Wednesday, October 31, 2012

whole new me

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! I THINK THIS WOULD BE ME AND MR GAB FOR SURE LOL!



SO IN HONOR OF HALLOWEEN I WENT AND HAD MY NAILS DONE. SINCE I TAKE THESE STUPID MEDS, MY NAILS ARE THIN AND BRITTLE AND EVERY TIME I GET THEM LONG, THEY BREAK AND THEY DON'T JUST BREAK THE SPLIT ALL THE WAY DOWN INTO SKIN TO POINT OF BLEEDING! BOTH HANDS ARE THE SAME PUMPKINS ON RING AND THUMBS!
SO MR GAB TOLD ME GO GET THEM DONE.
I ALSO WANTED TO GET MY HAIR CUT. BECAUSE AGAIN WITH THESE STUPID MEDS I TAKE I ALSO SWEAT ALOT AT NIGHT! SO I PREFER IT SHORT SO ITS NOT SO BAD WHEN I DO SWEAT! WHEN ITS LONGER I WAKE UP WITH MY PILLOW SOAKED AND I HAVE TO SWITCH PILLOWS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT SOME TIMES AND I'M RUNNING OUT OF PILLOWS! SO I GOT IT CUT!
I AM HAPPY BECAUSE I WAS ABLE TO SIT THEM THEM  BOTH IN ONE DAY. USUALLY I HAVE TO DO ONE OR THE OTHER ONE DAY THEN THE OTHER ANOTHER DAY. AND SOME TIMES I HAVE TO WAIT TWO OR THREE DAYS IN BETWEEN. THING IS I'M SURE I'M GONNA PAY FOR IT TONIGHT.
AND TONIGHT BEING HALLOWEEN WITH KIDS COMING TO THE DOOR MAY PRESENT A PROBLEM!
BUT RIGHT NOW I FEEL GOOD SO I THINKS THAT'S WHAT COUNTS!
HAVE A HAPPY AND SAFE HALLOWEEN EVERYONE.
AND I HOPE ALL MY EAST COAST FRIENDS ARE OK

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

ThankFully

You know my last post seemed to be such a downer. I didn't intend it to be I was just pointing out all the stuff that seemed to be going on that all seemed to be ....well not good.

I am truly thankful that I wake up every day. I still have lots of difficulties walking and I will for the rest of my life as that is what happens when your in a car accident.
Speaking of car accident this year marks the 4th year since it happened. And we are finally settling. We took 20,000. Now I only get 1/3 of that because of course the insurance company has to be paid back and of course the lawyer needs his cut. It sure doesn't seem fair that I only get 1/3 of that money when I'm the one who suffered.
Now here's the thing that really bothers me.....Here in MN there is a No Fault Law. You can sue up to 50,000. Now I tried to get more than the 20,000 but the adjuster said NO because I went to physical therapy to much for a "soft tissue injury". But does this adjuster realise that I was sent back to physical therapy because I was having trouble standing and walking? Because I was falling on my face for no reason? Because I cant stand at the stove and make a dinner? or load the dishwasher? or even do a small sink load of dishes? NOPE I guess he don't really care! and my lawyer didn't seem to really want to work for me either. We wanted to go to court and really push for that 50,000 but as the lawyer explained even if I won that 50,000 I would end up with less than what I'm getting with the guarantee 20,000. I say you should have worked harder for me and then maybe what I pay you would have been worth what I do or do not get.  So either way I got crapped on. Because not only do I NOT get enough money for future doctor appointments which by the way the doctors are now talking about surgery on my back because my feet are curling at the edges and I seem to have lost control so they think there is a nerve being pinched that affects my feet(Surprise.....NOT) So that will all come out of my pocket, I still have trouble walking....lets put it this way I REALLY CAN'T! my legs start to shake if I walk to much or basically to far and next thing I know Im on the ground. I rarely leave the house because I get embarassed when my legs give out and I'm on the floor. Although Mr Gab has been coaxing me out to dinner once a week. I use a scooter when I grocery shop but if I don't have someone else with me to get stuff I can't reach, pack the grocery bags and load the car then its useless. So I usually leave the shopping to Mr Gab. On the other hand since I can't even cook a meal, lots of times we don't eat or we have sandwiches or maybe order in. Either way this SUCKS BIG TIME!
I still am trying to figure out how the adjuster thinks a soft tissue injury is something you can say well Im sorry but you've  gone to physical therapy too much so I am not going to reimburse you? I thought you were suppose to go to physical therapy to get better?  Ah well I guess they just want to save money and they will screw the person who needs it the most..........funny thing.........I follow the law and get hurt.....she breaks the law and gets what? I wonder if she ever feels guilty for running that red light? I wonder if I went to her house and showed her what she did to me by running that red light if she would feel bad then? Of course even if I did it wont change a thing. Might make me feel better but it wont help me walk!

Monday, October 29, 2012

PRAYING

Well Oldest son finally got out of the hospital.........
Cousin Robin's husband in hospital.......he is fighting an infection!!!!!
OMG all this infection....I still have infection in my mouth where they pulled the tooth. I finished meds yesterday. I intended to call dentist today but we had some other crap going on here.

I AM PRAYING ALL MY BLOGGER FRIENDS ON THE EAST COAST ARE STAYING SAFE!


terrible storm going through......

what the heck is going on? this year it seems as if we are being bomb barded with stuff. I even heard this winter will be one of the worst in years!

still dealing with stupid people on our house.......looks like we are gonna loose it after all! :(


I really just give up.................I told Mr Gab that if he can work it to work only 3 or 4 days a week I would like him to do it.
I enjoy having him home. I know we still need money to live but if he can do something else so that hes home more I'd rather he do that. Still not sure what to do for medical or dental insurance but we gotta do something else because Holiday is getting to much for both of us. More Mr Gab than me but it filters down to me as well.

well I guess thats the updates for now.

Friday, October 26, 2012

I'm a little worried

Well they drained our oldest son's hand but it's still not doing good. He has an appointment with an infectious doctor. Our daughter went to see him tonight at the hospital and said hes on a floor that some doors are red tagged but his is not. NOT YET any ways.
She also said it doesn't look that great either. She is even worried.

Then  finally  Mr Gab called his mom today. One thing he learned was she is having her pace maker replaced next week. His sister kinda acted like it was a no big deal surgery. He told her any surgery is a big deal surgery but even more so for an older person. After all his mom is in her 80's.

I am so glad he got past all his anger and talked to her. If he hadn't he would have never forgiven himself.

I have been dealing with a stupid hole in my mouth that wont heal. And pain pills aren't helping it none. Do some scrapping......yeah ok maybe .....travel.......yes.....garage sales and open our own shop yeah I can do that. So ok we have a few ideas.

 here is Our son's Hand
But first I have to get past the goings on with our son and my mother-in- law.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Prayers are needed

This is Weds. By Tues I had so much bad news that I wanted to crawl into a hole and bury myself.
The first thing I learned on Monday was my mother-in-law has cancer and they are going to be doing surgery Nov 13th removing a large mass. I really love my mother in law and this broke my heart. I was hoping to be in Florida this year to spend more time with her but we just can't seem to move forwards.
Mr Gab, was so upset that he went around ranting and raving about things from the past that really no longer was important but because this was something (last thing) he expected he had to figure out a way to blame her. He's mad at himself of course but he didn't want to admit that.
On Tues. we learned our oldest son who had sliced his fingers down to the bone had infection in his hand and needed to be hospitalised.  So I was freaking out about that is he gonna lose his hand because he didn't follow directions? And of course he wasn't letting me in on anything so all I could do was wonder and read some of his post of Facebook.  I finally got him to tell me (hopefully truthfully) that his hand is ok they might have to open it and drain it (Ick) and right now they are forcing lots of antibiotic's in. Now I happen to know a little about infections because Mr Gab had an infection in his knee and I watched it move fast up his leg. So fast that they were scared (at the hospital no less) and they forced some antibiotic's fast into his system to try to head it off. After it was all safe they told us the antibiotic that they used usually is dripped slowly that that sized bag takes two hours to go in. They put 2 of those bags in in 30 mins. that's how scared they were.
So I really hope our son isn't hiding any thing from me. "sigh" Please pray for them both!

On to the good stuff.........

I finally got the link over there on the right side for Jenerally Speaking to work! So now you can click on it and go right to her Blog!!!!!

And I suggest that you go over and visit her while she is doing her Halloween "nail" contest. Oh heck even after the contest visit because this is one talented lady with doing nails! SO far she has blown me away. When I get my nails done I usually stick with a very light pink color something that doesn't stand out much.......BUT HER NAILS ARE SO GOOD SHE MAKES ME WANT TO HAVE MINE DONE JUST LIKE THAT TO SHOW THEM OFF! So go check out her page and see what she has come up with I will guarantee that you wont be disappointed.

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Not a techie

I don't do smart things with my computer. I'm not a techie.....I do basic simple easy to follow things...that I usually mess up at some point or another. My daughter's girlfriend on the other hand can do all sorts of stuff with her web site and makes everything look so dang cool. SPEAKING OF COOL......
she also can do nails! And get this SHE HAS NEVER GONE TO SCHOOL FOR IT!
That's right never! and SHE ROCKS AT IT. Now Ive tried unsuccessfully to add her to my links on the side bar only to get just her name but not her web site.
I'm gonna type it here to see if it will come up for ya because you really really need to see the work she does. IT IS AMAZING.
and yeah she is my daughter's friend and yeah I like her alot but that is not why I like them I am really truly amazed at what she can put on nails. she makes her the nails look like art. You know the kind where you go to a gallery and walk around looking at pictures! Yeah they are that good. One she did was of candy corn. Now imagine this if you can you glance at these candy corn and think oh cool I'll have some then look again to realise they are some ones finger nails all painted up. That is how good they are. And she is doing a contest with some other gals and these other gals are good as well but ya know Jenn's nail's POP thats the only way I can explain it they stand out and are so cute! Any ways enough of that bragging hehe let me give you that link see i you can pop over and look for yourself and then while your there check out some of the other nails being shown off! All I can say is every one is very talented and I want mine done!

Well I cant seem to add so try www.JenerallySpeaking.com

Friday, October 19, 2012

MEA

SO MEA DIDN'T GO AS BAD AS I EXPECTED........THE FIRST DAY I HAD ONLY 3 BOYS ONE STILL HAD SCHOOL WHICH HE REALLY THOUGHT WAS TOTALLY UNFAIR. THEN DAY 2 OUR DAUGHTER WAS HOME FROM WORK SO SHE HAD 4 BOYS AND I HAD A TOTAL BREAK. THEN I HAD 3 OF THE 4 BOYS HERE TODAY AS BOY NUMBER 4 SLEPT IN AND IS ABLE TO STAY BY HIMSELF.
SO BEFORE DAY ONE GOT HERE LITTLE MAN ASKED FOR THE NEW MADAGASCAR MOVIE BUT..........HE DIDN'T WANT JUST THE MOVIE HE WANTED THE MOVIE AND THE WIG. SO GRANDMA AND GRANDPA WENT OFF TO WAL-MART AND FOUND THE MOVIE AND THE "RAINBOW" WIG. THE NEXT MORNING FIRST DAY THE BOYS HAD OFF I GOT UP CAME OUT TO THE LIVING ROOM WITH MOVIE BEHIND MY BACK AND SAID GUESS WHAT LOGAN? LOGAN GOES HUH......I WHIPPED OUT THE MOVIE FROM BEHIND MY BACK AND THE SMILE THAT CAME ACROSS HIS FACE OMG!!!!!!
THEN HE RACED INTO MY ARMS AND GAVE ME THE BIGGEST HUG. AND SAID CAN WE WATCH IT NOW?
WELL, WE HAD TO GIVE GRANDPA A LITTLE TIME TO WATCH SOME NEWS THEN GRANDPA SAID OK LETS WATCH THE MOVIE.
ALMOST AS SOON AS IT FINISHED, LITTLE MAN WAS ASKING TO WATCH IT AGAIN. SO WE STARTED IT ALL OVER AGAIN! SCORE!
NOW NEXT DAY WHILE BOYS WERE WITH THEIR MOM OUR MAIL CAME AND HEY REMEMBER THAT MOVIE LITTLE MAN ASKED FOR BEFORE? THE LORAX? YEAH ITS HERE NOW.
SO GRANDMA'S THINKING THAT TAKES CARE OF FRIDAY'S ENTERTAINMENT.
SO TODAY GETS HERE BOYS ARE HERE AND I SAY HEY LOGAN LOOK WHAT CAME IN THE MAIL YESTERDAY. AS I HOLD UP THE NEW MOVIE. HE SAYS COOL CAN WE WATCH IT.
WELL NOW WAIT A SECOND HERE HE DOESNT HAVE THE SAME BIG SMILE ON HIS FACE NOR AM I GETTING A HUG FOR A MOVIE HE ASKED FOR.
AH WELL OK LETS WATCH IT.
SO WE PUT IN THE MOVIE AND WATCH IT. IT GOT OVER LITTLE MAN GOT UP AND WENT INTO THE OTHER ROOM ASKED HIS BROTHER TO MAKE HIM LUNCH AND THAT WAS ABOUT IT!
??????????
REALLY?
YOU DIDN'T LIKE THAT ONE?
ARE YA SURE?
YOU ASKED FOR THAT ONE?
WE SPENT MONEY AND BOUGHT IT FOR YA?
WANNA WATCH IT AGAIN?
NO WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO? TAKE A NAP? SURE OK! LOL
I GUESS THE WIG HAD A LITTLE BIT TO DO WITH THE MADAGASCAR MOVIE AND WELL THE FACT THAT HE LOVES THE" MOVE IT" SONG AND WELL LETS FACE IT THE MADAGASCAR SERIES IS REALLY CUTE AND EASY TO FOLLOW ALONG WITH
WHERE AS THE LORAX IS ABOUT SAVING A TREE. WHICH AT THIS POINT IS LOST ON JUST ABOUT ALL KIDS I THINK.
YEAH SO MADAGASCAR WAS A HUGH HIT HERE AND THE LORAX? WELL WE WILL WATCH IT AGAIN BUT YEAH NO IT JUST DIDN'T MAKE LITTLE MAN'S CUT!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

OCT 16th- HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYS

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR JACK JR 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOUUUUUUUU!
and many more.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR TIMOTHY 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUU!
and many more



And so today  is the day. Oct 16th! 
On this day in 1974 our oldest son Jack Jr was born. Our first born baby. Our son.
Ah what a day.
It started out bad and got worse.
The night before he was born I had made gizzards. Now I don't like gizzards But Mr Gab does. So I made them for him. As we sat there he says try just one for me please. SO I tried one. I burped that thing up all night it made me sick. The next morning I was still not feeling well and I was now having bad pains. We decided to go into the hospital. They tell me I'm in labor. So ok. Thats great a little earlier than the due date they had given me but I'm not complaining.
They were hooking me up checking me and then the nurse says OMG. She rushes out of the room and soon her and the doctor come back in. The doctor prods and pokes and listens and then says "ok young lady we are going do an ultra sound to see just how this baby is sitting." I go ok sure. 
So they do the Ultra sound then come back and say ok well there is good news and bad news.
So now Im freaking bad news? Bad news no one wants to hear bad news when they are giving birth to their first born. 
" The good news is the baby is trying to get out just above your left leg so we are going have to pull the baby back into place to be born." WHEW not that I really knew what the hell they were talking about but ok.
"Now the bad news" I wait " we also did the altra sound because we kept hearing what we thought was two heart beats" TWO OMG Now I'm freaking two, ......two babies? UGH I've only got stuff for one.
"But after doing the ultra sound we seen just one baby and he has hic cups. So its just one baby"
Oh Oh ok one ok thats better I didnt have a name for two babies. 
I mean I wasnt even thinking straight. Finally after all day labor I finally have a baby.
Now I dont remember much. But Mr Gab says I was swearing a blue streak. And some of the nuns left the room because I was so bad.
I don't even remember it. Then comes the recovery room. Im in and out. I lost a lot of blood. They have to give me a blood transfusion. I over hear two nurses talking. One says She wanted that baby boy so badly. the other goes Yeah I dont know how they are going to explain it to her that it has died.
I'm hearing this and thinking they are talking about me. Now I freak I wanna see my baby. They dont want to bring me my baby. I say bring me my god damn baby NOW.
So they got and get him and show me the numbers match show me that he has all his little boy parts. ok so Im calm and can go back to sleep. 
I later learned a lady was in a car accident and she had lost her baby that they had tried for years to get pregnant. I felt really bad for her. But I also knew those nurses should never been talking in front of me. 
My next 3 days at the hospital I had an Iv in one arm and a blood transfusion in the other. I couldnt even hold my baby. In fact I had to give them permission to bottle feed my baby because I had so much drugs in my system I couldnt breast feed. Ah the day I went home was the best day of all. I finally got to hold my baby and I wouldnt put him down for NOTHING!


Oct 16th 1978
I am now expecting our 3rd baby. we have one son and one daughter. I thought our family was done but well I guess we were not.
We started out the day I baked our Oldest son his birthday cake.....he is 4 today. It is sitting on the stove cooling before I frost it. Mr Gab comes home from work and we go shopping. This is the year that a lot of the little kids are picking out their own birthday presents. So we are gonna let Jj pick out his own present. Baby Tonya is 18 months old and Im due in a week. 
We are in the store and Jj is looking over all the toys. Im not feeling to good. In fact Im having pains in my back. All of a sudden my water breaks and I scream OMG we gotta go NOW.
So we yell at Jj to just grab something we gotta go now. We dropped the kids at our babysitters and go to the hospital. When we get there they look at my record and see two births two blood transfusions so now they want to try blood plasma before having the baby. I say ok lets try it. After all I would like to be able to hold one of my kids right after they are born. So they do the Blood plasma first.
I pray this baby goes past midnight so that he or she is not born on the same day as our oldest son. Please I ask god please.
My prayers were not answered. Our youngest son Timothy was born the same day as his older brother just 4 years later.
Well ok now how many big brothers can say they got a baby brother for a present?
But this birth didn't go as easy as they expected either. Oh yes I did get to hold this baby right after he was born. I had the IV but this time I did not have a blood transfusion in my other arm.
On the night before I was to go home. I went to the bathroom and almost fell. In fact I didnt make it back to the bed. They came in checked me and ran out. Soon 5 doctors were in my room and they were all checking me.  My legs were hot and swollen. They sent me for test. I had massive blood clots in both my legs but my right was worse than my left. Now I cant get out of bed PERIOD. and going home was a NO WAY IN HELL.  I ended up being in the hospital for 15 days total. and then when they sent me home they really didnt want to. Timothy ended up being bottle feed because mom couldnt do what she was suppose to do. He was the oldest baby in the nursery by the time we left. and he was spoiled by the nurses. By the time we got home I had to hire some one to help me and holding baby Timothy was on a timed bases. 

Happy Birthday boys. You made each of your birth days intersting for me. And all through the years we've had many more ups and downs but I guess thats what make life life right? LOL
I love you both. 

Monday, October 15, 2012

Do we need new cars? yes yes we do!



These are our cars.......One picture is of both cars together can you see the rust? Then I took one of where it has finally made it through the back door (yes that is a hole all the way through) where the grandkids get in and every now and again they like to stick their fingers in the hole. The one of the back of the pickup THE BIG HOLE is just an indication of how bad it is and how we really dont dare put anything in the back. The grandkids love to climb in and we are forever yelling NO! LOL we really want newer cars after all these are from the 1900's!  I love saying that now it makes it sound like they are reallllllly old! Mr Gab tells me I gotta say they are from the 1990's . But that doesnt sound old at all.

Sunday, October 07, 2012

I TOTALLY LOVE MY NEW PRODUCT.

I AGREED TO DO A PRODUCT TEST. NOW MIND YOU I USUALLY DON'T DO THIS SIMPLY BECAUSE OF MY ALLERGIES.
BUT MY DAUGHTER'S FRIEND JENNY WAS DOING THIS AND SHE SUGGESTED I TRY IT AS WELL.
SHE WAS TELLING ME THAT THE PRODUCTS WERE ALL NATURAL.

SO OK. I THOUGHT I WOULD SIGN UP AND PROBABLY NOT BE PICKED.
WELL TO MY SURPRISE I WAS CHOSEN TO DO A TEST PRODUCT.
SO IT CAME IN THE MAIL THE OTHER DAY AND LOW AND BEHOLD I WAS IN LOVE FROM THE MINUTE I OPENED THE PACKAGE.

IT SMELLED WONDERFUL.......I TOOK A BIG SNIFF..........AND WAITED.........................NOTHING NO SNEEZING NO EYES WATERING AND NO NOSE PLUGGING UP SO THAT I CAN'T BREATH! OK 1 THING DOWN MANY TO GO.

SO I PICKED A VERY SMALL SPOT ON MY LEG BY MY KNEE AND I SPREAD A LITTLE ON MY SKIN. AND I WAITED...............................NOTHING AGAIN...............NO RED SPOTS NO ITCHING AND NO RASH.

OK SO NOW I'M LIKE YAY I CAN USE THIS STUFF AND ITS NOT BOTHERING ME ................SO I PICKED A BIGGER SPOT AND PUT ALOT ON....................................NOTHING...............AND MY SKIN FELT GREAT ITS NOT GREASY ITS NOT OILY ITS WONDERFUL.

SO NOW I KNOW I CAN USE THIS PRODUCT. AND I DONT HAVE ANY PROBLEMS LIKE I DO WITH MOST EVERY THING I BUY IN A STORE.
LET ME TELL YOU THAT IS SUCH A RELIEF. BECAUSE I HAVE TO BE VERY CAREFUL BUYING STUFF IN THE STORES. I NEVER HAD THIS PROBLEM BEFORE BUT AS I GOT OLDER AND THE MORE MEDS I TAKE THE MORE I SEEM TO HAVE PROBLEMS WITH SMELLS AND FRAGRANCES. ONE OF MY BIGGEST PROBLEMS HAS BEEN WITH SHAMPOOS NOTHING LIKE BUYING SOMETHING THEN ITCHING SO BADLY THAT YOUR HEAD BLEEDS THEN YOU GO TO GET YOUR HAIR CUT AND THEY SEE ALL THESE SCABS AND WONDER WHAT THE HELL............IM FOREVER CHANGING SHAMPOOS I USE ONE FOR MAYBE A MONTH THEN GOTTA CHANGE AGAIN...SOME TIMES I DONT EVEN GET TO USE IT THAT LONG. YOU WILL SEE ME A STORE SMELLING STUFF BEFORE BUYING AND LOTS OF TIMES IM PUTTING A SMALL AMOUNT OF IT ON MY SKIN TO SEE IF I HAVE ANY KIND OF REACTION. THANK GOD FOR SAMPLES BUT SOMETIMES EVEN THOSE I HAVE TO OPEN TO SMELL AND TRY I WILL HAVE TO GET AN EMPLOYEE ALOT OF TIMES TO HELP ME BECAUSE MOST ARE SEALED AND MOST TIMES I CANT BUY IT AFTER I TRY IT. SO THIS MAKES ME HAPPY. GO CHECK THEM OUT:

http://delvauxsoaps.com/