ThankFully

You know my last post seemed to be such a downer. I didn't intend it to be I was just pointing out all the stuff that seemed to be going on that all seemed to be ....well not good.

I am truly thankful that I wake up every day. I still have lots of difficulties walking and I will for the rest of my life as that is what happens when your in a car accident.
Speaking of car accident this year marks the 4th year since it happened. And we are finally settling. We took 20,000. Now I only get 1/3 of that because of course the insurance company has to be paid back and of course the lawyer needs his cut. It sure doesn't seem fair that I only get 1/3 of that money when I'm the one who suffered.
Now here's the thing that really bothers me.....Here in MN there is a No Fault Law. You can sue up to 50,000. Now I tried to get more than the 20,000 but the adjuster said NO because I went to physical therapy to much for a "soft tissue injury". But does this adjuster realise that I was sent back to physical therapy because I was having trouble standing and walking? Because I was falling on my face for no reason? Because I cant stand at the stove and make a dinner? or load the dishwasher? or even do a small sink load of dishes? NOPE I guess he don't really care! and my lawyer didn't seem to really want to work for me either. We wanted to go to court and really push for that 50,000 but as the lawyer explained even if I won that 50,000 I would end up with less than what I'm getting with the guarantee 20,000. I say you should have worked harder for me and then maybe what I pay you would have been worth what I do or do not get.  So either way I got crapped on. Because not only do I NOT get enough money for future doctor appointments which by the way the doctors are now talking about surgery on my back because my feet are curling at the edges and I seem to have lost control so they think there is a nerve being pinched that affects my feet(Surprise.....NOT) So that will all come out of my pocket, I still have trouble walking....lets put it this way I REALLY CAN'T! my legs start to shake if I walk to much or basically to far and next thing I know Im on the ground. I rarely leave the house because I get embarassed when my legs give out and I'm on the floor. Although Mr Gab has been coaxing me out to dinner once a week. I use a scooter when I grocery shop but if I don't have someone else with me to get stuff I can't reach, pack the grocery bags and load the car then its useless. So I usually leave the shopping to Mr Gab. On the other hand since I can't even cook a meal, lots of times we don't eat or we have sandwiches or maybe order in. Either way this SUCKS BIG TIME!
I still am trying to figure out how the adjuster thinks a soft tissue injury is something you can say well Im sorry but you've  gone to physical therapy too much so I am not going to reimburse you? I thought you were suppose to go to physical therapy to get better?  Ah well I guess they just want to save money and they will screw the person who needs it the most..........funny thing.........I follow the law and get hurt.....she breaks the law and gets what? I wonder if she ever feels guilty for running that red light? I wonder if I went to her house and showed her what she did to me by running that red light if she would feel bad then? Of course even if I did it wont change a thing. Might make me feel better but it wont help me walk!

PRAYING

Well Oldest son finally got out of the hospital.........
Cousin Robin's husband in hospital.......he is fighting an infection!!!!!
OMG all this infection....I still have infection in my mouth where they pulled the tooth. I finished meds yesterday. I intended to call dentist today but we had some other crap going on here.

I AM PRAYING ALL MY BLOGGER FRIENDS ON THE EAST COAST ARE STAYING SAFE!


terrible storm going through......

what the heck is going on? this year it seems as if we are being bomb barded with stuff. I even heard this winter will be one of the worst in years!

still dealing with stupid people on our house.......looks like we are gonna loose it after all! :(


I really just give up.................I told Mr Gab that if he can work it to work only 3 or 4 days a week I would like him to do it.
I enjoy having him home. I know we still need money to live but if he can do something else so that hes home more I'd rather he do that. Still not sure what to do for medical or dental insurance but we gotta do something else because Holiday is getting to much for both of us. More Mr Gab than me but it filters down to me as well.

well I guess thats the updates for now.

I'm a little worried

Well they drained our oldest son's hand but it's still not doing good. He has an appointment with an infectious doctor. Our daughter went to see him tonight at the hospital and said hes on a floor that some doors are red tagged but his is not. NOT YET any ways.
She also said it doesn't look that great either. She is even worried.

Then  finally  Mr Gab called his mom today. One thing he learned was she is having her pace maker replaced next week. His sister kinda acted like it was a no big deal surgery. He told her any surgery is a big deal surgery but even more so for an older person. After all his mom is in her 80's.

I am so glad he got past all his anger and talked to her. If he hadn't he would have never forgiven himself.

I have been dealing with a stupid hole in my mouth that wont heal. And pain pills aren't helping it none. Do some scrapping......yeah ok maybe .....travel.......yes.....garage sales and open our own shop yeah I can do that. So ok we have a few ideas.

 here is Our son's Hand

But first I have to get past the goings on with our son and my mother-in- law.

Prayers are needed

This is Weds. By Tues I had so much bad news that I wanted to crawl into a hole and bury myself.
The first thing I learned on Monday was my mother-in-law has cancer and they are going to be doing surgery Nov 13th removing a large mass. I really love my mother in law and this broke my heart. I was hoping to be in Florida this year to spend more time with her but we just can't seem to move forwards.
Mr Gab, was so upset that he went around ranting and raving about things from the past that really no longer was important but because this was something (last thing) he expected he had to figure out a way to blame her. He's mad at himself of course but he didn't want to admit that.
On Tues. we learned our oldest son who had sliced his fingers down to the bone had infection in his hand and needed to be hospitalised.  So I was freaking out about that is he gonna lose his hand because he didn't follow directions? And of course he wasn't letting me in on anything so all I could do was wonder and read some of his post of Facebook.  I finally got him to tell me (hopefully truthfully) that his hand is ok they might have to open it and drain it (Ick) and right now they are forcing lots of antibiotic's in. Now I happen to know a little about infections because Mr Gab had an infection in his knee and I watched it move fast up his leg. So fast that they were scared (at the hospital no less) and they forced some antibiotic's fast into his system to try to head it off. After it was all safe they told us the antibiotic that they used usually is dripped slowly that that sized bag takes two hours to go in. They put 2 of those bags in in 30 mins. that's how scared they were.
So I really hope our son isn't hiding any thing from me. "sigh" Please pray for them both!

On to the good stuff.........

I finally got the link over there on the right side for Jenerally Speaking to work! So now you can click on it and go right to her Blog!!!!!

And I suggest that you go over and visit her while she is doing her Halloween "nail" contest. Oh heck even after the contest visit because this is one talented lady with doing nails! SO far she has blown me away. When I get my nails done I usually stick with a very light pink color something that doesn't stand out much.......BUT HER NAILS ARE SO GOOD SHE MAKES ME WANT TO HAVE MINE DONE JUST LIKE THAT TO SHOW THEM OFF! So go check out her page and see what she has come up with I will guarantee that you wont be disappointed.

Not a techie

I don't do smart things with my computer. I'm not a techie.....I do basic simple easy to follow things...that I usually mess up at some point or another. My daughter's girlfriend on the other hand can do all sorts of stuff with her web site and makes everything look so dang cool. SPEAKING OF COOL......
she also can do nails! And get this SHE HAS NEVER GONE TO SCHOOL FOR IT!
That's right never! and SHE ROCKS AT IT. Now Ive tried unsuccessfully to add her to my links on the side bar only to get just her name but not her web site.
I'm gonna type it here to see if it will come up for ya because you really really need to see the work she does. IT IS AMAZING.
and yeah she is my daughter's friend and yeah I like her alot but that is not why I like them I am really truly amazed at what she can put on nails. she makes her the nails look like art. You know the kind where you go to a gallery and walk around looking at pictures! Yeah they are that good. One she did was of candy corn. Now imagine this if you can you glance at these candy corn and think oh cool I'll have some then look again to realise they are some ones finger nails all painted up. That is how good they are. And she is doing a contest with some other gals and these other gals are good as well but ya know Jenn's nail's POP thats the only way I can explain it they stand out and are so cute! Any ways enough of that bragging hehe let me give you that link see i you can pop over and look for yourself and then while your there check out some of the other nails being shown off! All I can say is every one is very talented and I want mine done!

Well I cant seem to add so try www.JenerallySpeaking.com

MEA

SO MEA DIDN'T GO AS BAD AS I EXPECTED........THE FIRST DAY I HAD ONLY 3 BOYS ONE STILL HAD SCHOOL WHICH HE REALLY THOUGHT WAS TOTALLY UNFAIR. THEN DAY 2 OUR DAUGHTER WAS HOME FROM WORK SO SHE HAD 4 BOYS AND I HAD A TOTAL BREAK. THEN I HAD 3 OF THE 4 BOYS HERE TODAY AS BOY NUMBER 4 SLEPT IN AND IS ABLE TO STAY BY HIMSELF.
SO BEFORE DAY ONE GOT HERE LITTLE MAN ASKED FOR THE NEW MADAGASCAR MOVIE BUT..........HE DIDN'T WANT JUST THE MOVIE HE WANTED THE MOVIE AND THE WIG. SO GRANDMA AND GRANDPA WENT OFF TO WAL-MART AND FOUND THE MOVIE AND THE "RAINBOW" WIG. THE NEXT MORNING FIRST DAY THE BOYS HAD OFF I GOT UP CAME OUT TO THE LIVING ROOM WITH MOVIE BEHIND MY BACK AND SAID GUESS WHAT LOGAN? LOGAN GOES HUH......I WHIPPED OUT THE MOVIE FROM BEHIND MY BACK AND THE SMILE THAT CAME ACROSS HIS FACE OMG!!!!!!
THEN HE RACED INTO MY ARMS AND GAVE ME THE BIGGEST HUG. AND SAID CAN WE WATCH IT NOW?
WELL, WE HAD TO GIVE GRANDPA A LITTLE TIME TO WATCH SOME NEWS THEN GRANDPA SAID OK LETS WATCH THE MOVIE.
ALMOST AS SOON AS IT FINISHED, LITTLE MAN WAS ASKING TO WATCH IT AGAIN. SO WE STARTED IT ALL OVER AGAIN! SCORE!
NOW NEXT DAY WHILE BOYS WERE WITH THEIR MOM OUR MAIL CAME AND HEY REMEMBER THAT MOVIE LITTLE MAN ASKED FOR BEFORE? THE LORAX? YEAH ITS HERE NOW.
SO GRANDMA'S THINKING THAT TAKES CARE OF FRIDAY'S ENTERTAINMENT.
SO TODAY GETS HERE BOYS ARE HERE AND I SAY HEY LOGAN LOOK WHAT CAME IN THE MAIL YESTERDAY. AS I HOLD UP THE NEW MOVIE. HE SAYS COOL CAN WE WATCH IT.
WELL NOW WAIT A SECOND HERE HE DOESNT HAVE THE SAME BIG SMILE ON HIS FACE NOR AM I GETTING A HUG FOR A MOVIE HE ASKED FOR.
AH WELL OK LETS WATCH IT.
SO WE PUT IN THE MOVIE AND WATCH IT. IT GOT OVER LITTLE MAN GOT UP AND WENT INTO THE OTHER ROOM ASKED HIS BROTHER TO MAKE HIM LUNCH AND THAT WAS ABOUT IT!
??????????
REALLY?
YOU DIDN'T LIKE THAT ONE?
ARE YA SURE?
YOU ASKED FOR THAT ONE?
WE SPENT MONEY AND BOUGHT IT FOR YA?
WANNA WATCH IT AGAIN?
NO WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO? TAKE A NAP? SURE OK! LOL
I GUESS THE WIG HAD A LITTLE BIT TO DO WITH THE MADAGASCAR MOVIE AND WELL THE FACT THAT HE LOVES THE" MOVE IT" SONG AND WELL LETS FACE IT THE MADAGASCAR SERIES IS REALLY CUTE AND EASY TO FOLLOW ALONG WITH
WHERE AS THE LORAX IS ABOUT SAVING A TREE. WHICH AT THIS POINT IS LOST ON JUST ABOUT ALL KIDS I THINK.
YEAH SO MADAGASCAR WAS A HUGH HIT HERE AND THE LORAX? WELL WE WILL WATCH IT AGAIN BUT YEAH NO IT JUST DIDN'T MAKE LITTLE MAN'S CUT!

OCT 16th- HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYS

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR JACK JR 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOUUUUUUUU!
and many more.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR TIMOTHY 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUU!
and many more



And so today  is the day. Oct 16th! 
On this day in 1974 our oldest son Jack Jr was born. Our first born baby. Our son.
Ah what a day.
It started out bad and got worse.
The night before he was born I had made gizzards. Now I don't like gizzards But Mr Gab does. So I made them for him. As we sat there he says try just one for me please. SO I tried one. I burped that thing up all night it made me sick. The next morning I was still not feeling well and I was now having bad pains. We decided to go into the hospital. They tell me I'm in labor. So ok. Thats great a little earlier than the due date they had given me but I'm not complaining.
They were hooking me up checking me and then the nurse says OMG. She rushes out of the room and soon her and the doctor come back in. The doctor prods and pokes and listens and then says "ok young lady we are going do an ultra sound to see just how this baby is sitting." I go ok sure. 
So they do the Ultra sound then come back and say ok well there is good news and bad news.
So now Im freaking bad news? Bad news no one wants to hear bad news when they are giving birth to their first born. 
" The good news is the baby is trying to get out just above your left leg so we are going have to pull the baby back into place to be born." WHEW not that I really knew what the hell they were talking about but ok.
"Now the bad news" I wait " we also did the altra sound because we kept hearing what we thought was two heart beats" TWO OMG Now I'm freaking two, ......two babies? UGH I've only got stuff for one.
"But after doing the ultra sound we seen just one baby and he has hic cups. So its just one baby"
Oh Oh ok one ok thats better I didnt have a name for two babies. 
I mean I wasnt even thinking straight. Finally after all day labor I finally have a baby.
Now I dont remember much. But Mr Gab says I was swearing a blue streak. And some of the nuns left the room because I was so bad.
I don't even remember it. Then comes the recovery room. Im in and out. I lost a lot of blood. They have to give me a blood transfusion. I over hear two nurses talking. One says She wanted that baby boy so badly. the other goes Yeah I dont know how they are going to explain it to her that it has died.
I'm hearing this and thinking they are talking about me. Now I freak I wanna see my baby. They dont want to bring me my baby. I say bring me my god damn baby NOW.
So they got and get him and show me the numbers match show me that he has all his little boy parts. ok so Im calm and can go back to sleep. 
I later learned a lady was in a car accident and she had lost her baby that they had tried for years to get pregnant. I felt really bad for her. But I also knew those nurses should never been talking in front of me. 
My next 3 days at the hospital I had an Iv in one arm and a blood transfusion in the other. I couldnt even hold my baby. In fact I had to give them permission to bottle feed my baby because I had so much drugs in my system I couldnt breast feed. Ah the day I went home was the best day of all. I finally got to hold my baby and I wouldnt put him down for NOTHING!


Oct 16th 1978
I am now expecting our 3rd baby. we have one son and one daughter. I thought our family was done but well I guess we were not.
We started out the day I baked our Oldest son his birthday cake.....he is 4 today. It is sitting on the stove cooling before I frost it. Mr Gab comes home from work and we go shopping. This is the year that a lot of the little kids are picking out their own birthday presents. So we are gonna let Jj pick out his own present. Baby Tonya is 18 months old and Im due in a week. 
We are in the store and Jj is looking over all the toys. Im not feeling to good. In fact Im having pains in my back. All of a sudden my water breaks and I scream OMG we gotta go NOW.
So we yell at Jj to just grab something we gotta go now. We dropped the kids at our babysitters and go to the hospital. When we get there they look at my record and see two births two blood transfusions so now they want to try blood plasma before having the baby. I say ok lets try it. After all I would like to be able to hold one of my kids right after they are born. So they do the Blood plasma first.
I pray this baby goes past midnight so that he or she is not born on the same day as our oldest son. Please I ask god please.
My prayers were not answered. Our youngest son Timothy was born the same day as his older brother just 4 years later.
Well ok now how many big brothers can say they got a baby brother for a present?
But this birth didn't go as easy as they expected either. Oh yes I did get to hold this baby right after he was born. I had the IV but this time I did not have a blood transfusion in my other arm.
On the night before I was to go home. I went to the bathroom and almost fell. In fact I didnt make it back to the bed. They came in checked me and ran out. Soon 5 doctors were in my room and they were all checking me.  My legs were hot and swollen. They sent me for test. I had massive blood clots in both my legs but my right was worse than my left. Now I cant get out of bed PERIOD. and going home was a NO WAY IN HELL.  I ended up being in the hospital for 15 days total. and then when they sent me home they really didnt want to. Timothy ended up being bottle feed because mom couldnt do what she was suppose to do. He was the oldest baby in the nursery by the time we left. and he was spoiled by the nurses. By the time we got home I had to hire some one to help me and holding baby Timothy was on a timed bases. 

Happy Birthday boys. You made each of your birth days intersting for me. And all through the years we've had many more ups and downs but I guess thats what make life life right? LOL
I love you both. 

Do we need new cars? yes yes we do!

These are our cars.......One picture is of both cars together can you see the rust? Then I took one of where it has finally made it through the back door (yes that is a hole all the way through) where the grandkids get in and every now and again they like to stick their fingers in the hole. The one of the back of the pickup THE BIG HOLE is just an indication of how bad it is and how we really dont dare put anything in the back. The grandkids love to climb in and we are forever yelling NO! LOL we really want newer cars after all these are from the 1900's!  I love saying that now it makes it sound like they are reallllllly old! Mr Gab tells me I gotta say they are from the 1990's . But that doesnt sound old at all.

I TOTALLY LOVE MY NEW PRODUCT.

I AGREED TO DO A PRODUCT TEST. NOW MIND YOU I USUALLY DON'T DO THIS SIMPLY BECAUSE OF MY ALLERGIES.
BUT MY DAUGHTER'S FRIEND JENNY WAS DOING THIS AND SHE SUGGESTED I TRY IT AS WELL.
SHE WAS TELLING ME THAT THE PRODUCTS WERE ALL NATURAL.

SO OK. I THOUGHT I WOULD SIGN UP AND PROBABLY NOT BE PICKED.
WELL TO MY SURPRISE I WAS CHOSEN TO DO A TEST PRODUCT.
SO IT CAME IN THE MAIL THE OTHER DAY AND LOW AND BEHOLD I WAS IN LOVE FROM THE MINUTE I OPENED THE PACKAGE.

IT SMELLED WONDERFUL.......I TOOK A BIG SNIFF..........AND WAITED.........................NOTHING NO SNEEZING NO EYES WATERING AND NO NOSE PLUGGING UP SO THAT I CAN'T BREATH! OK 1 THING DOWN MANY TO GO.

SO I PICKED A VERY SMALL SPOT ON MY LEG BY MY KNEE AND I SPREAD A LITTLE ON MY SKIN. AND I WAITED...............................NOTHING AGAIN...............NO RED SPOTS NO ITCHING AND NO RASH.

OK SO NOW I'M LIKE YAY I CAN USE THIS STUFF AND ITS NOT BOTHERING ME ................SO I PICKED A BIGGER SPOT AND PUT ALOT ON....................................NOTHING...............AND MY SKIN FELT GREAT ITS NOT GREASY ITS NOT OILY ITS WONDERFUL.

SO NOW I KNOW I CAN USE THIS PRODUCT. AND I DONT HAVE ANY PROBLEMS LIKE I DO WITH MOST EVERY THING I BUY IN A STORE.
LET ME TELL YOU THAT IS SUCH A RELIEF. BECAUSE I HAVE TO BE VERY CAREFUL BUYING STUFF IN THE STORES. I NEVER HAD THIS PROBLEM BEFORE BUT AS I GOT OLDER AND THE MORE MEDS I TAKE THE MORE I SEEM TO HAVE PROBLEMS WITH SMELLS AND FRAGRANCES. ONE OF MY BIGGEST PROBLEMS HAS BEEN WITH SHAMPOOS NOTHING LIKE BUYING SOMETHING THEN ITCHING SO BADLY THAT YOUR HEAD BLEEDS THEN YOU GO TO GET YOUR HAIR CUT AND THEY SEE ALL THESE SCABS AND WONDER WHAT THE HELL............IM FOREVER CHANGING SHAMPOOS I USE ONE FOR MAYBE A MONTH THEN GOTTA CHANGE AGAIN...SOME TIMES I DONT EVEN GET TO USE IT THAT LONG. YOU WILL SEE ME A STORE SMELLING STUFF BEFORE BUYING AND LOTS OF TIMES IM PUTTING A SMALL AMOUNT OF IT ON MY SKIN TO SEE IF I HAVE ANY KIND OF REACTION. THANK GOD FOR SAMPLES BUT SOMETIMES EVEN THOSE I HAVE TO OPEN TO SMELL AND TRY I WILL HAVE TO GET AN EMPLOYEE ALOT OF TIMES TO HELP ME BECAUSE MOST ARE SEALED AND MOST TIMES I CANT BUY IT AFTER I TRY IT. SO THIS MAKES ME HAPPY. GO CHECK THEM OUT:

http://delvauxsoaps.com/

PUPPIES

Awwww I love puppies!!!!

and if I could I would buy every puppy I see.........but you know I would probably go broke and then poor puppies would have to go away.

But I do love puppies and I do want one! and here is the one I want....Her name is Diamond! and just like a Diamond she is precious.

I go to : http://www.scottspuppypalace.com/ alot to look at puppies. I also enter their contest to win things.

I went today and found Tux....OMG he is soooooooo cute!
they also have other puppies, not just Yorkies......but I'm looking for a Yorkie as my next dog.

But now my biggest problem is if I could today which one would I choose? Diamond or Tux? Well let me tell you if I had the money right now today I would take them both! After all Diamond would need a play mate and who better to fill that position than Tux?
If you are looking for a little friend to join your household take a look at: http://www.scottspuppypalace.com/
because I know you'll fall in love just like I did......Oh and let them know I sent ya will ya!? Thanks

HAPPY OH SO HAPPYn

I had a different post for today but lets do this one!!! You will understand in a minute:



I THINK- YES I THINK...OH NO THATS NOT GOOD I SHOULD NEVER THINK..............



BUT


I THINK



THIS


IS


GOOD!!!!!!

YES...IT IS GOOD!!!!!!! Well it started yesterday when mail came......but we forgot the mail lol cause we went to bed around 5pm and basically slept through the night...now that's what I call tired. So today I'm paying bills and these are ones that I actually have to write out a check and mail off to the people. Oldest grandson T.J. went to put bills in mail box and seen there was mail in there so gave it to me. After I did a quick run through I passed some over to Mr Gab. He open one tossed it and made a comment about here we go again.
then he opens second one from same company and goes "OH MY GOD" and then "OH MY GOD" and then "OH MY GOD" and so I'm like "what" then I'm like "WHAT WILL YA TELL ME?" So then he starts in........
it seems that the company that now owns our mortgage has reviewed our paperwork seen how little we actually make and has now adjusted a payment we can possibly make. So instead of us loosing our home we can now save it! Our daughter will be helping us.

BUMMED

I'm Bummed......One of Jack's classmates passed away. he was only 61. One of my classmates is terribly sick and has no hope of recovery. He's only 57.  It makes me realise our time is coming to an end.
My grandson wanted to go to a friends the other night I wanted him to stay home as I was feeling dizzy. Just in case when I got up in middle of night if I fell he would be here. In the end here's what I told him.....go ahead and go I would stay in bed so that way I wouldnt fall.
Then he said but what if........And Im like "Look even if your home in your bedroom sleeping and I'm in my bedroom sleeping and I die there is nothing your gonna be able to do so you might as well go to your friends"
After he cried some more he finally went to his friends house.
Thing is that is so true......he can be right in same room with me but if hes sleeping and I die he wont be able to do anything about it. If its my time its my time. Thing is I havent done some of the things I want to yet.

On a much happier note two of my blogger friends got engaged! Congrats to Tony and Lori! May you have many happy years together!

OMG

Meet my grandson Tj. He is 16 until Nov of this year. I am 5'4" tall.......he is BIG lol (about 6'5")! 

This is the grandson we have had since he was a baby.......this is the grandson who even after he learned to walk he would stand in front of me and say "up gamma up" all the while opening and closing his hands to get me to pick him up. And I would say "you can walk baby your big enough now" and he would stand there and say "up gamma up" till gamma picked him up! I sure can't pick him up but he can pick me up.

Olympics

Yay the Olympics have started. Boo I wont be doing a lot of watching. Mitt Romney went over to England and pretty much made of fool of himself and in a sense made Americans look foolish as well. I'm sure those folks over there are laughing under their breaths(or not maybe right out loud) thinking if he get elected we are in trouble. Well they are probably right. At this point I am not sure if any one is the best one to be our president. Some times I wish there was a way for some of our first Presidents to come back from the grave and help us straighten out our problems. It may not be able to be fixed even then but it would be worth a try. Oh I gotta get down off the soap box because I dont have a clue anymore of whats what.
I was talking about Tv shows on another bloggers blog. I hate reality shows and how I think most of them are fake. I could do a better job than some of those people. I watched ONE episode of Bridezilla. And that was enough for me. Whine cry bitch OMG what I could teach those little bitches. I never had a wedding I never had a wedding dress and I never had a wedding cake. I was however married in a church by a minister. with my mom my best girlfriend while my hubby had his cousin at his side. My dad wouldnt even take the time off from work. My youngest sister however did get the big wedding ! So dont talk to me about unfair any thing.AND I DID NOT HAVE A HUGH ASS DIAMOND RING! I had a plain gold band. I did not get a diamond ring till we had been married about 30 years. So I do not like those reality tv shows because they dont even look real.

Sigh....yes Im done complaining

WHEN DO WE START?

We have talked and talked of starting the next part of our journey in life. Lets face it Mr Gab and I aren't getting any younger. And this week we learned that one of his fellow classmates passed away. Which to me gave me more reason to push this next journey faster. OH OH OH but daughter still wants us to help her. BUT DAMMIT all we have helped her probably more than we should have. LOL the things Ive been telling Mr Gab we should do. Oh if only we had the money to just do it. Remember that saying JUST DO IT?
Here is one of the just do it we would do should we have no issues with moneyhttp://www.mhsrv.com/2010-tiffin-allegro-bus-bath-12-w4-slides-used-rv-for-sale-used-diesel-pusher-tx-i595450.
I would get this one because it has a bath and 1/2 in it. For those times when Mr Gab has to go and so do I. Then I do not have to yell "get out I gotta go"!
One of the other things I was thinking was getting one of these:http://cgi.ebay.com/ebaymotors/Honda-Gold-Wing-1989-HONDA-goldwing-TRIKE-TRAILER-COMBO-very-very-nice-/150861254181?pt=US_motorcycles&hash=item2320080e25#ht_1791wt_1099.

Yeah if my back could handle it!!!!!

Then I was thinking of doing this:http://www.ebay.com/itm/Concession-Trailer-EXCELLENT-CONDITION-/280924514012?pt=LH_DefaultDomain_0&hash=item416867e6dc

Yeah go to fairs and flea markets and sell some of our junk and then sell them some thing to drink/eat all at the same time.

Now this one could be interesting to do. Find one of these concession stands and go to flea markets and sell all the junk we've collected over the 38 yrs weve been married then sell them some Ice cold drinks and maybe home made sloppy joes! Yeah now that is something I could do. And make money doing it. My recipe for Sloppy joes could make about 20 to 30 and sell them at oh what 2.50  a piece? or more? yeah I could make money. and when you have them in a slow cooker to keep warm well there ya go you dont need much room and if you made some ahead and freeze it then bring it with and that thaws while you sell first batch you have more to just keep going........Yeah  yeah I think that is something I could do. BUT the thing is to get started. I gotta push Mr Gab a little harder and Oh figure out where the money is gonna come from to start this little adventure.

TURN BACK THE CLOCK PLEASE

Can we turn back the clock please? Say to oh about 1950's. Oh but we dont have to go back in age ourselves, and we can still have our kids and grandkids.

Why you say.....well the 1950's seem to be the safest times. There didnt seem to be as much bad stuff back in the 50's as now. I mean think about it......as a kid I ran around out side without my mom worring that I would be snatched. We didn't lock our doors and most of our neighbors walked right in with out so much as knocking first. They opened the door Yoo Hoo 'd asked if any one was home and walked in.
Now Kids are afraid to go to Post Offices, Malls, Airports, School, Grocery Stores and Now the Movies. Soon they will be afraid to go to the Doctors, Dentists, Church(which in some cases they already are afraid ...to be molestered)Hospitals and well you get the picture. One girl was at her girlfriends house when the girlfriends dad snatched them both. When did it become some place to be afraid of? I fear for my grandchildren. I don't have a clue if this can be changed in time. Someone turn back the clock please...show the children of today that the world doesnt have to be a scary place.

I blame the video games.

Well I just dont know

I've tried to understand.
I know the answer really.
 BUT DAMMIT when you tell them and tell them and they still don't listen you just want to throttle them!!!!!
I know they have to learn the lessons of life them selves But why in the hell when they ask you what to do and you tell them they do the opposite, then come crying to you when it went the way you knew it would? Kids!!!! I would give them away but they are full grown adults even though they don't always act it!

Going back

Mr Gab is trying to plan another trip back to South Dakota to tear more of our house down. If we get one more section down before winter sets in well I guess it will make us feel better although I dont know why it would. This whole thing sure has me down in the dumps. I wish we could turn the clock back I wish we did things different. I wish I wish I wish............
Do wishes ever come true?
So if we do sell say the farm to rebuild the house at least what I want for a house is agreeable to Mr Gab. I am not changing much from the old house to the new rebuilt house.I want the back porch and kitchen and dining room to be the same. BUT instead of the office and bathroom and little bedroom well that's where the change comes in. I want to take where the little bedroom is and make that all into master closet and master bath room. Where the bathroom is I want to just have a half bath. and where the office is well that's where the guest bedroom will be. Then I want to add a upstairs area with a bath and bedroom. I also want a full basement under the house instead of a crawl space. and I WANT THE LAUNDRY ROOM TO BE EITHER IN THE KITCHEN OR BACK PORCH AND I WANT THE BACK PORCH HEATED!!!!
When our back porch was our laundry room before we had to have a heater on the floor out there to warm it up in the winter time. mainly so the Hot water heater didn't freeze. and it worked pretty well but there were some winters that even with that heater and me wearing boots out there to wash clothes it got cold lol.
ok ok I didn't wear boots it was slippers but hey you get the picture right? oh the good old days!
when they took off the screen door I had visions of kittens jumping through the top half where there was no screen (whole nother story) to get into the porch and cry for me to feed them. One of those kittens was Pumpkin. Another vision (which wasn't really a good one) was up at my father in laws house, he had the same kind of door and it slammed in the same manner making the same kinda "Bang" (which made me happy and I want Mr Gab to put that screen door back on the new house to which he answered no way in hell) Of us going in and out of his front porch and the screen door slamming kittens following us into the house (if they could get all the way into the house with out dad chasing them back out) Then came the tragedy......I went inside a kitten followed me and the door slammed before he got in and its back got broken. Oh the cries of that tiny kitten it will haunt me forever. Dad told Mr Gab's brother to take it out back and finish it off. I ran out into our tent trailer and fell onto the bed crying. That kitten was following me because I had been petting it and now its life was over. I was so upset. Our dog Lady crawled up onto the bed with me and laid there with me trying to cheer me up. She knew I was hurting. Mr Gab came back out to talk to me and said things happened it was just the way of life and it could have been any one who that kitten had followed. It didn't help much even though I knew it was true. But I was hoping to take that kitten home with us. I did "get" over it as best as you can in that situation and I did find a kitten to take home with us that weekend. But still it was a vision I had that day as they took off that screen door. Jeremy kept walking over to me saying why why would you tear down something where you have so many memories? I would look at him and say we don't have much of a choice now do we? So with all that in mind Mr Gab will probably be going with just the two older grandsons back to work more on the house. I just don't think I can take watching more of our memories flash through my head.

I want my old blog back

I understand it better. I don't like this new blog. I don't like a lot of change in my life and there is already enough of that going on. The more I look at the pictures of our house we are tearing down the more I wonder how did it get that bad? Well gee lets see it all started on the day before Valentines day in 2004 when I got the call my dad had a heart attack. I told my sister C that I would get a hold of Mr Gab who at that time was driving truck over the road. I then had to find some one to watch the grandsons who were still in school.Next day Valentines day I drove like a mad woman back to Minnesota to be with my family and my dad. The doctors said they put a stint in his heart but he really needed more than that one but he was too weak. The said if he lasted the next three weeks we would be lucky. So I stayed to care for dad. He wanted to die in his own home like mom did. But the days kept going and then the months. several times Mr Gab went home to check the house. He found a leak, he bought shingles and redid it. Insurance covered once second time we tried to make a claim after a bad storm they claimed we didn't repair it the first time. We had to take all receipts in to  prove it. They paid but dropped us. No one else would take us on as living there we had to insure it as an empty house not a home with our belonging in it. Then we couldn't get back for a couple years.By the time Mr Gab got back there was a bad leak. So he moved as much of our stuff out into the living room hopefully to save it. Then it was another 2 yrs before we got out there again. And you seen the results. Worst part is the money we thought we were getting we didn't so we have nothing for repairs. It has come down to we will probably have to see the farm just to rebuild the house. I hate that idea but I can't see any other way unless we some how win the lottery....but you gotta have money to buy the tickets for that. As it stands right now our kids have been paying some of our bills. And I'm to the point that as much I use the Internet as its my life line with this back injury I'm about ready to give it up. They have enough of their own bills to pay and I really don't need the Internet. Besides maybe I could have them buy the lottery tickets with the money they use to pay for the Internet! I've been getting around some so I could go to the library and get on for awhile.....except Mr Gab is pretty attached not sure how he would like it if I say I don't need it any more since I was the one who kept insisting to keep it

Very Unsettled

So we have been back just one week and both of us feel very unsettled. We both actually want to be back in South Dakota. Thing is we really have no place to live except the Camper. which is ok to a point but depending on how many people are in it can become very crowed fast! Now if it was Mr Gab and myself and the 2 cats we might be ok. But so far we have taken all 4 boys with us left the cats home and its been way to crowed. Mr Gab has been scrolling Craigslist looking for a trailer to put all our stuff into it and go. So far they are out of our league as far as money wise goes. So Im not sure what we plan on doing but I really want to go fishing.

The destruction of the house in SD

 This is the fan in the Dinning room. the blades are bent downwards. I first seen it I thought there had been a fire..but it is just water damage. You stand under the fan and can see straight up through the roof to the sky!

This end is the office and back porch which held the washer/dryer and water heater. So far the door and 1 window have been taken out....They are working in 105 degree heat. many breaks and lots of water.

Hubby is removing siding....it almost looks like he is holding the house up...or the house is holding him up. grandson Jeremy is sitting back watching.

All siding gone and both windows out.

Grandson Tj walking through the rubble most of back porch gone. the opening is the door to kitchen. We left that for now but kitchen will be torn down as well.

Back porch all gone!

when we get done 3/4th of our house will be torn down. only part left will be living room and big bedroom and front porch. once gone then we either have to find buyer who wants it to rebuild or we rebuild it. OH and guess what insurance didnt cover it because we had made a claim on roof before and they said we didnt repair roof right so they wont cover it! so we will get this all done some how our selfs.

Yes or no

So we have been bouncing back and forth between moving and staying here. Reason to move: we lost our home. Reason to stay: Our kids and grand kids. Reason to move: its time for us now. Reason to stay: daughter girlfriend's mother passed away yesterday and it just brought home how life is short and we never know when our time is up. Daughter realised it could be her mom at any time and if we move away she will loose time with me and her dad. Plus if we move we will be further away and if we fall ill it will take time to get to us if she can at all. Her girlfriend lived fairly close to her mom yet by the time she got there her mom was gone. Yeah I know all the arguments for this...its your time youve been there for your daughter all these years take your time now. But every single time I think about leaving I cry. Every time I hug any one of the grandkids I cry. it seems all I do now is cry! I am torn. I just dont know what to do.

This packing crap is for the birds. Had I known 38 years ago when we got married and started going to auctions with my parents what a nightmare it would be now I would have never gone...yeah right in your dreams. I couldn't have stayed away had I wanted to. it was in my blood so to speak. Dad got me hooked on auctions when I was a kid. when I first started going to auctions dad went for Gas Engines Fairbanks Morris, John Deere and any odd named one dad could find. He got a Tom Thumb in perfect condition all (I believe in orginial)paint like new never ran. That one sat right in our living room like the trophy it was. Then he bought me one called Pontiac which was suppose to be super rare.....but it was in really rough condition. Our dream was to one day restore it. Now Im thinking lets just get rid of it. I would go looking through boxes and boxes of stuff seeing what would catch a little girls eye then beg her daddy to buy it for her. BUT the joke was on me most of the stuff I wanted no one else wanted so dad usually paid $1.00 and got it and we usually went home with much much more than we expected too, plus a bunch of gas engines. Then I fell in LOVE! Dad loved going to engine shows some times taking engines himself. We would drive to other states even to go to these shows. Just about every show had parades. They would have some old cars and fire trucks then the steam engines. Rumely Oil Pull. That was my dream tractor. I wanted one in the worst way. We had a place for it, my uncle Harold's farm in South Dakota so there was no reason not to get one. OH WAIT MONEY! they did cost a bundle, so my one dream of owning a Rumbely never came true but every other little thing I wanted at auctions I pretty much got. Think I should have an auction lol

38 and counting

Yesterday May 6th Mr.Gab and I celebrated our 38th wedding anniversary. 38 years together all I can say is wow I never thought we could do it. I hoped we could but when you see people all around you getting a divorce its hard to stick it out because when its your friends getting divorced and you all were part of a foursome and now its a three some you have a very uncomfortable feeling because you still have a partner and they dont. But we have hung in fought the fight and celebrated. We just had a quiet dinner at AppleBees. 2 for $20 meal. No desert and no drinks. I didnt want to take a chance with the pills I take so I passed on the drinks. So on to our next 38 more years wish us luck

UGH!!! I'm not sure I like this new Blogger!!!! I cant find anything I thought I was making this a pretty color only to find it in black and white..............................Geesh

Well, any ways I'm busy packing busy going through boxes I already packed and unpacking them and either getting rid of stuff or tossing it.

I'm getting ready to go back to selling on Ebay again......Lookatwhats4u................to see if I can make money that way. If not I guess I will take it all to Salvation Army and donate it.

Well that seems to be all the news today. I hope I can remember how to get back into here and post again it took me like 45 mins to find stuff.

Wow

Yay......its happening.......we are moving back to South Dakota......at least temporary! Then hopefully we will be moving down to Florida! I've waited so long or this. I've also bounced back and forth about rebuilding the house in S.D. and staying there or Building a new house on the farm or even moving a Mobile home to the farm and staying in S.D.

the packing is driving me nuts. I have been thinking of just getting rid of it all. After all most stuff I haven't seen in 6 yrs or better. lol some is still packed from moving the last time. But there is a madness to it all or at least an explanation......either we weren't staying here so I left it packed or we didn't have the room to put it out. grrrrrr so many decision's!!!!

I'll try to be better at posting. But if it gets to much with the packing I;ll wait till we are moved and settled. Oh yes that will be including Facebook.......I am already slowing down on talking(posting) and playing games. SEE YA

Happy Easter!

Just a short stop to tell all my blogger friends and any one else who might read this blog:

HAPPY EASTER!

All news all the time

Well lets see what is the news here at this end? Hubby dropped at very large and very heavy tv on his feet not once but twice and the second time he tore off the toe nails on two toes which now are infected!

Sigh

Then finally yesterday our whole ordeal with my dad's estate is finally over I got my check for 871.70 that should have been closer to 20,000 plus. But you know when you go to court you gotta pay the lawyer and the court fees and whats left is what you get weather or not you wanted to go to court or not. so of course you lose money. I cant even begin to tell you how upset and pissed off I am about that.

But its too late and I gotta take what I get. So as I take the cashier check to the bank I sat in the car looking at the check and realising that that is what is left of dad's stuff. All I have are the memories some good most bad but memories they are. I cant seem to go one day with out saying "Oh dad used to" Or "I remember when dad and I" and the one I love best is when we go down a certain road and pass a certain building and I say" that's the building I sold all the tools back to the guys when I was 5 yrs old" "and I made tons of money"

And of course the best memory is we are driving down any road and I yell "FLY WHEELS" and dad would slam on the breaks say where I would tell him and he would either turn around or back up till we found the fly wheels and of course stop. Now depending on your age you may not know what fly wheels are but way back in the olden days they used gas engines to do all the work like cutting wood and pumping water. there are two big wheels one on each side and dad called them Fly Wheels! So as we drove from any where going who knows where I was the look out for Fly Wheels. and when I saw them I would shout Fly Wheels and dad would go back to the place I seen them and talk to the owner about buying the gas engine from the people where we found it. We usually came home with another gas engine OR on the good days when I found 1 set of fly wheels they would have more in a barn or shed or behind some trees that I didn't see. then dad would try and buy them all and usually he did. At 1 point in time I think we had over 300 gas engines. Dad would take them to shows, Not all of them at one time but he'd pick four or more and put them in the van and on a trailer and go to the engine show. That is where I fell in love with the Rumely oil pull. I still want one. I like the other steam engines but the Rumely is my favorite.

Another memory is going to auctions. Dad usually bought the boxes no one else wanted for 1 dollar. And of course there was always some other box or two that dad paid much more for. and of course clocks and engines!!!! OH MY YES we also had over 300 clocks. all old. Dad even had some guy go to England and buy 3 clocks from there. I have one of them. dad let me take it home before he passed.

So there ya have it some of the good memories. I wont bore you with the bad ones.....I will just say they are some dad's should never do to daughters!

I'VE GONE PURPLE CRAZY

yes I sure have!

It all started when we went out shopping for a new toaster. We went to Target to see what they had. Mr Gab was looking at a discontinued one and I'm like no that's what we did last time, and look what happened. I walked up the isle a little farther and said OMG look! Mr Gab came up to see what I was looking at and I said Purple toaster!!!! He looked at it for a few seconds and then put it into the cart. I said Hun you don't have to get the purple one just because I like it (after all they had blue(another of my favorite colors)red silver and black). But he said it's ok. So I had a purple toaster made by Oster. With some really cool settings....defrost for when your bread or whatever is frozen, etc.

I had received a Fingerhut Catalog in the mail and had been looking through it and seen they carried Paula Deen Pots and Pans and guess what they had them in PURPLE!!!

SO Mr. Gab and I got on our laptops and started looking for Paula Deen's Items to see who had them the cheapest. TARGET.com won again.

They had a 10 piece set (the others had 12 or 15 piece sets which was either measuring spoons or some utensils) All I wanted was the pans. So Mr. Gab said order them. So I did.

Then I called daughter who had just seen the toaster that morning and said she wanted one just like it because she is a PURPLE freak too.

She's like pots and pans in PURPLE too OMG I gotta get me some, where did you find them......(I shoulda lied) But I told her. A few minutes later she txt me to tell me she had bought both toaster and pans in PURPLE to which I said COPY CAT!!!!!

I can't wait to get my pans. I already have a square frying pan from Paula Deen but its in RED. And I love it!

I guess I never thought about what color my kitchen is to kinda match it but hell I'm not staying here much longer so when I get to my new house I can redecorate the kitchen to match my toaster and pans!!!!

update......I still have my annoying cough. I guess its time to go in and be checked out. Little man (youngest grandson) has terrible ear infection in his left ear. And while we are dealing with that his tube came out of his right ear. Yesterday I was changing the cotton ball we tape to his ear to catch the fluids that are pouring out (doctor said its normal) and I looked in his ear a bit and what do I see? His tube coming outta that ear! So unfortunately I think when he gets over the ear infection they will put the tubes back in. Poor fella!

My poor little grandson

Has suffered so much in the past week, He has my cold (which by the way is still hanging on)then yesterday he started to vomit a lot. and all day long. Daughter took him to urgent care only to be told its viral infection. SO she went home and made him comfortable as possible. But by 11 pm he was still vomiting which is weird since he hadn't eaten all day and she decided to take him to ER. SO she calls me up which wakes me (even though I had just gotten to bed) and asks if she can drop the the other 3 boys off and have me take the oldest two to school while the third one waited for her to get her because he had a doctors appointment at 9am. So ok I wait up for them and they get here at midnight and I get them right to bed reset the alarm to 5:45am and drop into bed. And found I couldn't sleep for worrying about Little man. Daughter shows up soon after that and asks me if I could take Little man back to the doctors because at 4 am that morning his ear started leaking fluids and she talked to the nurse and they said yes he needs to be seen. So I take him in and she says yes his right ear is red even though thats not the ear leaking then she looks at the other ear and says OMG that one is really bad and there was still alot of pus in the ear. So she gives him some ibuprofen and then orders up two medications. Both needs to be taken 7 to 10 days. we got home and both drifted off to sleep mine to get disturbed by the 2 older boys asking where I was ( it was almost 2:30pm and they had been out of school for 10 mins)So I quick went and got them. When little man woke up he really had fluid (a little reddish too) coming out so I text daughter asked her to call the nurse and ask if that was normal. She did then text me back and let me know it would be draining like that for 2 days and he wouldnt be feeling better foe 2 days as well. UGH.

In the mean time hubby has been (almost begging) me to go to the doctors for my cold. I keep thinking it will get better all on its own but right now as I sit here coughing up a storm I am actually thinking maybe it is time to go in and see what they say. my thoughts in that??? UGH

Life

Sorry I haven't been around Much.....This cold has really taken it's toll. Worst part is grandkids wanna give grandma a kiss when they leave and I say on the cheek only. Although most of them have this cold too......I just dont want to keep giving it over and over when we do start feeling better. Now I am actually better than I had been But the coughing and runny nose is still here. I just dont cough as often and its not always cough till I choke. So in away it is better.

Good Bye Davy Jones of the Monkees.

So sad to learn of Davy Jones passing. He was only 66! that is only 6 yrs older than Mr. Gab which is scary.

I had a crush of Davy Jones. I listened more to the Monkees than the Beetles. In fact I don't even remember hearing the beetles till after Mr Gab and I was married... So that made me 19/20. But Davy Jones mmmmmmm Yeah Day Dream Believer that was me all over. Last Train to Clarksville.

I just have been listening to You Tube all day yesterday after I learned of his passing. Sigh

Still here

I've still got a cold!!!! I would say it's not as bad as it used to be but what the heck is that really saying? I'm still coughing....my nose is still running...and my throat hurts like the dickens.....oh wait my eyes aren't watery any more that's an improvement.

My biggest thing lately.....................one of the pills I take give me gas........really really bad gas! NO Not necessarily smelly....just a lot of it. I cough I toot.....I sneeze I toot...... hell I just plain toot toot toot toot.

I've tried to stop each pill for a couple of days but haven't figured out yet just which one is the culprit of course there are about 3 pills I can't just drop for a couple of days but those pills I have been taking for while so I don't think they are the cause.

So I guess I live with it. I don't think taking something like Beeno would be a good idea.

I also seem to be burping alot............and I'm so damn tired of saying excuse me all the time.! Mr Gab passes gas and does he say excuse me HECK NO!!!! So why should I have to? when he's here and I pass a little gas he either glares at me till I say excuse me or he makes this noise like "are you kidding me that's disgusting" So its like I don't hear you saying anything when you do it and its a normal body function yet I get the dirty looks.

I guess I need to go outside or something to make him happy!

Just not with it

Ive got a bad cold.......a very bad cold......and I havent felt like doing much lately....not even on facebook......so I thought Id pop in here and let you know Im around just suffering right now and much rather be sleeping.

No school tomorrow means sleep over tonight

Instead of me having a quiet night alone while Mr.Gab is at work I have all 4 boys. Now to understand this is simple...Im giving daughter a break so she doesnt have to get up so early to drag them over here since there is no school tomorrow...President's day. She has had to take her oldest son all last week and will have to again this week. His first class is at 6:50am so you have to get up at about 5:30am or 5:45am to get him there on time.(I got up at the 5:45 time as I live closer to the school.) Now granted your saying why are you getting up at all? Well our oldest grandson has been living with is living with us. So I get him to school. Now the reason daughter has his again this week is my Durango doesn't have any breaks and I mean NONE! First time I drove it when I discovered no breaks I was alittle confused as I had drove it just that morning to take grandson to school and everything was aok then. So after we got back home when I discovered we had no breaks Mr Gab looked at it and found no fluid in the thingy. Which means there is a hole somewhere. But last week Mr Gab had fallen at work and was too sore to get down to work on th breaks. Then we also had a cold snap where we finally got winter tempatures. So he couldnt go out then. He works all this week until Friday so grandson has to stay at his moms for another week. Because Mr Gab doesnt get off work till 7am a little to late for grandson to get to school on time.

I on the other hand had a break from getting up early last week and will again this week so I figured I would give her one day as its a holiday and the kids will be already home.......maybe I'll get lucky and they will sleep in........better since its so late now........why am I up? KIDS BEDTIME

Thank god for the internet I guess?

Yesterday I was cruising , watching the feeds go by......some times I click on something to help a friend sometimes I just read what they posted...............................Then it happened................I seen a feed, started to read when it disappeared..............What I screamed at my computer NO WAIT.........but it was too late it was gone and I had only a glimpse of what looked like some bad news from our family up north. So I did the next best thing I started to see if any family members were on. I found one and I asked him if he had heard anything from up north. (his parents and sister live up there) He said no and he had talked to his dad just that morning.

SO I started checking my friends list to find family members Im friends with and then go to their page to see if I could find what I thought I had read. I finally found the family member who had posted then left a message. Nothing......so I looked again and seen they had used their cell phone to post it so I quick put message on facebook in the comment area. Now I got an answer................

It seems that hubby's brother-in-law had died. What I've learned so far is that he had had heart surgery went home and they found him dead. Thats it. So we are now waiting for the rest of the information...............................

BUT...................................I do not think we will be attending his furneral!!!!! WHY? Because he abused his wife(hubby's sister) and because of him his daughter committed sucide. So no I dont believe we will be there......But we would like the rest of the details.

well its about time

Mr Gab and I have finally decided that its about time to do what we want without kids, grandkids and everyone else who seems to be caught up in our lives.

He wanted to really wait till he turned 62 to retire early (funny thing though just about 8 months ago he was talking about working until he turned 69) But his aches and pains have caught up with him. and he just wants to rest now.

He has gotten his own laptop......he plays on Face Book (lol I got him addicted) we also play on Pogo. And yes we both pay for it. We didn't start out paying but when all these interruptions kept happening while we were trying to enjoy a game Mr Gab said oh hell pay for it. There has been several times we didn't because money was to tight and two of our three kids would pay it just to keep us happy(or so they said).

So we have talked and talked about what we should do.....I still want to be in Florida. BUT then again I love the farm.......wide open spaces no close neighbors (closest neighbor 1 mile in any direction which is a-ok with me) But the winters can be really bad. So then we talked about summers in SD and Winters in FL. well, yes that would work. Mr Gab also talked about buying a rv but neither of us can agree on a small one or one a bit bigger. One on top left is smaller one one top right is bigger one. Well of course money plays into it But I said if we sell everything we could buy either one. then again if we sold the farm as well and bought the bigger one we could just live on the road.

One thing we both agree about is we DON'T WANT LEATHER SEATS! Cloth is just fine for us.

I AM PISSED

Ok breath in out deeply NOW YELL AT TOP OF LUNGS..................I swear the more I learn the more I wish I could do .........................

Ok so you may or may not have heard about we have our granddaughter alot. its kinda like this she comes Monday spends night till weds when she goes home with her mom then comes back Thurs after school and goes home Friday with her mom. OK? OK!................But here's the deal (what Ive learned in the last week...........

Granddaughter is on meds (or suppose to be) she hasn't been on them for over a week now.......granddaughter is really off the wall..........we are trying trust me but its getting harder and harder....................granddaughter's mom told Mr Gab on Friday that she was waiting for Medical assistant to come through because these pills are really expensive...........ok we can understand she move from one county to another and has to reapply right?

Now here's where it gets dicey..........................

Our oldest son shows up Monday and says that granddaughter's mom isn't getting granddaughter's needed pills because she wants to have granddaughter committed into a hospital.........then he yelled at his daughter and asked her why she ate a whole bag of sugar on Saturday?! WTF???? so I wait and listen....to hear" mom wouldn't get outta bed and get me something to eat and there was nothing else and I was hungry" Her dad our son got mad and yelled at me. I'm like I didnt get involved with her and have a child with her and he's like you dont understand mom all she wanted her for was to collect money she tried that with her first kid and look what happened she lost him and has to pay her x-boyfriend child support so she figures she can get me to pay her because of our daughter. He goes I buy her what she needs but I wont give her mom the money otherwise she spends it on stuff like massage and crap like that. So I said well if you buy her what she needs then why was she eating a bag of sugar because there was nothing else to eat. Well of course no answer for that!!! I just hope some how some way stuff gets changed but it may be awhile

dreams

LOL I've got a short one this morning another quickie

OMG you should never leave the door open because any one or thing can walk right in. I was "spring cleaning" and opened all the windows and doors to air out the house and dust it out you know do carpets and such. and then I closed it all up only to realise there were geese every where in my house. And I couldn't get any of them to leave because they were all sitting on nests. So every time I walked close to them they would honk and hiss protecting their eggs. Soon all eggs hatched and I was able to open the door and get them all to march outside. man what a dream that was.

Miss Whitney Houston has passed

Too many of us—myself included—are guilty of making insensitive jokes about the demise of Whitney Houston, her frail frame, loss of one of pop's purest voices, and battle with drugs.

But none of us are laughing now.

On Saturday, Houston's publicist confirmed to the Associated Press that the award-winning "I Will Always Love You" singer died. She was 48. The timing of her death, the eve of the Grammys, the biggest music event of the year, makes the horrible news even more tragic. According to CNN, Houston was pronounced dead at 3:55 p.m. PT at the Beverly Hilton Hotel.

The Beverly Hilton is the venue for the music industry's most prestigious pre-Grammy party hosted by veteran executive Clive Davis, who discovered Houston.

In an industry flooded with novelty artists, who disappear after scoring one hit, Houston's longevity was unquestioned when she released her debut single, the ballad "You Give Good Love" in February 1985. The song's soothing opening ad-libs displayed her soulful roots while also celebrating her pop sensibilities.

Houston's sound was distinct, and clearly separated her from the funk-laden stylings of the era's other female R&B singers. Plus, she was a model who appeared in "Glamour" and "Cosmopolitan" magazines.

Houston's sound made sense when considering her pedigree. She was the perfect melding of the styles of her mother, gospel singer Cissy Houston; cousin, 1960s pop singer Dionne Warwick; and godmother, queen of soul Aretha Franklin.

Houston's self-titled debut album topped the charts and was certified diamond. Her career was impenetrable throughout the release of several follow up albums, 1987's "Whitney," 1990's "I'm Your Baby Tonight," and 1992's "The Bodyguard" soundtrack.

Houston's fans were concerned when she married R&B bad boy Bobby Brown in 1992, but they professed their happiness.

By the late 1990s, Houston's drug problems began to become tabloid fodder. In a 2002 interview with ABC's Diane Sawyer, Houston admitted to her struggles, but maintained that she was doing fine.

The public received its first real glimpse of Houston behind-the-scenes in 2004 when she appeared on Brown's reality series "Being Bobby Brown." The bad publicity move depicted Houston as profane, combative, and delusional, seemingly supporting the behavior of someone on drugs.

Among the saddest indications of Houston's fall was her 2009 comeback album, "I Look To You." While the album received positive reviews, her live performances signaled that the damage to her voice was beyond repair.

Happy Hubby

Mr Gab has an old laptop that was held by electric tape and looks like some one had took a screwdriver to the keyboard area ...in fact half the time the keyboard didn't work. So when we got taxes back I told him go get a new one. Well, first he looked online at Dell and then he looked on E-bay and then looked at Walmart online and Micro Center online. I have been asking when he was gonna go but he just kept putting it off. Then on Friday the breaks went out on my car. And wouldn't you know it it gets too cold to work on the breaks. So today He decides to go look at laptops. And low and behold he bought one. We got home and he's raving about the fact its so thin and runs so fast. He doesn't have to hold it just right to get it to work and he can now play games on facebook faster than before. when he clicks it actually goes right now....before he would click and take a nap before it would start moving. I was just plain laughing over the joy on his face at having a "good" laptop. Ah what money can buy.

ahhhh quickies arent they the greatest?

Yes quickies are a lot of fun they are fast and get the job done! course it all depends on who your talking too. Some will say a quickie can leave you wanting more...a quickie can only satisfy only a little and makes you wish for the real thing.......ah yes quickies are just that quickies. lol

Well as you may or may not have guessed I'm Back to writing my blog. Life can be so frustrating at times that you want to pull out all your hair. Now this can be hard for a cancer patience.

I have a friend whom I sorta knew in High School all those years ago. When I found him again it was to learn he had a very rare form of cancer. We connected and chatting getting caught up in each others life and then all of a sudden he wasn't there any more. I know not what happened. I of course freak out and run to check the obits and only find a listing for an old neighbor we had years ago. That got me thinking even more. Where is he? did he get worse? I wonder daily and I pray. Funny thing is some days I try to bargain with God and tell him make me sick and him because he still has so much life to live where as I see myself done at times. All I know is I miss him and worry.

HERE GOES

SO THIS WEEK HAS BEEN HECTIC TO SAY THE LEAST AND I'M NOT DONE YET. SO FIRST OFF LETS START OFF BY SAYING TOMORROW I HAVE MY LAST PT SESSION. IT'S MY LAST ONLY FOR TWO REASONS FIRST ONE WAS THAT'S ALL THE DOCTOR ORDERED. SECOND OFF BECAUSE THE PT THERAPIST DOESN'T THINK ITS HELPING BECAUSE OF THE PAIN IN MY BACK. EVEN THE PAIN PILLS AREN'T DOING THE JOB THE WAY THEY SHOULD.

SO LETS START OFF GOING BACKWARDS.....TUESDAY I HAD 2 APPOINTMENTS THE FIRST ONE WAS TO SEE A SPECIALIST FOR THE PAIN IN MY LEFT SHOULDER. AFTER HER ASSESSMENT SHE DECIDED TO GIVE ME A SHOT JUST LIKE THEY DID LAST YEAR FOR MY RIGHT SHOULDER. SHE SAID IT PROBABLY WONT WORK RIGHT AWAY AND MAY EVEN TAKE UP TO TWO WEEKS.

LAST NIGHT AROUND 8 PM I WAS SITTING IN MY RECLINER WITH HEATING PAD ON BACK BECAUSE I HAD DONE WAY TO MUCH WALKING WHEN ALL OF A SUDDEN I ACTUALLY FELT MY SHOULD DROP. RELEASE. IT WASN'T KNOTTED ANY MORE. SO I TRIED TO MOVE IT.....AT FIRST IT WAS STILL A LITTLE SORE AND STIFF BUT IT RAISED ALMOST ABOVE MY HEAD SOMETHING I COULDN'T EVEN COME CLOSE TO YESTERDAY MORNING. SO I WAS NICELY SURPRISED THAT IT WORKED SO QUICKLY.

FROM THERE I DROVE TO MY REGULAR DOCTOR TO TALK ABOUT WHAT THE PT DOCTOR TOLD HER AND SEE WHAT SHE THOUGHT WE CAN DO. SO WE RAN OVER THE WHOLE STORY ABOUT WHEN I HURT MY BACK THE FIRST TIME WAY BACK IN ABOUT 1995 TO WHEN IT WAS INJURED IN THE CAR ACCIDENT IN 2008. AFTER RUNNING OVER IT ALL SHE LOOKED IN MY RECORDS AND COULD ONLY FIND THE MRI ON MY BACK BACK IN 1995. THERE HAS BEEN ONE DONE SINCE THEN BUT I COULDN'T REMEMBER WHO AND OR WHERE. SO OF COURSE THAT'S THE FIRST THING SHE ORDERED AND THAT WHAT I HAD TO DO THIS MORNING. NOW ONCE SHE GETS THE MRI BACK SHE WILL SET UP A TIME FOR ME TO SEE A BACK SPECIALIST. THEN WE SHALL SEE WHAT MY NEXT STEP WILL BE.

SEE LAST WEEK WHEN I WAS AT PT SHE STARTED ME OUT WALKING DOWN THE HALL WITH THE CANE. OK NO PROBLEM EXCEPT IT WAS A VERY LONG HALL AND I DON'T WALK THAT FAR. I MADE IT THERE AND BACK THEN SHE SAYS LETS TRY A WALKER BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE WHEN THEY BEND FORWARDS THEY RELEASE SOME OF THEIR LOWER BACK PAIN. SO SHE FOUND ME A WALKER AND TOLD ME TO WALK THE SAME HALL AGAIN. WELL I GOT ABOUT 4 STEPS AND I COULD FEEL MY LEGS STARTING TO GIVE OUT I STARTED TO SINK LOWER AND LOWER WHEN I SAID I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT AND SHE RAN AND GRABBED A CHAIR AND SHOVED IT UNDER ME. I SAT THERE FOR A BIT THEN HAD TO MOVE TO THE TABLE AND LIE DOWN AND SHE GOT ME A HEATING PAD AND SAID WELL THAT ANSWERED THAT AND THEN TOLD ME SHE WAS GONNA CALL MY DOCTOR AND THAT WHY I'M HERE TODAY JUST ABOUT COMPLETELY WIPED OUT.

I'M TRYING HARD TO GET MYSELF TOGETHER BUT I'M SEEING MYSELF FALLING FAST.

another quickie

ok very small................Im having an MRI this morning at 7:30 when I get back home I'll tell you all about yesterday and today!

Just a quickie

Ah Ha caught you lol..........You looked at title and went right to the gutter!

Nope today just a few quick words about what I have to do. First off this morning I'm going to go get a shot in my left shoulder to try and loosen it up. Then I have to stop at my regular doctor's office and see her to set up to go see a spine specialist. Why you might ask well it seems that after several weeks of PT my PT doc has finally understood what Ive been telling her all along that I'm having difficulties in walking and standing. That after just a few mins I collapse! So now with that in mind she has written a report to my doctor saying that she doesn't believe she can help me with PT! Not that I didn't try god only knows how hard I tried hoping against hope that I would be able to do PT and some how all would be well.

I shall report back to you tomorrow

Point A

They always say the quickest way from point A to point B is a straight line. But in life that straight line always has some detours.

Our oldest grandson who is 16 finally got to be with his dad again 3 years ago only to learn he has a little sister. Well that was ok as he already had 3 brothers so a sister was a nice change.

Then his dad and his step mom and sister moved way up north. So now visiting was only during the summertime. The last year his dad was talking to him and said a few things that had him wondering what they meant. So he came to me and said Grandma if some one said this to you what would you think it meant? and then he gave me the clues. I said oh honey that's easy they are going to have a baby. At first he was a little upset. But then he got all excited maybe he would get another sister to even things out. So things went along then one day he came to me with the saddest face I ever saw. I asked whats wrong. First he said nothing. I said honey I know you better than that whats wrong. Then he told me......it's gonna be a boy. Oh I said another brother. Then I said well look at it this way you are getting another brother yes but he will look up to you like your sister does. That made him happy.

when his new little brother was born he was on top of the world. He kept txting them to find out all the details like whats his name. Then he would txt and say how about timothy......which is his name. Almost 3 weeks after the baby was born they said his name was Ethan Tyler. Oh I said ET phone home...........OMG my grandson flipped out on me. You are saying my baby brother is an alien that means you think I am!!! Oh man he takes stuff so literally. So I had to stop teasing him about his brothers initials being ET. We call our grandson by his initials which are TJ. but I guess we wont be using ET for his new brother,

UGH I HATE PACKING

Do you know that when you have lived in one place for many years that you tend to collect to much stuff? And do you know that when you are getting ready to move you have to go through said stuff and decide what you want to take with and what you want to get rid off that it can be an hair pulling event? the rule here is if you haven't used it in the last 5 years toss it. BUT BUT BUT I really really want to keep some of the stuff and the reason I haven't used it in the last 5 years is because I don't have room to display it. So we have a struggle each and every time I come across something that I bought for when we move into our new home and I put it away till we do move and yes some of the stuff I bought over 5 years ago. We've been talking of moving for the last 10 years or so. we did move in 1999 to South Dakota but it was a small house and we didn't take everything from this house. Our daughter was living here in this house so knew that we could leave some of the stuff here till we either built a house at the farm or built a new house in town. But before we could do anything dad got sick and we moved back here to take care of him. So now I gotta go through every thing here because this time when we move we are moving moving!!! So on I go to go through stuff pack this toss that. UGH I hate this! I've told Mr. Gab that we should just toss it all and start over. He says put it on Ebay. I've put some on Ebay but a lot of it didn't sell Sooooooo................what to do? Now hubby wants to have a garage sale BUT OMG HAVE YOU SEEN HIS GARAGE? it has more stuff than the house does. waaaaaaahhhh!!!!!!

Time again

Well its that time of year again when they ask the groundhog if he sees his shadow or not.....if the weather is any thing like here the answer will be NO he cant see his shadow. Because its so foggy here you cant see a foot in front of you. So lets see what that means: a shorter winter right? he sees it means 6 more weeks of winter and not means winter is almost over!

LOL grandsons and I were just talking about that yesterday how no matter what the groundhog sees or doesnt see we will have about 6 more weeks of winter. From Feb 2 you count out about 6 weeks which puts you about middle of March or about the 17th of March which is about end of winter so why do we ask a groundhog how much longer we will have winter when we all know it will be 6 more weeks of winter either way

I JUST DONT BELIEVE IT!

I am royally pissed off!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so I'm the mom of a son who is a drunk and an addict who can't keep a job and spends a lot of time in jail. I AM NOT PROUD OF HIS BEHAVIOR!!! I am however proud of my son in other ways.

He has given us our first granddaughter. Now this little girl is spoiled rotten and I truely mean rotten.

however as a grandma who loves her granddaughter I do spoil her my self on occasion.

BUT I LOVE HER

We had an incident a few years back where our granddaughter's mother took her away from us for 3 whole years. Then one day she called and asked if we would like to see her. OH MY GOD YES OF COURSE WE WOULD. So she said that granddaughter had a school play coming up if we wished to attend. So we went and watched our granddaughter preform and oh what a little performer she was. Then her mother says how would you like to have her stay over night?

YES OF COURSE WE WOULD. So she got to spend the night.....

Well little by little our granddaughter started to stay more and more. We learned she was on several medications to control her sleeping waking and staying awake so forth and so forth.

Then her mother had to move ...she moved farther south from us but she worked right her in our neighborhood ( well about 10 miles from our home in a near by city) so she said I would like to enroll her in school your other grandchildren go to and have her ride the bus to your house and have her stay till I'm off work. Ok that could work. and so we started. But then it got to be really late at night when she was picking her up so she started spending the nights with us and I was sending her to school every day. Then she would go home on Weds only to come back Thurs and then go home some time Friday. Her mom has Friday off. Well it was seeming like I had her more than her mother did. THEN THE BOMBS DROPPED!!!!!!!

1) Her mom was talking to me and she said "I'm so glad your here to help as my mom doesn't like her and doesn't want her at her house any more"

are you kidding? What grandma would not want their grandchild? THEN CAME THE KICKER..............granddaughter tells me herself her other grandma hates her and doesnt want her around any more.

How can you say that to her face? I will agree that she has times when she just exacerbates me to no end but I still love her and want her.

2) granddaughter was talking to me and she says" My mom told me I'm so bad that I'm gonna go to a home for bad kids because no one wants me not even my mom"

WHAT? WHAT? ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME??????

So I say to granddaughter well if your momma doesn't want you and she's gonna put you in a home tell her she can put her in my home because I WANT YOU! AND I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!

I can see why granddaughter is on so many different medications. I would be that screwed up my self if some one told me that no one wanted me including my own mother.

So I have her alot now and yes there are days when even I wish she would go away but I never tell her that to her face I just some times loose my cool and yell at her but I aways and I do mean always hug her tell her I love her and explain why I got upset. That what she has done is not acceptable here in our house and she needs to know that we won't put up with that sort of stuff and no matter what we love her. Its been a tough battle as she has done so many things that no one has bothered to tell her not to do and she is so spoiled that she whines when she doesnt get what she wants. BUT we put our foot down alot and tell her no alot and so far every thing is going ok...not perfect but what kid is?