years. I would not let my kids or grandkids use that word around me. That was one of the reasons my grandkids came up with re-re.
That word has been thrown at our family many many times, not just because of my middle sister but me as well and sometimes my youngest sister. (well if one is retarded you all must be)
And like I said I HATE THAT WORD! BIG TIME!!!!!!

the paper said it was about time to change......Yes it is should have been done many years ago. But I guess I gotta be happy that it is being done.

So a little back ground if you are a new reader or if you have forgotten.

I'm the oldest of dad's second marriage. I was 5 when my sister D was born. There were some little things to let us know right away she was "different". Then came the day mom and dad took her to the doctors because she choked every time she tried to drink her bottle and was loosing weight. After all was said and done they had an answer. My sister D was Mentally retarded and had Cerebrel Palsey. I watched my mom and dad crumble. Never in my whole entire 5 yrs had I ever witness my mom and dad in so much pain. From that min on my sister D's life became a whirl wind of treatments. Mom and dad had to turn her head for her to loosen her neck (she later had surgery to cut the cord in her neck) They had to take her legs and push them to make it like she was riding a bike. They had to bend her hands, back and forth to keep muscles loose. Her one eye lid was longer than it should be, she used her finger to open it up so she could see so they took her in and had part of it cut away. Now it doesn't close all the way like ours do but it opens all the way. She also had a hole in her heart which was called Rheumatic Fever. So she had to take meds for that. She still choked every time she ate so we kept a bucket by the table when we ate. My sister D was 4 when my sister C was born. Both came home from the hospital the same day. Mom was holding baby C when D came home mom showed her the baby and D hauled off and hit her. lol. She didn't mean to I know but it sure scared baby C. Then Mom said to me G you are gonna have to help me. I said Ok. She then handed me baby C and said your gonna have to take care of her for me. So at 9 years of age I became an instant mom. It wasn't too bad cause mom was there if I really needed her but I can only think of one time I had to ask for help. I had put in the first diaper pin and was attempting to put in pin 2 but she was crying so much and wiggling. SO mom came to check and found I had pinned the diaper to the baby's skin. Ooooh I cryed so much cause I didn't mean to hurt my baby sister. My mom tried to console me and to reassure me that it sometimes happens and she has done it too. But it took me almost 2 hours to really calm down.
I also made sure that I played with my sister D alot. She loves to play Catch with a beach ball. And she really enjoys playing with a deck of cards. She doesnt have a real game just one she made up. Only she knows the rules and only she knows how to play. But the two of us could still play cards together. I would aske her to find me a King and she would find it. Not always on the first time but after awhile she got good at finding the right card first time asked.
There were many times though that I no longer wanted to play with either one of them and thats why my dad really got down on me and yelled at least you have legs to walk , run and play your sister has to sit here and wait for someone to play with her.
talk about guilt trip.
Sister D had to wear leg braces. Full leg braces. And she needed a wheelchair to get around in.
I think she was almost 5 before she really learned to crawl. it wasnt like a babys crawl though cause when she would it was almost a leap when she was moving, arms first then legs she didnt move one leg then the other they both went at the same time. some times she looked so funny doing it and like I said it was more like a frog leap than a crawl.
She also took awhile to learn how to use a fork. But to this day she still uses her hands and fingers the most.
So now you know some of my sister D's life but most of all you now know WHAT I HATE THE MOST That word!

What the heck

Ok I'm am so pissed again! Why oh why are some family members such a pain in the azz? Do you know I have honestly put this family member totally out of my life and forgotten them and gone on with my life. ONLY TO HAVE IT THROWN AT ME BIG TIME!

You know I swear, they cant possibly have a life, cause they are too busy sticking their nose in mine. That's gotta mean my life must be interesting. And here I thought we were boring. Anyways the thing that gets me the most is that not only do they stick their noses into our lives but then go on to tell other family members that really don't have to know anything! AND of course they always make us out to be the bad people! Then I put into the mix my grandchildren who fight so much that it makes my blood pressure soar to the point I just wanna run away. Then throw in my youngest son who is fighting with his girlfriend and he complains to me that he ain't good enough. OMG!

Mr Gab is right......He asked me the other day why did we have kids? None can seem to do anything. I'm beginning to wonder my self why? Long time ago I could've whipped out an answer and been proud to say why. Now I sit here wondering so ok why again?
So with all that going on this family member has to step in and tell me what I should and shouldn't be doing. their life's are nothing close to mine and doesn't even compare. PLUS they never raised their own children theirs were put into foster homes. Maybe I should start telling her what they have done wrong and remind them of why their kids were taken away. SO when you come right down to it they have never raised a child. NEVER RAISED A CHILD.
its great to give advice when you your self have no clue cause you've never actually done it.
BUT and I do repeat BUT you do not repeat do not need to tell other family members your side of the "story" and make us look bad. don't and i repeat don't spread trash sh*t around that isn't true. you don't need to go to your mom or dad or our cousins or aunts and uncles or any body and tell them anything going on in my family...in case you have forgotten IT'S MY FAMILY, MY BUSINESS. unlike some sh*t I could say about you and your family but I'm not that kind I dont stoop that low.

take your mom for example......all these years she has said I climbed out my bedroom window to meet a boy, and all these years I have said that wasn't me Ive never did that. but she has called me a lier (hummmm must run in your side of family)
You want the truth!!!!! Ask my sister C she admitted to me that it was her that climbed out the bedroom window (but not to meet a boy). So there stupid get your facts straight before you go around accusing someone!!!!!

and one more thing please tell me what gives you the rights to "KEEP MY PHOTOGRAPHS?" They are of me and my family you dont need them. Your not in them. These are Photos I'd like my grandkids to have. and dont send me F****king copies or put them on a disk GIVE ME THE ORIGINALS! THEY ARE MINE!!!!!!!

What in the world goes on when we sleep?

Attention bloggers : I have stopped lurking. I am not just reading your blogs, I have started to leave comments again. Did ya miss me? Its ok if ya havent!

I got up this morning and got the surprise of my life........................................... I had 50 or more grey hairs!!!!
Now mind you your probably saying so what. I've have a whole head of grey hairs and had for x amount of years.
But see that's the problem. Yesterday when I went to bed I only had about 5 to maybe 1o at the most. SO WT heck happened in the middle of the night? Do we have little elf's who come in and paint your hairs grey one at a time?
I have heard that stress makes you go grey quicker, well that old wife's tale is just that because if stress did it I would have been grey at age 28.
The funny thing is both my younger sisters are almost totally grey! When I seen them I said oh hell no go get your hair colored right now cause your not gonna look older than me. Especially since 1 is only 5 yrs younger than me and the other is 9 yrs younger. I for the most part enjoy being the oldest sister!(in this family as I do have both an older sister and brother).
Ok different subject.
Did I tell you we now have dad's dog? His name is Buddy and he is part collie part German Sheppard.med size dog and don't bark, Seriously! In all the time dad has had him and now what little time Ive had him I havent heard him bark. Now dad says he has once but you know there are lots of dogs in dad's neighborhood it might have been another dog. (see weird cell phone photo at left)
Ok well I guess thats all for now. Have a good week.


OH YEAH GO VIKINGS! they play today I hope we win!

Only grandma will do

Last Sunday, actually early monday morning our daughter called telling me that "little man" was throwing up. He was crying so hard that he was choking and making him throw up even more. Our daughter was crying and making things a little worse. I told her take him to the doctors. But she was like he threw up in bed and all over the place and what if he throws up in the car? I'm like thats all part of being a mom. I also told her to get a bucket for him to throw up in. Mean while in the background I could hear him crying he wanted to go see grandma. I finally told her to get some extra clothes pjs and stuff and bring him over. So at 3:30 am our grandson came to see us. I picked him up and rocked him gently, he stopped crying and sat quietly with me. Grandpa talked to him and the held him over the garbage can when he threw up again. Soon we told grandpa to go to bed and we sat quietly for about 30 more mins. He soon told me he wanted to go to bed. SO we shut off the lights and walked down to the bedroom. He asked where I was gonna sleep and I said next to the wall. He said where do I sleep? I said in the middle as soon as I tell grandpa to move over. Soon we will all in bed sleeping. Somewhere around 9am daughter text me to ask if she should come get him. I text back and said we were all still sleeping. Half and hour later and little man was crying and wanted his mom. So I called her and told her. She finally got here and I said he was still throwing up and she better take him to urgent care. So she did and when she called me 2o mins later she said he had strep but because he was throwing up they were gonna give him a shot. Oh that didnt go over to well but hey it worked faster than the med would have if he took it then threw up again! She took him home. Then he came over on Tues like normal, telling me that he was feeling a little better. I said good. Then Weds they came over like normal and went home like normal. But at 8 pm Weds night daughter was calling he was crying again and she was afraid he was gonna throw up again. Again I could hear him telling his mom he wanted to go to grandmas. She told him it was too late it was 8:30 and grandma wasnt feeling well. OH MY GOSH he was crying so I finally said just bring him over. So she brought him over to spend the night again. He was more than happy to sleep over at grandma's again. BUT................grandma and grandpa are still so tired. That kid kicks alot. and of course grandpa was afraid he would roll on top of him. I was afraid the cats would sleep on his face so we didnt get a good nights sleep either night. One thing both grandpa and I agreed on is if he comes to spend the night again we best have a bed of all his own to sleep in.
On sat Jan 30th Little man will turn 3. Already he's telling me his birthday is next and he wants a blue monster truck that is remote control!!!

I tied but I cant do it

I have tried to get back here and update you all on my boring life, but it hasnt been easy. Yes Yes Im still playing on facebook alot, more than Mr Gab likes.....speaking of which he has his own page so he can play games lol so he really cant talk. Plus we both have accounts on Pogo.com which is where this game bussiness all started. Im about to give up Pogo, because after all I can play all kinds of games on FaceBook without paying. Although Mr Gab has been working so much in the last few weeks that we do have a little extra, so he doesnt mind paying for pogo as he likes it as much as I do maybe a little more. In fact he played mainly on Pogo till he found that game Bejeweled Blitz on FB. so he created his own page just so he could play at any time. He has set up another page with his name for one of our grandsons to play Farmtown and Yoville, but it had gottened hacked so he made his own page no one but him goes on it and we deleted the other one.
My dad has gone into the hospital and then moved into my sister C's house. He isnt doing all that well. They took him off the memory meds the ones that were to help him remember things longer, and already we see the difference. Even though we tell him who we are he doesnt know us. I have come up wiyh an idea about one thing, those with alzheimers talk alot of about their lives when they were younger. They dont know us because we werent there when they were younger. You can say dad but if they are back in their younger days they dont have kids.
They told us we needed clean up dad's house what a job that is.
My sister's husband has been doing most of the work as Mr Gab is working so much at his job he really doesnt have any days off.
Well guess thats all I have for an update.

New Year

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERY ONE. HOPE 2010 IS A GOOD YEAR FOR YOU ALL

Are you freaking kidding me?

So I've a little run with with a family member again! I swear some days I just wish that I had no family. But you know I love my "family" it just extened family that I can do with out. Now this family member is not a child,but sure acts like one. We had words and I guess what I said hurt them. Then they proceeded to say I'm going to my imediate family i.e. mom dad sister hubby. and show then what you said.
OMG just let it go.
1st off they are just words they sting but really dont hurt and if they hurt maybe you should stop and think what did you say to them? If you think the words hurt come stand in front of me and let me slap you up along the side of your head and see what you say about that. Right now in my head there are like a billion times here I would like to use a swear word! And granted I believe I have every right, but Im not sinking to their level.
On facebook they have a spot next to your name and you write what your doing/feeling and today I said Is wondering if we can take a pencil and erase our mistakes why cant we use it on certain family members and erase them outta our lives?
There were a few who agreed with me that that would be nice because it would make their lifes better.
And OH I KNOW that god throws these people these family members in our way for a reason. But for the life of me I dont know why! I know the chinese familys are very close knit and I often wonder if they ever have someone in their close knit family that they would like to be someplace else? And I wonder what they do when they face some one that is difficult? do they say words that are hurtful? Or do they do something more drastic? and are they willing to tell me? lol
But as I requested and I really hope they follow through, I want no part of said family member in any way shape or form.
after all if someone were to upset me with hurtful words I wouldnt go tell my parents ,sisters, hubby OH HECK NO.......I'd blog all about it!!!!

It's been 13 yrs but.....

I still miss my mom like hell. Today's my mom's birthday. She would have been 77 today. Not a day goes by that I dont miss her. In fact I would love it if she were her when her 2nd great granddaughter had been born. I know had she lived those greats would have been spoiled more than what grandma and grandpa do. She was alive when our oldest grandson was born but by that time she was so sick, that she never got to enjoy him. Worse part was my sister had a baby just 3 months before my grandson was born so it was difficult for her having 2 babies at the same time and not be able to enjoy them like I know she would and could have had she not been sick. How I miss her. It is ever more difficult now around this time of year. Thanksgiving and Christmas was her time of year. She was one for getting the family rallied around. Oh we had those family members which we would rather have never had to speak to again, those family members who we spoke to but watched all our silver, and those family members who were ok to socialise with just one time of the year and those family members whom we only spoke with by phone. But somehow mom managed to keep in touch with them all regardless of our opinions. Because at this time of year no matter if you were considered part of the black sheep of the family you were family and mom made sure she included you for just one day of the year. There are many family members who thought my mom was an angel and she was she really was but not the reason they think. Mom would but her true feelings for these family members to the back and just celebrated the day with her family. She would talk laugh and get mad then yell then swear she was never gonna do it ever again. lol. I cant remember hom many times I heard next year Im not cooking. Yet next year would come and she would be the first to start preparing for Thanksgiving. Mom always made goose. and this oyster thingy that if she ever had a recipe for it she kept it well hidden. BUT alas I was a good (choke) daughter and helped her every year so I knew how she made it. But to be honest I asked her one year (thankfully before she got sick) how it was made and she told me so I can make it now. I have gone online and did a search for a recipe because I just wasnt sure of amounts and found one. so I can make it. When Mr Gab and I were first married and we went there for thanksgiving Mr Gab asked her one day where the turkey was. Mom got very angry and said no turkey just goose. And Mr gab the sweetheart that he is goes but I want turkey isnt that what Thanksgiving is about the turkey? OH I LOVE THAT MAN! Let's start trouble with your inlaws at the dinner table. Well, mom calmly said you want turkey you buy it and make it yourself. And so the next year Mr Gab bought the turkey and brought it with for me to cook. yeah with one oven it was a little hard to cook both. We all ate the goose at dinner time and the turkey alot later. Then we discovered the microwave. I had to try cooking a turkey about 3 times before I had it the way we wanted it to be. Once I had mastered that we would buy a turkey and the ingreadents for stuffing and loaded it all and my microwave into the car and take it all to mom's. Set it up and most of the time had to let the microwave warm up before starting to cook. But that was ok cause all I needed was 9999 to cook the turkey. Yep that is the cooking time needed for a 10lb turkey. And boy do I miss my microwave. It's still in SD. So I cook it in the oven here. I tried this microwave, but its kinda small and it takes like forever. I just dont know what the differences are but if anything ever happens to my one in SD I sure hope I can find one like it to cook my turkeys.
Another time and I swear I do love Mr Gab but honestly he is too direct when he should be more meek and quiet...lol......BUT..... he isnt and so one saturday at dinner my mom cooked macaroni and tomatoes. We are all done eating and sitting at the table chatting when Mr Gab says to my mom have you ever thought of adding hamburger to that? And my dad was like oh hey that sounds good add some meat to that. OH BOY OH BOY did my mom get mad!!! Under her breathe she was like we've ate it this way for years then you come in and upset it all! But the next time she made macaroni and tomatoes she added hamburger.
When Mr Gab and I were dating my mom was the one on our side. My dad didnt like Mr Gab at all.....you know no man good enough for his daughter. anyways my mom was the one who ran interferance so Mr Gab and I could go out. And when we got married my mom was there at the wedding but not my dad. He claimed he couldnt take off work. But he has come around....especially when Mr Gab could do carpenter work, and was willing to take his weekend to work with my dad on many different projects. I know on more than one occasion my dad tried to scare Mr Gab off even after we got married. But my mom to the rescue again. She pointed out 1) did you really wanna make me unhappy? 2) did you really wanna do it by yourself? 3) if you scare him off she will be moving back in with baby n all! Thats all it took. By our 10th wedding anniversary I think my dad finally realised that we werent a fly by night marriage that we truely love each other and planned on staying together no matter what he threw at us.

Ive gotten off the subject which was HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM WHERE EVER YOU ARE.
I miss you and love you lots

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

One of our favorite bloggers has a birthday to day. so in true gab fashion


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR BB
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUU!
and many more!


Hope you day is great BB and hope that special girl makes it even more special. (wink)

I just wish for one day

That my mom could come back and talk to some people and tell them straight....how she really felt about certain things. And some people would be really hurt but maybe they would wake up! But I doubt it. I'm pretty sure that even if she told them right to their face they would think she wasn't
talking about them I swear my life would be a whole lot easier if some people who claim to be family would just stay out of my life. Yep we are back to that again. I swear I thought I learned my lesson the first time. But no I gave them another chance. Oh when will I ever learn? These people never change the are still all most just like they were at 13. Only worse cause now they are older and more blind.
Oh yes welcome back folks.......to my bitching post.
I had already planned to come back and write again but this just pushed me and pushed me and pushed me. Oh the things I could say, about this family.
But you know some would say let it go its old history. Well hell honey I would if some people would stop bringing it up. And the thing that really pisses me off the most is she uses my dear departed mom as her life saver. I have up to this point held my tongue but if she knew really how my mom felt about her...THE TRUTH well I doubt that it would even sink in she is so delusional. When she was younger and had a baby and had been drinking she would show up at our house crying cause her mom was "such a bitch". My mom tried to get her out...she thought she was a bad influence on my youngest sister C. My mom would call her mom to please come get her out of her house only to have her mom (my mom's youngest sister) yell at her please let her sleep it off there. after all you don't want her out there drunk and driving with a baby in the car.My mom always wondered how her own sister could let her go out there drunk and drive with the baby and did nothing to stop her but expected my mom to do it. So as much as my mother hated her being there drunk like that mom "let her sleep it off" and watched the baby. Afterwards my mom would tell us she wishes her sister could take care of her own kids and keep that brat away from our house. It got so bad cause she would show up often and always drunk and always with her baby daughter. My mom would actually go out the back door go to the neighbors and "hide out" After awhile when it was apparent that no one was going to control or "help" that kid she started to call the police to stop her and hopefully take her to detox. Which never helped cause as soon as she was let out she was back drinking. I remember one time mom was hiding and my sister D came home and my mom had to run out, my mom was steaming. Now she had to deal with a drunk again. So later my mom called the "school" where my sister D went and then the bus company to see if D could be last one off the bus. They were not sure why my mom would request her daughter to ride around town for an hour and a half before they would bring her home when she was the first drop. But mom knew that "she" would come around the time D came home then pass out. So with D not coming home till 4 30 - 5, mom could hide out more. It worked.."she" would come there would be no one home and she would leave. Mom would call the police let them know and then leave it up to them to deal with her. My mother would tell her sister to please take care of her own daughter as my mom already had enough to do with her own daughter who was born handicapped. But each day her sister would "cry" that there wasn't anything she could do cause her daughter was a strong head snot who thought she knew it all. I was glad when I got married. But I sure worried about my mom left to deal with her sister and her daughter when she had her own 2 kids to care for.
And don't get me started on why I stopped babysitting for them when they were smaller. OMG I know that denial is so larger in that side of the family that they would call me the lier. But you see when I get to the gates I don't have to worry about God saying do you remember when......then look at me stern like and oh don't you even dare to try and pull one over on me my child I seen all. Nope I can walk up there and be told I'm sorry child for all that you endured.

Sooooo If it come to push comes to shove I will shove back and I will let out all the dirty little secrets. I have no problems telling all. and what I know is stuff you dont want the whole world to know but that will not stop me if you push me. I have a few things in my closet but just about every one knows those things you on the other hand dont know half of the story. But I will be glad to tell you and the whole world about your closet. Including the lie your mother has been spreading about me.

Saying good bye is such sweet sorrow

or something to that effect. Well as you can probably tell I haven't been around much. My readership has fallen off to almost Nil. And as much as I like to talk and write my main reason for starting this blog(well actually the other one) was to blow off steam and to figure out if I had been abused by my dad like my sisters. In part I guess I already knew that answer. But it needed to be in black and white and someone else to comment to know what I already knew deep down and just didn't want to admit to myself.
So for now I'm just going to let the blog go and not write anything. I'm not going to delete it just in case I ever want to come back and start writing again. I will however stop by all the blogger's I read and keep reading. I may or may not comment, but I will still be lurking. If there is a reason for you to talk to me you have my email .....(its on my profile page) or you can come over to face book and find me. So until I pick up here again Farewell to you and keep on keeping on.

Too Fast

So the days have been flying by so fast that I just blink and its either the weekend already or Monday again. One of the good things about that is school will be starting again soon. The bad thing it means we are heading into winter again. I think god made a terrible mistake when he was developing the earth. The four seasons were a good idea, but he made winter way to long and summer way to short. I think that all four seasons should have been the same lenght in time. We have 12 months and 4 seasons so that means each should have been 3 months long each, no more no less. Now I know there are many people who will argue that it is that way. But I have seen winter in Oct and May so Oct to April is 7 months. and then should it start in Oct and run to May well that's just too dang long. I don't know how those folks in Alaska survive, but they really have to like Winter to stay there. I guess you can say the same for the folks in the warmer spots like Calif and Fl. to name a couple, where they have summer all the time. And there is another thing I think our creator did wrong. All of North America should have the same seasons...with the same results. If it snows in MN in should snow in FL. The warmer places should then be just South America. Anyways, school season is apond us and soon I will only have the baby during the day hours.