Ok waiting for number 3

Well you know the old saying bad things come in 3's? We my last post was about our friend who was also our oldest son's god mother. Well Today was my aunt's funeral. She was only my aunt by marriage.. She married my mom's brother Charles.
She had MS. And she fought a hard battle and lost it on Weds of this week.
So I'm now waiting for the other shoe to drop the number 3. In secret Im hoping and praying that maybe it will skip the 3rd one. just once I'd like to not have to have bad new come in 3's! PLEEEEASE

Saying good bye is so very hard to do

This morning Mr Gab woke me up with the worst news you could possibly wake up to. One of our friends passed away yesterday! She was our oldest son's God mother. She was too young to go. She had ALS.
Then comes the hardest part saying good bye to a friend that you are very close to, had loads of fun with, share much with and lots and lots of laughter.
Mr Gab knew her way before I did. They met when Mr Gab was in the Army. I met them when we got married. The same week we got married he called them to tell them he got married. They couldn't believe it because he said he was never getting married. So we drove all the way up there to prove it! Oh and then came the next surprise.....I was expecting......first thing out of her mouth to her hubby was "I wanna baby" that caused a big fight that weekend. But in the end they had 2 boys. She was about 6 months along when we got our son baptized and she had to hold our chunk of a son who at birth weighed in at 9 lbs 1 oz so by the time he was baptized he was a whopping 20 lbs and here she is bigger than a house trying to hold on to him. But it worked out and they became his god parents and life went on. And now we are saying good bye to her. We have our memories of course we will never loose those, and many pictures and many stories. But it just seems totally impossible that she is gone. We love you Marilyn and will miss you very much! May god hold you in his arms and take care of you till we all see you again.

Shocker

This is what I posted on Facebook today:

I wish I could think of a song right now....something cheerful and pertains to my post! NOW MOST WOMEN would NOT tell you their weight But I dont mind one bit and I will tell you why! I started this journey some time last year at 261lbs. and off and on you have seen me post that I've lost more and more weight. Now this is a terribly BIG thing for me because I CAN NOT EXERCISE at all nope nada cant do it! So today when I went into see my neurologist for check-up they put me on the scale! (Now mind you I have had a few set backs or so I thought because I had some candy some pie you know stuff that would put back on the weight) SO when my weight came up on the screen I screamed and everyone rushed out to see what was wrong! I almost started to cry I was soooooo HAPPY! This lady has made it to 202! I'm a short 3 lbs from my original goal of getting under 200lbs! I can now set my next goal of 175 my finally goal is 130-140! I just can't believe Ive done it! But the doctor said once I gave up soda (well I have one every now and again but not like I used to) and DRANK WATER! that was my biggest help! If I could reach my back I'd give it a big pat!!!!


Yes I am one happy person right now! I was kinda mad at my self at the doctors office I had hoped by the time I seen him again I'd been under the 200 mark "missed it by this much" lol
Three whole pounds! That was all I needed to be to be under! But its ok Im happy Im still loosing!
AND My bp was good in fact it was very good!!! hasnt been that good in years!!! I truely am a happy camper!

Little Man Graduated today!

Our little man has graduated Kindergarten!

 we are so proud of him! He is Our daughter's last baby, so there is no more! Thank goodness lol. Oh there is another grandchild to get to kindergarten but she is only 3 so there is a ways to go and we probably wont be here for her granduation!

CONGRATS LOGAN!

MAY 6TH 2013 .....WE MADE IT

ON MAY 6TH 39 YEARS AGO WE SAID OUR I DO'S. THOSE 39 YEARS HAVE NOT BEEN AN EASY ROAD BUT WE MADE IT THIS FAR, AND I FORESEE US MAKING ANOTHER 39 PLUS YEARS TOGETHER AND HOPEFULLY A WHOLE LOT EASIER.

ALSO MAY 6TH 14 YEARS AGO OUR GRANDSON AARON WAS BORN. AND OH THOSE YEARS HAVE NOT BEEN EASY EITHER. THAT BOY HAS GIVING US SOME GRIEF ESPECIALLY SINCE WE CAME BACK HERE TO MINNESOTA. ON MONDAY (May 6th) HE SAID HE WISHED WE NEVER CAME BACK. MR GAB AND I SECONDED THAT!

SO ON MONDAY BECAUSE IT WAS AARON'S 14TH BIRTHDAY MR GAB AND I TOOK HIM TO DINNER AND LET HIM CHOOSE THE RESTAURANT. HE CHOOSE RED LOBSTER. OK NO PROBLEM! WELL MAYBE....................................

WE GOT TO RED LOBSTER ORDERED OUR DINNER AND OUR SALADS CAME AND I STARTED TO EAT A CROUTON AND THEN SOME LETTUCE WHEN I REALIZED SOME THING WAS WRONG. I GOT UP AND WENT TO THE LADIES ROOM AND TOOK A LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND YUP NO TOOTH. IT BROKE OUT AND I SWALLOWED IT!

SO THE NEXT MORNING MR GAB HAD AN APPOINTMENT WITH THE DENTIST AND I WENT IN WITH HIM AND SEVERAL HOURS LATER( as I had to be fitted in between everyone else including Mr Gab) AND $753.00 LATER AS WELL I HAD A TEMPORARY TOOTH.....AND AN APPOINTMENT FOR 2 WEEKS LATER TO GET THE PERMANENT TOOTH PUT IN. UGH WHAT A WAY TO CELEBRATE OUR ANNIVERSARY! POOR AARON BLAMED HIMSELF FOR CHOOSING THE RESTAURANT AND WE SAID NO IT PROBABLY WOULD HAVE HAPPENED ANY PLACE WE WENT! 

Doctor's

Well I went to the doctor's today for my MRI of my neck.....after wards the tech told me she had great pictures for the doctor to check out and he will get in touch with me in about 2 days.
Next week on Friday I am not looking forwards to that appointment at all. They will be sticking electrodes on my fingers and toes on my left side and then putting a needle into my muscles to give me little shocks to see how much I can feel. See last week at my Doctors appointment I had a follow up with another doctor and she was sticking my feet with a needle well right side I felt most of the time left side not so much! In fact about 1 in every 50 pokes I sorta felt. Sometimes I knew she was poking me but it didn't feel sharp when it should have. it will  tell them one way or the other if Ive damaged nerves or pinched
Either way just not looking forwards to it

WALKER?

Well it looks like Walker! Except he's all white! I guess thats what happens when there is too much snow? HEY WALKER WHAT HAPPENED?

I've been..................

Loosing weight! Yay me! growing my nails! Yay me! and finally following Doctors orders........(not gonna toot my horn here lol cause it's something I should do period!)

Ok Lets start with the weight loss.
So remember way back several months ago I had a bad headache and went to ER? And I was very dehydrated? And I had bladder and kidney infection? And I was told I had to drink water? YUCK WATER!

Yeah that's was my feelings back then Yuck water.....I hate water! really and truly. And for me it was almost like gagging when I did have to drink some. I would take the smallest of sips and when no one was looking dump the rest out and say ok I drank it. (yes I would) But with the threat of a hospital stay hanging over me if I didn't drink water for real and lots of it I had to some how force my self to actually drink water. People say to me well just add a lemon or lime to it and give it flavor. BUT PEOPLE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND I DON'T LIKE LEMONS OR LIMES EITHER!
So I got home from ER and I got a glass of Ice water and started with small sips and kept drinking smalls sips till I realized the glass was empty. So I got up refilled the glass and kept taking small sips. Now I did this for several days in a row till it all of a sudden became a HABIT! 1 glass of ice water with small sips turned into several glasses of ice water all with small sips. Some how I told myself a small sip isn't very big and I can get by it. When we went out to eat I only got Ice water. I used a straw and it was still like small sips and low and behold I'm drinking water all the time. And while I'm drinking this water I'm not drinking the pop. At first I had just 1 bottle of pop that would last me all day in between these sips. Then it was soon I opened a bottle of pop and I would drink some and that bottle sat there and all of a sudden it would take me two days to finish it. then three days to drink it. Now I have a bottle that has been sitting here a MONTH and I haven't even wanted to open it. not even in the littlest way have I wanted it. instead I reach for my glass of Ice water!!!! That folks is part 1 of my weight loss!
Now part 2:
I can't exercise! not at all. Why you say....well because of the car accident I cant stand or sit long enough to do any exercise. and when I do what they gave me in PT I end up hurting myself even more so they told me to Stop! that's where the pain pills came in....they wanted me to take them while doing PT and I did but then I over did it because I didn't feel the pain but couple hours later when pills wore off I did and couldn't move at all! Poor hubby would have to pull me up outta chair and drag me to the bathroom undress me help me get on the toilet and redress and drag me back to my chair or to bed and either push me into one or other said before item (chair or bed) and it got so bad for him that he hurt himself and he said NO MORE! So PT stopped and the only exercise I get is walking from bedroom to living room to bathroom and back again each day. and of course Doctors appointments and a few dinner dates out. Which I had a couple BAD experience's there so it got harder to get me to even go out! Well I had read and listened to all they people who talk about how your suppose to loose weight and 2 things stuck in my head. 1 was eat less and 1 was as soon as you start feeling full stop eating. So ok I can do that all by my self I dont have to go to weight watchers to do it. I dont have to buy special food I just watch wand listen to my body.
So I tried it. I had some spaghetti here at home. I took a normal sized plate and I put a scoop full on like I normally did and sat down to eat. But as soon as I started to feel my stomach get full and uncomfortable I gave my plate to my oldest grandson and said take it to the kitchen and leave it on the counter. He said dont you want it? I said no not right now I dont feel very good my tummy hurts. Well yes in a way it did but not really like sick sick. he says ok if I have it? Im like sure. (he hadnt gotten a plate yet so instead of getting a new plate and more food he finished mine)
Ok that was a start I felt full and my stomach felt uncomfortable! Now before I always had thought it was gas or some thing that made me feel uncomfortable, but I think now it was a way of my stomach saying really your gonna put more food here where am I suppose to put it? and then it grew! So I got to a restaurant and order a meal and I eat some till I get the full feeling and I say I need a take home box. I usually never get to eat the stuff I bring home.......either hubby eats it or grandson eats it! I DON'T CARE REALLY AS LONG AS I'M NOT EATING IT! I now hate going to a buffet because its a total waste of money I get 1 plate full and I cant even finish eating that and they wont let you take even that home so I try to avoid those kinds of restaurants now.
I will now find some carrot sticks or some fruit to have as a snack if I do get hungry in between meals but it rarely happens now that Im drinking more water Im usually not hungry between meals like before. AND We arent eating just before bed any more either.
So with all that said Im loosing weight! it was a big surprise the first time I was at the doctors and found out I had actually lost some weight But I had my suspicions. mainly because my pants were falling off me!
as for my nails well getting them done as one of the things hubby forced me to do to get out of the house they have finally grown out and Im not biting them. I still put them up there like Im gonna so its good thing they are   acrlic on top other wise I might have them down to nubs again my now with all the stress that we've had in between getting out truck and my Durango falling apart.
Now first off I have to tell you the truck is a 2003 so its already 10 yrs old. it dont look 10 yrs old inside or out it was kept that nice let me tell you. Yes we got a carfax on it so we know there was NO REPORTED accidents with it. and it was UNDER $10,000!!! Oh yeah under baby under. and we took all of my rent money after we paid taxes and we took Mr Gab's bonus from work and put down on it. But first we had to see if we would qualify for a loan to buy it even with our down. They did finance us. which was a super big surprise. So we put our money down and we have 3 yrs of payments of 188.00 a month. it works out to just 9,999 total then with finance charge but we had to finance the last 3,000 of the truck we just couldnt pull together the rest of the money. And Mr Gab wanted that truck so badly he said ok. NOW WE CAN PULL OUR TRAILER!  and that folks was the biggest problem we had with the Durango it wouldnt pull the trailer!   Yes I am a little worried about the fuel expense but again gas is just as high so no matter if Im  driving an F150 using gas or our F350 using diesel its gonna cost us an arm and leg. But we're gonna be comfortable!

How in the hell do these fools

I watch Duck Dynasty once......that's as much stupid as I wanna be!
How in the hell do these fools run a business? I sure in the hell wouldn't buy from them! They claim the show isn't scripted, if that's true these people are really stupid. and I don't even want to think of doing business with them.

BUT ON THE OTHER HAND MAYBE THAT'S WHAT YOU GOTTA DO......
YOU GOTTA ACT (or really be that stupid) to run a company and make a million dollars!

I don't know but let me tell you something. If I owned a million dollar company and they put me on TV and I acted that stupid and foolish I'd be afraid people would stop buying from me. I mean really. I wouldn't want to show my face any where in public after acting like that on TV.

So I'm guessing the TV station is paying them big bucks to act that stupid. If that's the case hire me I can be stupid too.

I can't understand

What makes a person go back to a person they know has done bad things before? Just because they say they have changed? Well ok some do change But honestly to put your whole life into their hands to claim to love them and possibly want to marry them after all the dirty crap they have done to you? NO NO NO!!
AND BIG SURPRISE he does it again.....................Leopards cant change their spots and he wont change either.
Now your life is in the crapper and you have to dig from the bottom again and this time its not only you your pulling up from that bottom it you and four more.
And of course we sat here telling you no dont do it. but of course you didnt listen and now your crying on our shoulders and the stress is hurting both of us and you. Some times I know you gotta let them fall and pick themselves up and fall again BUT GOOD GOD SAME PERSON? again and again? Sigh.....................I need a vacation

More about the truck

You've seen the pics below (if not go look) We bought a 2003 F350 Diesel Ford Pickup that's loaded.
It got auto start, gps and omg I don't know every thing else but start talking to Mr Gab and you can talk for hours about the truck!!!!!
I drove it home from the dealer. YES ME! and I drove it all around yesterday......2 things I gotta learn.......ONE WATCH MY SPEED.....IT GOES MUCH FASTER THAN THE DURANGO  at a very small touch of the foot feed! and TWO IT'S MUCH BIGGER THAN THE DURANGO SO WATCH IT WHEN PARKING .....I hit a parked car......lol well ok lets rephrase that.... I bumped the car in front of me. No damage no nothing but shocked me that I was already that close to car in front of me. I worry about the cost of diesel but hell gas is expensive too so I guess it works out all most the same. And yeah in the winter we gotta be careful of it gelling but I hope we soon will be in Florida. But a F350 pick up that runs in our price range was a dream come true.
The morning after we bought it I said to Mr Gab "you know I love that truck. But its just the two of us and we are older so do we really need a truck that big?" and he said "NO But we want it and we deserve it and we got it and that's it" So I laughed and go ok. Then he said if we take really good care of it it should be the last vehicle we ever own, and at the mileage it has now it hasn't even been broken in yet. SO Mr. Gab is so very happy its been his dream for such a long time to own a F350 and now he has one. And I'm happy its a very nice truck. Not a color I would have picked but I ain't gonna complain! we got a really good deal

OUR NEW TRUCK

2003 F350 Deisel 4x4 loaded Heated seats, auto start, gps plus much much more. 

Little man having fun with his daddy

HURRAY

Sooooo....................


I went to the Doctor's again yesterday.........this was my arthritis Doctor, but they still make you get on the scale. AND


I WAS REALLY SCARED.........................................


BECAUSE I HAD SLIPPED LAST WEEK AND THE WEEK BEFORE..............................................


BUT


I GOT ON...............             AND..............................    LOST ANOTHER 8 WHOLE POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


OMG I WAS SO SURPRISED AND VERY HAPPY. SO TO DATE I HAVE LOST 50 POUNDS......YES 50!
I'M A LONG WAY FROM MY ACTUAL GOAL (yep I made one, one I thought was unrealistic) BUT NOW AM ACTUALLY GETTING CLOSER TO EVERY TIME I STEP ON THE SCALE AND LOOSE MORE. I CAN DO THIS YES YES I CAN!!!

AND WHAT HELPS THE MOST BECAUSE I CAN'T EXERCISE IS THE FACT IS WHEN I START TO FEEL A LITTLE FULL IS TO STOP THEN NOT WHEN I AM FULL.
MY PLATE MY BE STILL FULL OF FOOD BUT I AM NOT.

???

glug glug glug....................




some days I feel as if I'm drowning.



In Bills


In worrying about the car



In babysitting




In my health


In hubby health


GOD HELP US PLEASE! I put every thing into your hands once again!

I love those kinda of days

Yesterday Mr Gab and I went out to breakfast at Baker's Square. Now for the longest time we stopped eating there because their menu had changed and they didn't have any thing either of us liked. But our daughter's on-again/off-again boyfriend works there and told us they brought back some of the old favorites so we went back and found we liked their breakfasts again. So here we are sitting chatting and eating when I looked up at the window and what do I see? 2 of our grandsons making their way into the restaurant with said boyfriend.
Well let me tell you the smiles on their faces when they seen us and they ran across the restaurant to give us hugs and kisses! Then they wanted to sit with us. But we were almost finished eating plus the table we were at would not accommodate 3 more people. Their faces fell but they took the table right behind us. We had a few more hugs and kisses and then said good-bye and we were on our way.
We then we to the bank, then off to the city to pay our water bill, then over to Target Optical to get our new glasses.
The good news is I can see......The bad news is I can't use the new glasses while on the computer which is where I am 99% of the day! I checked the ones I'm wearing (the pitted and scratched and worn ones) to see if they had numbers on for strength but couldn't find any so, my next option is to take them over to Target Optical and see if they can tell me what it is so I can find another pair like these for just the computer! But it is oh so nice to be able to put on a pair of glasses and not try to adjust them to try to see the words I'm looking at! But there is bad news with this as well.
I have cataracts on both eyes and as soon as I can no longer see with these glasses its surgery time. But of course it doesn't stop there......
One of the medicines I take is causing some kinda thing growing at the back of my right eye. So The ophthalmologists I seen wants me back in 3 months to keep an eye on it Plus talk to my Doctor about either lower the amount I take or getting off it completely.
Monday I go in for my next set of injections this time on my left side. If its anything like last time I will be out of commission for about 3 days well 2 really but the 3rd day I still am hurting just not as bad as the first 2 and I usually am moving better by then! And on those first 2 days I wont feel much like playing on the computer either.
But if its helps any at all like last time I should be able to walk almost totally by myself (maybe even with out a cane) and do some more activities around the house. The first ones in my right hip and back have let me stand and load dish washer all at one time instead of loading a few sitting down loading more sitting down. I was even able to wash pots and pans which before I couldn't even stand long enough to do them. AND MY BIGGEST ACHIEVEMENT was I made Mr Gab Breakfast one morning with out having to say take over I cant stand their any more!!!! And of course sleeping on my right side at night was so much nicer than tossing and turning all night long that I finally am (well almost totally) rested!
My thing now is the nightmares Ive been having But thats a whole different BLOG!
Be nice to one another and remember you don't know if you will be here again tomorrow that's totally up to God!

REALLY?

I am a real person!
I have real feelings!
I cry!
I Bleed when cut!
I eat I breath air I get dressed most every day.
How dare you treat me like shit
How dare you think you can walk all over me.
I will not stand for it
I will not lay down and take it
I will however tell you this:
(LISTEN VERY CLOSELY)

The next time your in a jam DONT CALL ME! I wont be there
The next time you need money DONT ASK ME! I'll be broke every single time.
Next time you just need a friend or shoulder to lean or cry on DONT LOOK FOR MINE it wont be there!

Yes I am being a bitch I learned from the best wanna know who?  GO LOOK IN THE MIRROR!

I think we are almost to the end of raising another child

Our oldest grandson is 17 already. He will be 18 this Nov. He also has one more year of school left. Today he took his written drivers test and passed. Part one done and down the drain. We are almost done raising another child. We have had him pretty much since he was a baby. We are pretty much his parents as his grandparents. And now he can start driving. Behind the wheel of a real car. OMG my oldest grandson is now old enough to drive! waaaaah. I feel very old right now.

Well it does matter to someone

The lies, the back stabbing, the stealing all of it matters to someone. They may never say so, but it does. And the worst part is when its your own family doing it. AH yes family. They are the worst in doing things to hurt others.
I've learned with my own children just to let it go because no matter how many times you say anything to them they will deny it PLUS then they will go home and talk behind your back bad shit about you and say oh your crazy and shit like that. Sisters and brothers do it too.
I always wonder about these families who spend so much time going to church how they all feel when it them who lie? or steal? How do they justify it? to them selves? to god? to the ones they do it too? The voice of experience tells me its gotta hurt like hell either way whether your the one doing it to another or the one who its being done too.
It's too bad they can't just come forward say I'm sorry lets fix this. But nope most times it splits them apart to where most of them never talk to them again! Then when they pass they stand there saying shit like oh I wish we had the chance to make it up I so missed them! DO IT NOW STUPID!!!!!  Dont wait till its too late,  FIX IT NOW. because it matters.......................to someone....................and they probably are hurting....................so it's up to you to fix it...fix it now....................

Shocker

Well, its been a few days. I've had a few things going on. Back at the beginning of Jan (very first weekend in fact) I had to go to the ER. I knew I had a bladder infection but got a shock to learn I also had kidney infection. After I took all my meds I was have several great days so great I actually was able to stand up and do dishes a couple of times. Then we went out one night for dinner just the two of us and during dinner I needed to go to the restroom so I started to get up and go and BOOM I fell flat on the floor. and it take several tries to get me up. I then wobble my way to the restroom go and start back but cant walk all the way to our table. I'm in such bad pain......I thought kidneys because that seemed to be where the pain was. So we go home drop off groceries and find grandson and go to ER again. THIS IS NOT HOW I WANT TO START OUT MY NEW YEAR! They did urine, blood tests and then a CT. all came back ok, the Doctor on call told me it was spasms. And they were caused by me when I over did the days I felt good. So he gave me some pain pills and sent me off home. When I was in ER they gave me Morphine to take the edge off the pain so that they could do the tests. Well it made me goofy and really yucky. I went to bed fell asleep only to wake up and run to the bathroom to be very sick. I was up rest of the night sick. Then I slept the rest of the day. and most of the next night. They wanted me to go see my own doctor 3 days after I had been in ER and I said well that's good cause I had an appointment that Friday morning. Well Friday morning came and I went into see my doctor. and WOW I had some more surprises in store for me. First they weighed me, I never look so I didn't see what it was. SO when my doctor started to questioning me over it I was like WHAT? are you sure? So when I was done with my exam we redid my weight and YES she was right I went from about 242 down to 213! Now while that doesn't seem like a lot to you for me it is. I can't exercise like everyone else can, I 'm not really mobile at all so to actually loose weight well that is great. The other thing that was a super big SURPRISE was my blood pressure. it had been in the 100's both top and bottom numbers sometimes the top number hitting over 200's. well Friday she noted that all three of my visits were normal not high at all. YES!!!! I finally am doing stuff right. SO I AM VERY HAPPY. I will keep eating the good stuff I have been cutting way back on the sweets (I pretty much stopped eating donuts) I am drinking only one can of soda a day and hoping to stop all together. AND I'm drinking more water than ever before.