I think I understand anorexic people

Now I think this might draw a lot of criticism for this blog post.
But now I do believe I understand anorexic people.
They look in the mirror and see them selves as fat.
Well, I can now understand that. Especially if they are over weight when they start out.
I weighted in at 260 lbs.
I was hurt in a car accident, and can't do any form of exercise. I hurt so badly. When I spoke to the doctors they all said same thing if you lost some weight it will help your knees, hips,feet even though I still have arthritis but would hurt lots less.
My first problem was when I became dehydrated. The nurse wanted to put me into the hospital right at that minute. I said no I couldn't I had to babysit grandchildren. she said she would let me go home only if I drank lots of water. But I told her I hated water. She said either I go home to drink water or go straight into the hospital.  So I went home got a glass of ice water and took small sips. Soon I was emptying glass after glass of ice water.
Then I cut out soda pop. Oh I still drink some when I get really stressed, but for the most part I've given up pop.
That was when I noticed I lost some weight. and so did my doctor.
My next small victory came when I got sick. I couldn't eat. and by the time I was back to almost myself again I couldn't eat like before. As soon as I felt full I stopped eating. Mainly because my stomach was still on the touchy side so I just couldn't eat much.
And I lost more weight.
I had to go out and buy some new clothes.
BUT ................when I looked at myself in the mirror I couldn't see where I lost any weight. Oh I knew I had the scale said so. I actually lost 69 lbs. But looking in the mirror I couldn't see where. Which makes me want to eat even less and try to loose even more. That is sort of the mind set of an anorexic person. They can't see that they've lost weight either so they eat and throw up. I want to loose more weight as well BUT NO WAY WILL I EVER EAT THEN THROW UP! Even though I CAN'T SEE WHERE I'VE LOST ANY WEIGHT.
I will continue to do the same thing I am doing now I will drink more water, eat less, and cut back more of the junk foods, I still have been eating things like Ice cream and Cheetos. Once I get them out of my diet I think I will loose even more. In my head I have a goal of 160 which is only another 30 lbs to loose.
But I really really want to get all the way back to 130 lbs. Then I will be happy once again.
Oh yes and the doctors were right, even though I have arthritis and still hurt, loosing this weight has helped my knees and hips and feet!

We are getting our vacation

WE ARE TAKING A VACATION AND WE ARE TAKING IT IN FLORIDA!

we just have to take care of a few small business matters and then we are off. For about 12 days. IN FLORIDA! Sun, sand, water and beautiful warm to hot temps! OH YEAH!.

We are doing a vacation/honeymoon/anniversary trip.
Vacation because we haven't had one in awhile.
Honeymoon because we
Anniversary just celebrated our 40th wedding Anniversary together!

and oh yeah while we are there we are going to look at a place called The Villages. and see what is what. Then we are also gonna take some time to talk to our realtor and see a few places as well! We are covering our bases and getting some major stuff done! Oh yeah I am so looking forwards to this vacation! Warm warm weather! HOT even will be ok. I don't care as long as no snow is involved! Hubby has asked for time off from work, I am getting other stuff put together. And we are sitting down and planning it out. (NO NO NO we are dreaming it out) no plans. remember every time we plan a wrench gets tossed into it!? So no plans just dreams! I will dream about this when we arrive!

In my opinion about Gay

Ok Michael Sam is gay great! and he was just picked in the NFL draft! Super! BUT.........now here is where I'm sure I'm gonna get a lot of flack.

He kissed his partner on TV.

right? or wrong?


Several are saying he should not have!

MY OPINION:

people please this is my opinion and I have a right to my opinion and the right to voice my opinion with out you all YELLING AT me.

In my opinion if you are gay great. you have a partner great. BUT KEEP YOUR PERSONAL THINGS BEHIND CLOSED DOORS.

YOU DO NOT SEE ME KISSING MR GAB OUT IN PUBLIC! YOU DO NOT SEE MR GAB GROPING ME OR SEXING ME OUT IN PUBLIC! NOPE THESE THINGS ARE BEHIND CLOSED DOORS. SURE WE ARE OF OPPOSIT SEX BUT WE RESPECT EVERYONE ELSE. THEY DONT NEED TO KNOW WHAT WE ARE DOING IN OUR SEX LIFE.
and if and when I kiss Mr Gab in public it is NOT a frenchie it is a quick peck!

SO GAY PEOPLE WHY WOULD YOU SUBJECT US TO YOUR SEXUAL BEHAVIOR?

What a horrible yet wonderful week

So we were suppose to go to South Dakota this week. But on Sunday our truck broke down.We actually had to be towed 4 blocks home 4 BLOCKS!!!!That's how close to home we were when we broke down. Hubby learned just how expensive a diesel can cost to repair.  So by the time he finally got it running we were pretty broke.

Then on Tuesday we celebrated our 40th wedding anniversary! YEAH 40 YEARS! Mr. Gab and I have been together that long! That's a major deal for us who fight at a drop of a hat! LOL.

BUT   WE DID NOT GET TO GO OUT TO DINNER OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT!!!


and no not because of the truck. I got sick. and what's today Friday May 9th? yeah today is the very first day I'm not running to the bathroom to be sick!

and my wonderful sweet hubby tried his best to keep me happy. He ran to the store and got pudding for me when he really didn't want to because he was dirty and tired after working on the garage all day. and he would check on me every hour or so to see if there was any thing I needed. Oh yeah poor guy, what a way to celebrate 40 years together taking care of your sick wife! But its all in that sickness and health thing right when you take your marriage vows? But I didn't expect him to remember that after 40 years! But then again he's a good man like that!

Then yesterday in the middle of me being sick I got some flowers for Mother's day. and this shocker of shockers they DID NOT COME FROM OUR DAUGHTER!
Nope our oldest son sent them! What a surprise that was and it made me cry! He hasn't ever sent me flowers! (and he will be 40 on his next birthday)
So all in all it's been a weird wonderful week! HAPPY 40TH ANNIVERSARY MR GAB! I LOVE YOU MORE TODAY THAN YESTERDAY BUT NOT AS MUCH AS TOMORROW.

New and Improved

Have you seen the latest New and Improved Mc Donald's Yet? No? Well don't hold your breath because I for one think it's the stupidest thing Mc Donald's has done yet! They changed the outfit Ronald wears! TO an almost like 3 piece suit. He now wears a vest? A VEST? are you kidding me? OMG. This whole new outfit looks so DUMB. Here take a look:

http://www.rantlifestyle.com/2014/04/26/ronald-mcdonald-gets-trendy-millennial-costume-makeover/

2 post in 1 day wholly cow

Ok this is not normal for me BUT I have something I need to get out here. I know I still have a few readers so I would like their opinions.
I just read about Tori Spelling and Dean McDermott about how he cheated on her. SO OK here's the question. Dean was married before what broke up that marriage? He had an affair with Tori. So he cheated right? Ok so now he's married to Tori and he has cheated again with some one else and he has admitted that sex is like a drug or alcohol.  So what does that mean once you cheat your always gonna cheat?

round two:

Two different people
Girl is with guy guy not only cheats but steals and lies.
They break up she put out restraining order against him for 2 years he cant come any where near her.

couple years later their paths cross they stop chat he says he has changed they start dating again. Everyone warns her dont get involved once a cheater always a cheater.

she dont listen they move in together  and buy some expensive stuff. 6 months later she learns not only has he once again lied but cheated.

She is hurt and heart broken again.

I say if a guy has cheated once he will do it again. they just cant seem to stay in one relationship. Do you know of any one who has cheated and is now in a relationship and HAS NOT CHEATED? DO you think once they cheat they will always cheat? OPINION PLEASE

May can't come fast enough

Ya know I'm getting sick of this damn cold weather and now they are talking snow again? Come-on it's April for god's sakes let it go lets have spring.
Well any ways I hope May gets here soon as we have a trip planned home. And I for one can not wait to get home. OK WELL OK THERE IS ONE PROBLEM, NO HOUSE!
We do have the camper but now there are a few small problems with that as well. SO I have been looking on-line at Drive able RV's. and have seen some that are oh so very nice but oh so way out of my reach. Then of course the ones that I could buy are so ummm the only word I can think of here to use is junky. or as bad as the one I have now with problems galore.
I'm still trying to get hubby to make up his mind on this should we sell the farm or not.
So let me start sorta at the beginning.
It all started when we were living in South Dakota.
Our house was an older house but in pretty good condition with just a small problem with a leak in the roof. Well hubby re-roofed it and we had no problems.
THEN:
I got the call about my dad. He had a heart attack and the doctors didn't think it look good. So I made arraignments for the grand kids who were in school out there to stay with some teachers till grandpa came back home as he was driving over the road. And I took off and came back to Minnesota to see my dad.
Well he was home and weak but they needed some one to stay with him 24 hrs. Well hubby brought the kids here to Minnesota to their mom and he came up to my dad's. We talked it over with my sister and her husband and my dad and it was decided I would stay dad would pay hubby his wages so he could stay home and boys finish out the school year then he come live with me and dad.
It was settled!
All was a go till after hubby moved in with me and dad. Then he went home one weekend to get some of our clothes and came back and said we have a leak again. Well he was going to go back during the next week because it was suppose to be slow at his trucking company and he was gonna fix the roof again. But they got busy. By the time he got back it was raining daily and he fixed the roof but it wasnt as good a job as he wanted. SO after 4 years of NOT getting home at all. when we went back what a big surprise we had. Hole in dining room where roof caved in.

This is fan in dining room. It looks like we had a fire. But its water.

here we are tearing the back part of house down. We took out the back porch where the washer, dryer and water heater were plus my extra shelves for can goods and the back room that we used for computer room. this opening you see here is going into kitchen. It isnt torn down yet but it has to go as well as bathroom dining room and small bedroom which is room Mr Gab and I slept in. Well except now I'm thinking just tear it all down and build a whole new house. and put a basement under even if I cant get down it (it will be there if there is a bad storm and I have to get down one way or another.)

Thus reason for selling farm. 

But Mr Gab really doesnt want to sell the farm either. and in a sense neither do I. I begged my dad not to sell it and to give it to me because I love that farm. I'd rather be there than any play on earth (well maybe not the Bahama's)

BUT.....Mr Gab is already 62 (till June) and I'm 59 (till July) and this farm is 18 miles from a town and the closest neighbor is a mile in any direction. So is it a good idea for us to be out there? OR should be rebuild in town and stay there? Very good questions and things we really need to think about. That is why May has to hurry up!

Either way if we live in South Dakota in Summer and drive to somewhere warm during the winter months till we no longer can drive or maybe just sell it all and move south now I don't know for sure but we gotta figure it out.

So many questions

I've been almost glued to the TV as of late. Watching first looking for an airplane. Wondering if it really is in the water or if there is someone laughing their heads off because they are holding everyone some where on some secluded island, waiting for the right time to let us know that they have them. Then watching the ship that has sunk with all those students aboard. Now this one bothers me the most. WHY? Because my grand kids are getting of an age where their schools take trips and they of course want to go. A Bus trip Oh yes did you see the Fed-Ex truck that hit that bus with those kids in? AGAIN another tragedy with young people, off to a collage. My grand kids so far have taken a bus trip to Chicago. Ok yes they did make it there and back with out incident. BUT there are other grand children still coming up and other trips. Especially a trip with the band and they usually go to Florida then take a "boat ride" over to the Bahama's!  So that's 1 airplane ride to Florida and then 1 Boat (ship) ride to the Bahama's then back again. and anything can happen. NOW I KNOW WHAT YOU ALL ARE GONNA TELL ME, IT CAN HAPPEN RIGHT HERE WITH ME DRIVING (as we already know it has) Yes your right but trips with the schools taking these trips and stuff happening and your suppose to be able to send your child off to school daily to learn not to "travel" and possibly be hurt or worst.
I watch those poor parents who are waiting by the sea who are praying that there might be a small chance their child is still alive. then the pain when they bring several children's bodies up and they find theirs as one of those who didn't make it and I hurt right along with them. I am a mom. I know their pain even if I haven't lost a child. (I've only lost one before they were born). But I feel their pain and I cry right along with them. and I wonder why? why in the world did the captain not get those children up to the top of the ship instead of saying stay where you are(or in your room)? Do I think he should be held responsible? YES! Do I think he should go to jail for murder? YES! I listen to his explaination and think I'm sorry even if they were in the cold waters and swept away (which may not have even happened) would that not have been better than a child being alive in a room hoping they will get out because the captain said stay, and they trust the Captain? And then they drown? I mean if they had been up top and had on life jackets and had washed over board there would have been a smaller knowledge that they might not make it. But at least they would be given a better chance I believe. I know everyone says it's God's will but I'm sorry I think this Captain is more at fault than God's will.

4 years ago today 4-5

4 years ago today 4-5 2010 my father passed away right here in my living room. He was 91. He also was an an abusive man. But he was my dad and I loved him.

one of the many things he taught me was my love for fishing. Every weekend in the summer we would drive over and would barely get there and I would be racing to grab my cane pole and say lets go fishing. Uncle Harold would tell me to go find some worms and off I would go pitch fork in one hand and pail in other. and I could sit for hours fishing. Oh yes I could bait my own hook it was taking the fish off that stopped me. A fish bit me once when I tried to take a hook outta his mouth and that was last time I ever tried to take a fish off a hook.
That was another thing dad taught me to sit still and just watch....................nothing.
Well ok maybe not nothing, I could watch the wind blow.......the grass waving.......the trees (the ones I could see) dancing.....and the cloud rolling by. I also could picture the people from way back who walked the land before who worked their fingers to the bone yet could get together that night for a barn dance because they helped a neighbor or a neighbor helped them.
Another love is rocks.........Agates, quarts, opals I have loads I collected as a child some my dad already put into a coffee table for me. others Im waiting for Mr Gab to make into matching end tables.
and collecting old stuff. OMG do I love collecting old stuff. Gas engines. is one of my favorites. I still want to own a Rumbley Oil pull that would be my dream come true! It would also be in honor of my dad! He always wanted to get a steam engine as well.
Dad taught me to drive, yeah not a stick though that was Mr Gab. Dad tried to teach me a stick and I got so upset at what he was trying to say he yelled at me to never drive a stick and get the hell outta the car so we could go home. Mind you he was trying to teach me at the end of a long work day.
But he taught me to drive and then Mr Gab had enough patience to teach me stick. and whoo hoo when I learned stick I thought I was all it!!!
Back to dad though we would go to South Dakota and he would let me drive over there. And he would stop and buy chicken and we would eat and drive and keep on going because you must understand we would leave at about 4:30 am to arrive at my grandma's house around 1pm if we were lucky enough! So to be hungry we didn't stop in a restaurant and eat we keep going. And boy do I remember the first time my mom rode with us. I was driving dad gave me some chicken and mom yelled she can't eat and drive and I told dad to tell mother to shut up I know what Im doing you taught me to eat and drive. And dad said ma just watch her. well mom watched and after about 20 miles and the who piece of chicken she was ok with me driving and eating. Sandwiches were easier of course and we ate many of those too but oh the day we ate chicken and I told dad to tell mom to shut up!!! LOL
And when I wasn't driving I was looking out the window for fly wheels and when I seen them I would shout dad fly wheels. and dad would hit the breaks say where and I would tell him and we would back up to where I seen them then we would get out look at them and if dad was interested he would go find the owner and see if he was willing to sell. Now this some times made for a very long trip home. what usually is an 8 hour trip could now stretch into 10 or more. I usually didn't mind because finding fly wheels for dad made him happy. and Fly wheel were usually on some kind of gas engine. it didn't have to be running, it could be rusty as hell but dad didn't care if he wanted it we usually brought it home.
Another thing I remember when I was a kid was when I was really little mom raised labs. Not any labs Yellow labs and Chocolate labs. Then we had a Black lab for a pet. Now King was a super cool dog. He would get out and be gone and we could whistle and call but no dog. But you open that garage door and he would come from outta no where. Why? because when we opened the garage door it usually meant we were going to SD. and King always went to SD with us. That dog was a great traveller.....till he farted!!! then it was OMG please open the windows! The day we lost him over The Rainbow Bridge was the day I said I would never get another dog. Till I met Pepe. Now Pepe (my name for him) was a BIG white German Shepard and I mean all white!! And I have no idea where the name Pepe came from but that was his name. And the day the lady ran him over on purpose I swore then never to have another dog! Then I found Rex. Now Rex was German Shepard and Lab mixed and I got him when I was still single....and in an apartment! When Jack and I got married he said the dog has to go. It wasn't he didn't like Rex he did just not in apartment. So I took him to dad's. And dad of course said only till you get a house. One year later we got that house and we bought our Rexy home! and he was the best dog ever! and Ive never had another! But Rex wasn't a traveler. He was how ever a great watch dog and watched over our children.
We had Lady. She was our traveler. and what a traveler she turned out to be. Dad got a little upset that we brought our dog with us on trips but I reminded him of King and he stopped complaining.
Dad Liked to pheasant hunt as well. and one time I asked if I could shoot the gun? so they set up a target and showed me how to shoot and then gave me the gun! DARN STINKERS DIDN'T TELL ME THERE WAS A KICK BACK!!!! I was on my ass so fast and my shoulder hurt so bad I never wanted to try that again. Course dad and my bother both laughed at me.
One thing dad didn't teach me that Uncle Harold did and that was to drive a tractor. I was 5. I watched my older sister drive it into the corner of the barn, my older brother drive it into the coal bin attached to the chicken coop and I wanted to try. Well of course they laughed at me I'm only 5. But Harold thought it would be ok as long as he rode along side of me. Well he got it started showed me how to put it in gear showed me the breaks and off we went. I drove it all the way down the hill to the water tank next to the pump and didnt hit a thing. Ya know it still gets into my siblings gull that I could drive with out hitting a thing at 5! and my brother was about 13 at the time and my sister was 15! LOL showed them I did I did!
Yup dad taught me a lot. Hurt me a lot too. but I got over it. (mostly) I'm still here. I can mostly remember the good things with dad with out getting angry. I do love him. and Miss him.

Shhh hear that?

My house is empty! It is mine again!

Nikki her two boys and Waffles formally known as Bob and our oldest son have moved into their own place. And I miss them.

Yep sure do. Once you have some one living with you for awhile and you do things together and have a blast doing them well when they leave its like a big let down.

Thing is I can still call her and still get together with her. But now there is a difference. I don't know if you can quite understand but it's a girl thing I think.

and of course thats the other reason she had to move! Because 2 women living under the same roof dont always work either and after awhile tempers flare. Maybe not at each other but at our respective loved ones. I cant really say spouse because she isnt married to our son. although she is much like a daughter in law as any could be.

But we all know its time for them to move forward and us to move forward and each go on with our lives (I still wanna go to FL)

So here's a toast to you Nikki in your new home. May you have much happiness there as you did here (maybe more so with out me around LOL)

this is my toast to you enjoy your new home!!!!

BAM BAM

Our grandson moved out earlier this year. Oh how I cried, and cried. You know this is the one we raised since he was a baby. He's 18 now and yes I know its time for him to be on his own. BUT he's not finished with school yet so I didn't want him to leave just yet. 

well, things were going along we were talking to him and every now and again we would have to either go get him and take him to work or pick him up from work and take him home. Now taking him to work wasnt so bad as that was usually early in the afternoon around 2pm. BUT going home at night was after 11pm and we were usually in bed by then.

One day he was visiting me and he goes he would like to come back home and Im like ok. and he was like but there will be a visitor. and Im like ok. and he said a dog. UT OH grandpa doesnt want any more animals! Period! So I said ok well your gonna have to talk to grandpa about that. Well we went to lunch and he went to the bathroom and I quickly call Mr Gab and I told him. and he hesitated. and I'm like but honey I want him home. We then hung up.

Grandson came out and he took my phone and he texted his grandpa and told him he wanted to come home but he had a dog that had to come too. Grandpa texted back and said "your welcome to come back at any time you want I love you and the dog can come too." and Grandson texted back "good to know Love you too" and with that grandson moved back home the very next day.

and with him he brought Bam Bam

A choc lab pit bull mix.

Bam thinks he is a lap dog. and Mr Gab is the lap he likes! Mr Gab is a softy for our grandson. and the dog. We don't like the fact he is a Pit Bull. but he seems to be a good dog....grandson rescued him from some abusive people so Bam is a little skittish and he gets a little over excited and pees but other wise he has moved in and joined the family with very little problems......well Ok Lucky and Waffles don't like him But what cats like dogs? Well they do after they get to know each other but so far they are still in the growling stage!

I..FOUND...IT

I have found the condo I want to buy in Florida. Now to get Mr Gab on board! Never mind that we will be leaving the grand kids I will get over it. Never mind I will be moving thousands of miles away from my family and friends There is face book and cell phones. I want warm weather and beaches I want this condo. 3 bedrooms 3 baths and all on a golf course. Ah hell that doesn't matter to me. I just like the 3 bd 3 bth part all for one low price of well wait there are 3 available 2 at $149,900 and 1 at $155,900. I don't know why the one is more than the other 2 when they are all in same building but I DON'T CARE I WANT ONE! And I better hurry cause they look like they are in a good spot! wonder if my realtor in SD has sold my farm yet?

I don't understand

I am just a little unhappy right now. and I guess pissed off. Mr Gab and I had gone out last year to buy a F150 pick-up truck and ended up with an F350 his dream truck. we paid it off this year so its all ours. Great I am happy. EXCEPT I'm still driving my Durango that is falling apart. I have to put in power steering fluid every day and oil ever week. The muffler is loud and we've already been pulled over for it. So today I started to look for a new car. I found something I like (well ok I seen something I might like because I've only seen it online) Its a 2006 Cadillac Escalade 4Dr AWD
and Right now its something I think I will like to drive. and it's cost is only $4,000. more that what we paid for Mr Gab's truck! But he's upset that I want that kinda car. He wants me to stick with something like another Dodge Durango. I like my Durango but good grief why can't I have something I want for a change? Last time I got the exact car I wanted it lasted 3 months because we hit a deer and totaled it. So yeah I want to get another what I want kinda car. Doesn't mean we are gonna hit another deer with it does it?

Not A lot yet at this end

That's new. Oh wait yes there is I got my hair cut today....AND the big news is ...............DRUM ROLL PLEASE.......................... THEY ARE MOVING OUT THE 28TH OF THIS MONTH! YAY!!! I can't wait to have my house back. (they being our oldest son his girlfriend and her two boys)
I've got  Tonya's two youngest boys over night tonight. She took a last minute job at Pizza Hut working till close. she thought that Shawn who usually comes to take the boys off my hands at a decent hour would be taking them but alas he worked tonight too. So grandma comes to the rescue again. I just had them this past weekend for the whole weekend too. Well Friday night and Saturday night then they went home about 11am on Sunday morning.
I wasn't suppose to even have them at all this past weekend But I opened my big mouth and started a fight with Jeremy's other grandma and the bitch that she is she then said fine you keep him then I never want him again! Well what the hell kind of grandma are you? So ok now I have Jeremy. Then around 4pm on Friday Tonya calls me and says Logan's dad is sick could I drop him off there? I'm like oh hell no Logan is staying with me. There is no reason to take Logan out to his dad's if his dad is sick!  So now I've both boys. REASON: It was Tonya's Birthday on Thursday and she went out to play bingo Friday night and then she "supposedly" went to work at PH Saturday and worked till 3 am Sunday morning so instead of getting boys so late she wanted to just leave them. so ok she did and I said now you owe me big time and I want a weekend off SOON! Yeah and here I am on a Tuesday babysitting again! and you know she is still dropping them off in the morning and I send them off to school and then they come here after school till she gets off work at 4:30pm. Monday through Friday and any day there is no school I have them ALL DAY LONG!
I am counting the days till June. April. maybe even May! I dont know which month it will be Mr Gab can't seem to make up his mind either but one of those months we are leaving.................and baby we aren't looking back

Secret

Hello....been awhile..........Well lets see I did all those tests the doctors wanted both the head doctor and the heart doctor. and all they could find wrong was in my left ear Ive got fluid in the middle ear. and they said yes that can make me fall down ...........A LOT! So told me to take Sudifed.

SO! OK
Now we are to this weekend. Yesterday was our daughter's birthday. She turned 37! she was pushing it by saying on facebook she was almost 40! HER OLDEST BROTHER WILL BE 40 THIS YEAR NOT HER! I said stop trying to push me into the grave!
And today and tomorrow I have her 2 youngest boys. Jeremy who is 11 and Logan who is 7. so far we have been doing computer stuff. Tomorrow I have outside stuff planned as well as possibly a movie! not sure what one yet but I will see whats out there in the morning.

NOW FOR THE SECRET:

On May 3rd we are heading home! yes HOME! To South Dakota. with no one but hubby and me. AND WHY IS IT A SECRET YOU ASK.
well remember last summer when hubby retired? and remember I announced it all over facebook and here? Yeah remember what happened next? We ended up with our granddaughter! Yeah so not telling anyone this time. Oh and dont worry about it being here. No one who is gonna wreak our trip will read this. they are on face book but NOT HERE! I'm safe! (I hope anyways)
and if things work out the way we hope we will also go home the first week of June and first week of July! Then we will decided from there what we will do. We have signed the papers for this house so hopefully we will save it. and if we do come June our daughter and her boys will move into this house and hubby and I will be on our way to well we arent sure yet.We keep fighting about this. To make a long story short even though I want to go to Florida where its warm I think we may end up staying here just buying a condo here (or one of those 55+ places and being next to our grand kids. They have been so much a part of our lives Im not sure we can leave them. But thats still up in the air. for now we are working on SD! and deciding what to do there!

I'm an old lady what the hell do you expect?

So I went to my neurologist today and he wanted to know why I was falling down a lot. I said I don't know but I was hoping he could tell me. He asked about my recent falls and I said well I knew why I fell about 2 weeks ago it was icy and I fell. Hit my head on the sidewalk. Then this week on Tuesday I was standing outside of my car when I next realized I was under my car on the ground. So he ordered some tests. He wants an x-ray on my left hip to make sure I didn't break anything. and he wants an MRI on my head for the fall 2 weeks ago. Then Im gonna get a 48 hour ambulatory EEG. when all that is done with I get to go and meet up with a Cardiologist. and get my heart checked out. When He asked me if I had a cardiologist and I said no he said well we are gonna get you one because your at that age where you will need one. SO now I've got a regular doctor, a rheumatologist, a neurologist  and now a cardiologist! 4 doctors just to keep me going.

I'm now officially OLD

are we stupid people?

So the other night I was cruising the internet, and this title caught my attention"people you are stupid"
So I stopped to read it.
It talked about we already have the cures for all major disease. And to give money to any of them is a waste of time and your money.
I was like WHAT? So of course I had to read on.......
The person who wrote this said think about this if you will, think of our president our congress well for that matter any government official do you ever hear about them getting sick with major disease?  NO YOU DON'T!!! This is because they already get the cure for anything they could Get sick with.  Now think about this why does our presidents need  secret service after they leave office......1) so they can keep reciving any medicines they may have gotten while in office to keep their health so no one ever finds out. And 2) so they never disclose that these cures exist. Then when they are up in age where it is more approperate for them to get sick n because of age die sooner then they no longer feel they are a threat.
Now this got me thinking....could this be true?
And so off went my thinking.....and trying to cruise to see if I could find anything to back it up. I found nothing plus I lost the artical which I read this.

OK now here is my news........today I got a tablet! I am having fun learning how to use it........BUT I should have gotten a keyboard!

Any time now Enough is Enough.

Below zero.....kids home from school.......bundle up so you don't freeze.....when the hell is it gonna end?
We don't have a lot of snow maybe about 3 feet. But it is so damn cold. colder than I can remember and I remember a lot!
I am NOT one of those people who go around saying I remember when I was a kid I had to walk 10 miles to school in 30 below and 8 feet of snow. LOL no that would be my dad. Now granted I don't know for sure if he ever had to do that, but he sure like to make that point a lot because I would ask him for a ride to school and my school was only 1 mile from our house and I could have walked or even taken the bus. Well except if you had ever been on our bus you'd know why 3/4 's of us walked! our bus driver was a manic. she would pull out in front of on coming cars and say well now they better stop because I'm bigger than they are and the bus will do more damage to their car than their car to the bus and crap like that! and then their was a guy who drove it before her and he would leave his pipe in the bus and she would toss it out the window and say stinky shit. so disrespectful! Plus she liked to see how fast she could get the bus going from one corner to the next then slam on the breaks!
So most of us walked rather than ride with her.
So asking dad for a ride in the winter got you a long winded story about how he had to walk to school in worse weather than what was going on that day!
He always gave me a ride but I always got a lecture too.
Dad had his rules:
Dont drink, Dont smoke, Dont swear, Dont have sex, Dont get pregaunt while in school. Funny thing was he was giving me "Bock" beer when I was 12 so dang there went that one! and the swearing well....I did but not around dad till I hit 15. The rest I did really well on I never did smoke and the sex waited till I was 18 same with getting pregaunt. I was 19.
I wonder what dad would be saying about all this cold weather? I know he would have some answer to why. He always had an answer. it might not be right but he had an answer!

I think every thing is going to hell

You know we see more and more about people going off the deep end and going out and shooting up places and killing innocent people. and everyone blames guns.
Then you see things like nurses who are stealing drugs to either support their own habit or to sell for big bucks. Who do they blame? the drugs and a lot of these nurses are put back into the system and are still working.
Now today I read something that turned my stomach so bad that I hope to hell that I NEVER EVER LIVE LONG ENOUGH TO BE IN A NURSING HOME.
The nursing assistants are abusing the residents. WHAT?
I remember when I was a nursing assistant. I was there to care for those who could no longer care for themselves. I took pride in being able to do for them what they no longer could do. In fact I was embarrassed when I had to wash a man's private area. I would say something like "ok I'm going to wash your family jewels now ok? Some would laugh at me others were grateful I didn't just grab and start washing. like some of the other girls did. In fact I was requested more and more by the men and women there because I was careful and because I was embarrassed and because I RESPECTED THEM!
That was the big thing I RESPECTED THEM! at all times. it didn't matter how far into their dementia they were I still respected them. I would talk to them as if they were still with us.
My feeling were these older people were people who went before us. They knew of harder times than I will ever know. and sometimes when they had good days they told stories. it didn't matter to me that they thought I was their daughter or granddaughter I listened and sometimes cried.
I RESPECTED THEM I honored them.
So to know that there are people out there now who are abusing residents bothers the hell out of me. What are these people thinking? and for gods sakes what are they getting out of it?
I know the frustrations of changing an old persons diaper and being upset that it was icky. But it was part of my job and I knew that going into the job.
and I also knew about those with dementia being combative and can possibly hurt you but you know that going into the job as well. SO if you already know this and this is why you are now hurting them or abusing them then God help you! Because I knew and I accepted it and when something got to be to much I asked for a quick break and walked away because I cant blame them. They no longer know what they are doing. and those who do don't you think its an embarrassment for them to have a young person change their diaper? don't you think they would rather die than live like this? But they are still here because God hasn't called for them yet. And they have to rely now on you to take care of them and they don't like it any more than you do. But if you have compassion and respect for these folks you can make it through the job. But to Abuse them NO NO NO.
I hope I never ever have to live that way. I hope God takes me long before I need to live that way. I pray for that.

Our summer was our insight

I was out at the store yesterday shopping for a few groceries when I over heard a couple of guys talking.

1st guy) Yeah this summer was our insight to this winter.

2nd guy) What do ya mean?

1st guy) well hell our summer was so damn hot this year it had to follow that our winter would be so damn cold!

2nd guy) oh yeah that seems about right. Hey ya know I heard that it's gonna get cold again this week down below zero.

1st guy) see what did I tell ya. It's not gonna let up. We will end up having the coldest winter in history.

2nd guy) why didnt we take that offer to go over to Hawaii? this is BS!

I had to think on this one a bit. Was our hot summer an insight to our freezing winter? I know Mr Gab had seen all the beaver houses way out in the middle so he knew it wasn't going to be an easy winter.
But does our hot weather have anything to do with our cold freeze our asses off winter this year? I dont know but I tell ya what had I known that the hot weather was an insight to a freezing cold winter I WOULD HAVE BEEN IN FLORIDA! THIS CRAP ISN'T FIT FOR MAN KIND!

AND JUST ABOUT EVERYONE IN THIS HOUSE HAS BEEN SICK AT LEAST ONCE! i THINK WE ARE ALL ON ROUND TWO RIGHT NOW AND HELL I AM SO SICK TO DEATH OF COUGHING AND COUGHING. WHEN THE HELL IS SPRING? AND PLEASE DONT TELL ME ITS GONNA BE DELAYED I DONT THINK I CAN HANDLE MORE BAD NEWS!