More about the truck

You've seen the pics below (if not go look) We bought a 2003 F350 Diesel Ford Pickup that's loaded.
It got auto start, gps and omg I don't know every thing else but start talking to Mr Gab and you can talk for hours about the truck!!!!!
I drove it home from the dealer. YES ME! and I drove it all around yesterday......2 things I gotta learn.......ONE WATCH MY SPEED.....IT GOES MUCH FASTER THAN THE DURANGO  at a very small touch of the foot feed! and TWO IT'S MUCH BIGGER THAN THE DURANGO SO WATCH IT WHEN PARKING .....I hit a parked car......lol well ok lets rephrase that.... I bumped the car in front of me. No damage no nothing but shocked me that I was already that close to car in front of me. I worry about the cost of diesel but hell gas is expensive too so I guess it works out all most the same. And yeah in the winter we gotta be careful of it gelling but I hope we soon will be in Florida. But a F350 pick up that runs in our price range was a dream come true.
The morning after we bought it I said to Mr Gab "you know I love that truck. But its just the two of us and we are older so do we really need a truck that big?" and he said "NO But we want it and we deserve it and we got it and that's it" So I laughed and go ok. Then he said if we take really good care of it it should be the last vehicle we ever own, and at the mileage it has now it hasn't even been broken in yet. SO Mr. Gab is so very happy its been his dream for such a long time to own a F350 and now he has one. And I'm happy its a very nice truck. Not a color I would have picked but I ain't gonna complain! we got a really good deal

OUR NEW TRUCK

2003 F350 Deisel 4x4 loaded Heated seats, auto start, gps plus much much more. 

Little man having fun with his daddy

HURRAY

Sooooo....................


I went to the Doctor's again yesterday.........this was my arthritis Doctor, but they still make you get on the scale. AND


I WAS REALLY SCARED.........................................


BECAUSE I HAD SLIPPED LAST WEEK AND THE WEEK BEFORE..............................................


BUT


I GOT ON...............             AND..............................    LOST ANOTHER 8 WHOLE POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


OMG I WAS SO SURPRISED AND VERY HAPPY. SO TO DATE I HAVE LOST 50 POUNDS......YES 50!
I'M A LONG WAY FROM MY ACTUAL GOAL (yep I made one, one I thought was unrealistic) BUT NOW AM ACTUALLY GETTING CLOSER TO EVERY TIME I STEP ON THE SCALE AND LOOSE MORE. I CAN DO THIS YES YES I CAN!!!

AND WHAT HELPS THE MOST BECAUSE I CAN'T EXERCISE IS THE FACT IS WHEN I START TO FEEL A LITTLE FULL IS TO STOP THEN NOT WHEN I AM FULL.
MY PLATE MY BE STILL FULL OF FOOD BUT I AM NOT.

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glug glug glug....................




some days I feel as if I'm drowning.



In Bills


In worrying about the car



In babysitting




In my health


In hubby health


GOD HELP US PLEASE! I put every thing into your hands once again!

I love those kinda of days

Yesterday Mr Gab and I went out to breakfast at Baker's Square. Now for the longest time we stopped eating there because their menu had changed and they didn't have any thing either of us liked. But our daughter's on-again/off-again boyfriend works there and told us they brought back some of the old favorites so we went back and found we liked their breakfasts again. So here we are sitting chatting and eating when I looked up at the window and what do I see? 2 of our grandsons making their way into the restaurant with said boyfriend.
Well let me tell you the smiles on their faces when they seen us and they ran across the restaurant to give us hugs and kisses! Then they wanted to sit with us. But we were almost finished eating plus the table we were at would not accommodate 3 more people. Their faces fell but they took the table right behind us. We had a few more hugs and kisses and then said good-bye and we were on our way.
We then we to the bank, then off to the city to pay our water bill, then over to Target Optical to get our new glasses.
The good news is I can see......The bad news is I can't use the new glasses while on the computer which is where I am 99% of the day! I checked the ones I'm wearing (the pitted and scratched and worn ones) to see if they had numbers on for strength but couldn't find any so, my next option is to take them over to Target Optical and see if they can tell me what it is so I can find another pair like these for just the computer! But it is oh so nice to be able to put on a pair of glasses and not try to adjust them to try to see the words I'm looking at! But there is bad news with this as well.
I have cataracts on both eyes and as soon as I can no longer see with these glasses its surgery time. But of course it doesn't stop there......
One of the medicines I take is causing some kinda thing growing at the back of my right eye. So The ophthalmologists I seen wants me back in 3 months to keep an eye on it Plus talk to my Doctor about either lower the amount I take or getting off it completely.
Monday I go in for my next set of injections this time on my left side. If its anything like last time I will be out of commission for about 3 days well 2 really but the 3rd day I still am hurting just not as bad as the first 2 and I usually am moving better by then! And on those first 2 days I wont feel much like playing on the computer either.
But if its helps any at all like last time I should be able to walk almost totally by myself (maybe even with out a cane) and do some more activities around the house. The first ones in my right hip and back have let me stand and load dish washer all at one time instead of loading a few sitting down loading more sitting down. I was even able to wash pots and pans which before I couldn't even stand long enough to do them. AND MY BIGGEST ACHIEVEMENT was I made Mr Gab Breakfast one morning with out having to say take over I cant stand their any more!!!! And of course sleeping on my right side at night was so much nicer than tossing and turning all night long that I finally am (well almost totally) rested!
My thing now is the nightmares Ive been having But thats a whole different BLOG!
Be nice to one another and remember you don't know if you will be here again tomorrow that's totally up to God!

REALLY?

I am a real person!
I have real feelings!
I cry!
I Bleed when cut!
I eat I breath air I get dressed most every day.
How dare you treat me like shit
How dare you think you can walk all over me.
I will not stand for it
I will not lay down and take it
I will however tell you this:
(LISTEN VERY CLOSELY)

The next time your in a jam DONT CALL ME! I wont be there
The next time you need money DONT ASK ME! I'll be broke every single time.
Next time you just need a friend or shoulder to lean or cry on DONT LOOK FOR MINE it wont be there!

Yes I am being a bitch I learned from the best wanna know who?  GO LOOK IN THE MIRROR!

I think we are almost to the end of raising another child

Our oldest grandson is 17 already. He will be 18 this Nov. He also has one more year of school left. Today he took his written drivers test and passed. Part one done and down the drain. We are almost done raising another child. We have had him pretty much since he was a baby. We are pretty much his parents as his grandparents. And now he can start driving. Behind the wheel of a real car. OMG my oldest grandson is now old enough to drive! waaaaah. I feel very old right now.

Well it does matter to someone

The lies, the back stabbing, the stealing all of it matters to someone. They may never say so, but it does. And the worst part is when its your own family doing it. AH yes family. They are the worst in doing things to hurt others.
I've learned with my own children just to let it go because no matter how many times you say anything to them they will deny it PLUS then they will go home and talk behind your back bad shit about you and say oh your crazy and shit like that. Sisters and brothers do it too.
I always wonder about these families who spend so much time going to church how they all feel when it them who lie? or steal? How do they justify it? to them selves? to god? to the ones they do it too? The voice of experience tells me its gotta hurt like hell either way whether your the one doing it to another or the one who its being done too.
It's too bad they can't just come forward say I'm sorry lets fix this. But nope most times it splits them apart to where most of them never talk to them again! Then when they pass they stand there saying shit like oh I wish we had the chance to make it up I so missed them! DO IT NOW STUPID!!!!!  Dont wait till its too late,  FIX IT NOW. because it matters.......................to someone....................and they probably are hurting....................so it's up to you to fix it...fix it now....................

Shocker

Well, its been a few days. I've had a few things going on. Back at the beginning of Jan (very first weekend in fact) I had to go to the ER. I knew I had a bladder infection but got a shock to learn I also had kidney infection. After I took all my meds I was have several great days so great I actually was able to stand up and do dishes a couple of times. Then we went out one night for dinner just the two of us and during dinner I needed to go to the restroom so I started to get up and go and BOOM I fell flat on the floor. and it take several tries to get me up. I then wobble my way to the restroom go and start back but cant walk all the way to our table. I'm in such bad pain......I thought kidneys because that seemed to be where the pain was. So we go home drop off groceries and find grandson and go to ER again. THIS IS NOT HOW I WANT TO START OUT MY NEW YEAR! They did urine, blood tests and then a CT. all came back ok, the Doctor on call told me it was spasms. And they were caused by me when I over did the days I felt good. So he gave me some pain pills and sent me off home. When I was in ER they gave me Morphine to take the edge off the pain so that they could do the tests. Well it made me goofy and really yucky. I went to bed fell asleep only to wake up and run to the bathroom to be very sick. I was up rest of the night sick. Then I slept the rest of the day. and most of the next night. They wanted me to go see my own doctor 3 days after I had been in ER and I said well that's good cause I had an appointment that Friday morning. Well Friday morning came and I went into see my doctor. and WOW I had some more surprises in store for me. First they weighed me, I never look so I didn't see what it was. SO when my doctor started to questioning me over it I was like WHAT? are you sure? So when I was done with my exam we redid my weight and YES she was right I went from about 242 down to 213! Now while that doesn't seem like a lot to you for me it is. I can't exercise like everyone else can, I 'm not really mobile at all so to actually loose weight well that is great. The other thing that was a super big SURPRISE was my blood pressure. it had been in the 100's both top and bottom numbers sometimes the top number hitting over 200's. well Friday she noted that all three of my visits were normal not high at all. YES!!!! I finally am doing stuff right. SO I AM VERY HAPPY. I will keep eating the good stuff I have been cutting way back on the sweets (I pretty much stopped eating donuts) I am drinking only one can of soda a day and hoping to stop all together. AND I'm drinking more water than ever before.

Hello God it's me again

Hello God it's me again:
I know you haven't heard from me in quite awhile....."WHAT" Oh yeah that was me 5 days ago cussing and yelling at you your right....but that was the sick me. The me who was sick of being sick. The me who thought life was unfair, who wished you would turn back the clock to Oct 6th 2008 and let me make a different choice that day in hopes that I don't get hit by a "WITCH" who ran a red light and hurt me so badly my life changed forever while she walked away unscathed. Yeah that was me your right. BUT this me the one who is talking to you today is saying THANK YOU. For what ever reason my last 3 days and now today have been very good days. I haven't had the headaches and I haven't had the sick tummy. So I've been a happier me, one my family and I like. I know my family wasn't enjoying the other me Heck I wasn't enjoying the other me hence the yelling and cussing I did the other day to you. I really HATED the other me so much so I wanted to END the other me. In away you did end the other me. I went to bed 5 night ago after yelling and cussing at you and I cried and I begged and I pleaded 'PLEASE PLEASE LET ME HAVE SOME GOOD DAYS" I told you I didn't like me sick all the time and I said if you would just let me have some good days I would make the best of them. You did and I have ......so far. So Again:
Hello God it'd me again:
The good me, the not always sick me, the me who can handle the pain somewhat better than before me. and I want to say again THANK YOU FOR LISTENING AND GRANTING MY WISH. I also want to ask if  at all possible if we can keep going like this for awhile more. Everyone including myself likes this me. I'm not crabby, I'm not bitchy. I can actually do stuff. Yes your right I still have to deal with not walking very well, but I can now handle that because I feel better about the rest of myself. I am enjoying each and everyday not cowering in a corner crying. So if you please lets keep this going I LIKE THIS ME. Amen.

The day is coming closer

The day is coming closer...its a day I dread with all my heart! My beloved Pumpkin is coming to the end of his life. He is around 15 or 16 years old. I really don't remember for sure as it seems we had him forever. The biggest part of loosing him is that once again I will feel the loss of Puff. Pumpkin and Puff were the best of friends in cat world. Where one went the other followed I couldnt go to the bathroom with out both being in there with me. AND BED whoo let me tell you Puff was on my head and Pumpkin on my feet. When Puff died Pumpkin took over the job of sleeping on my head. When I was still able to sit at my desk and desktop computer I actually had to have a second computer chair for those two to sit in. And when I would be relaxing in my recliner or on the couch I had two furry babies right along side of me one one either side. When Puff died Pumpkin looked so lost I wanted to get another cat right away.  Mr Gab vetoed that idea. It was 7 months after he passed when Mr Gab himself brought home Lucky. Pumpkin didn't like him at all!
And it took almost 4 months for them to become friends and be together not as close as Puff and him were but close enough. Now that Pumpkin is getting to that point neither cat wants anything to do with the other. In fact I have to watch Lucky because he will hurt Pumpkin on purpose. I know his passing is part of life but I hate it.. 100% HATE IT!

I have entertained the idea of when he has passed and I have done my grieving I will think about instead of adding another cat I will add a dog.

We used to always have 2 dogs 2 cats at the same time before. Then we had to downsize when we came to care for dad. Now as we get into our next phase of pets I think 1 and 1 would be a great idea.

I love my pets.....they arent just pets to us they are our kids our babies our lives. We just cant see our life without a pet in it. And so it goes One door closes another opens.
I just wish I had more time

Where is my 5 year old grandson?

Where is little man? I need him quick......this is AN EMERGENCY!
Our recorder is set to record nothing but spongbob squarepants! and I cant change it. I need a 5 year old to fix it for me.......


OH     WAIT.......................

I DID ASK A 5 YEAR OLD TO HELP ME FIX IT.......................................................
THATS WHY ITS ALL SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS RECORDINGS NOW! lol

Ok then I need a smarter someone to help me stop all the spongebob recording....after all I'd like to record a show or two myself...and NOT SPONGEBOB. I need a drink...ya'll can find me in kitchen...............

Memories

So the other day Mr Gab brought home donuts......usually that doesn't bother me I let grand kids eat them as their treat. But then he told me there was a donut that had slivered almonds on top. Right away memories of dad and I sharing one of those donuts flooded me and I asked him to bring me that donut. He asked if I was sure as I had been trying to eat healthier but I just had to have that donut. I said yes.
As I sat there eating that donut the cat sleeping on my chest woke up and started grabbing for pieces of donut. I said "Hey you dumb cat donuts aren't good for cats!" But he kept trying to get some anyways.
And I didn't count on his paws being faster than my hands pushing him away as he managed to grab some right outta my mouth! and every single little piece that dropped on my shirt he snapped up like he hadn't eaten in 6 months.
After I was done I sat there thinking of all the times I ate one of those donuts with my dad.Most of the time I would be at work with dad and we'd share his lunch when we got to the donut he would pull out his pocket knife and cut the said donut in half and give me my half. Now in my memories of these times something flashed in my head..........that pocket knife!!!!!! OMG dad used that knife on everything. He would use it to gap the spark plugs on his car. He would scrap off the corrosion of the battery in the car. he would dig out slivers in his hand and or fingers he also would use it to pop open any thing that had pus in. good god the things he used that pocket knife for and for the most part all he did was take out his handkerchief and wipe it off and god only knows what he used the Handkerchief for!!!! Then the next memory that came for said pocket knife was the time I washed dads pants......I was standing in the basement and I was going through his pockets and I got to the one with his pocket knife in.....it had screws....nails....washers.....dirt.....greasy something......dirt..........pocket knife.....more dirt......saw dust........coin purse.....loose coins! I pulled it all out and put it all on the kitchen table we had in the basement just for this purpose and then dropped the pants into the washer. I then went over to dad's work bench and grabbed the bucket and carried it to the table. There I took out the coins and coin purse and his pocket knife and the rest I pushed into that bucket. I carried it back to dad's work bench so it was there next time he was down there working. I would put loose coins in my pocket and carry the rest into dad's bedroom and place on his bed. Now this memory brought back the next one.......Dad also had a coffee can next to the kitchen table with screws nails washers nuts and who knows what minus dirt and greasy something. Where at any point at dinner he would push his plate forward to middle of table grab said coffee can and spill some on table to look for what ever. I know I used that can many times myself when I wanted to hang something in my room. So then of course can my next memory......dad sitting at table drinking his tea......he would take tea bag out squeeze out all the water and tea and wrap string around bag then said is it open? One of us would check out garbage can and either say yes or no wait a sec while we removed the top. After giving the all clear dad would toss tea bag across table and into can yelling score! Some times he would try it with a paper towel most times that missed and one of us would have to pick it up and toss it where it belonged.
All these memories over a donut!
and to think he used that "DIRTY POCKET KNIFE TO CUT MINE" and in those days we didn't seem to notice or care!

I did what I set out to do

YOU KNOW WHEN YOUR A PARENT YOU TRY TO DO EVERY THING RIGHT BY YOUR CHILDREN. YOU DO THE TOOTH FAIRY THE EASTER BUNNY AND THEN SANTA. AND YOU TRY TO MAKE EVERYTHING MEMORABLE FOR YOUR KIDS.
WELL I GUESS IT DIDN'T WORK ON MINE.
SO WHEN I STARTED GETTING GRAND KIDS I THOUGHT OK HERE'S MY CHANCE AGAIN. A SECOND CHANCE IF YOU WILL. I HAD TWO OF OUR DAUGHTER'S BOYS LIVING WITH US FOR AWHILE WHEN THEY WERE YOUNG(actually I still have the oldest)
SO I DID ALL FOR THESE BOYS.........BUT AT CHRISTMAS I DID MY ALL I REALLY WENT ALL OUT......NOW I WENT ALL OUT FOR OUR KIDS TOO I DECORATED TO THE 9'S AS THEY SAY. I PLAYED THE CHRISTMAS SONGS AND SANG(badly if ya ask me) I TOOK THEM TO SEE SANTA. I TOLD THEM THE CHRISTMAS STORY AND THE STORY OF BABY JESUS.
I DID IT ALL.
AND WHEN THE KIDS AT SCHOOL TEASED THEM FOR BELIEVING IN SANTA I TOLD THEM NO MATTER WHAT YOU BELIEVE SANTA IS ALIVE AND WELL AND THAT SOME CHILDREN CAN'T BELIEVE BECAUSE OF THE WAY THEIR FAMILIES DO THINGS.
IN OTHER WORDS I MADE CHRISTMAS AS SPECIAL AS I POSSIBLY COULD.

WELL IT WORKED.

THIS YEAR JUST ON CHRISTMAS EVE MY OLDEST GRANDSON WENT TO HIS MOM'S TO BE WITH THEM CHRISTMAS MORNING. HE ASKED HIS LITTLE BROTHER WHO IS 5 "DO YOU KNOW WHO IS COMING TOMORROW NIGHT?" HE SAID "NO" MY OLDEST GRANDSON GOT UPSET. HE ASKED "DON'T YOU KNOW ABOUT CHRISTMAS?" HIS BROTHER SAID "NO"
SO HE ASKED"WHAT DO YOU THINK CHRISTMAS IS ABOUT?" AND HIS BROTHER SAID "STUFF I WANT"
MY OLDEST GRANDSON WAS SO UPSET HE ACTUALLY CRIED THEN CALLED ME AND SAID HIS LITTLE BROTHER KNEW NOTHING ABOUT CHRISTMAS OTHER THAN GIVE ME GIVE ME. AND HE SAID HE REMEMBERED WHEN HE WAS LITTLE HOW I MADE IT SO SPECIAL. HE SAID HIS MOM BLEW HIM OFF WHEN HE WANTED HELP TELLING HIS BROTHER ABOUT CHRISTMAS. SO I GOT INTO ACTION ......
I FOUND THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS COPIED IT SENT IT OFF TO HIS CELL FOR HIM TO READ TO HIS BROTHER. I FOUND THE CHRISTMAS STORY ABOUT JESUS AND SENT THAT TO HIM. I THEN SENT HIM THE LINK TO FIND THE CHRISTMAS SONGS AND SOME OF THE MOVIES BOTH ON YOU TUBE. THAT THEY COULD LISTEN TO AND WATCH TOGETHER. I ALSO SENT HIM THE LINK TO NORAD TO TRACK SANTA. THEN SAT BACK AND LET HIM HELP HIS BROTHER UNDERSTAND CHRISTMAS. THE NEXT DAY LITTLE MAN CAME TO ME AND ASKED DID I KNOW ABOUT CHRISTMAS THE REAL CHRISTMAS?  I SAID "YES YES I DID" I SAID "WHO DO YOU THINK TOLD TJ AND AJ ABOUT IT?" HE LOOKED AT ME AND GOES" YOU?" AND I SAID" YES" THEN I TOLD HIM I TOLD HIS MOM AND HIS UNCLES TOO BUT I GUESS THEY FORGOT. HE TOLD ME HE LIKED THE STORIES AND THE SONGS AND HE LIKE THE JESUS STORY THE BEST.
I GUESS I DID MY JOB.
I REALLY TRIED TO MAKE SURE THEY REMEMBERED THE TIMES THEY SPENT WITH THEIR GRANDPARENTS AS GOOD TIMES AND NOW I KNOW THEY WILL REMEMBER CHRISTMAS WITH GRANDMA AS SPECIAL.

THE THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY

WELL I HAVE STARTED 2013 ON A CRAZY NOTE BUT ONE THAT MAKES ME HAPPY IF NOT CRAZY.

OUR DAUGHTER HAS 4 BOYS. AND EACH AND EVERY TIME THEY HAVE HAD THEIR VERY FIRST LOOSE TOOTH I'VE BEEN THERE TO PULL IT.
SO NOW IT WAS LITTLE MAN'S TURN. HE WILL BE 6 AT THE END OF JAN.
HIS SHOWED ME HIS FIRST LOOSE TOOTH JUST BEFORE THANKSGIVING. I TOLD HIM HOW I PULLED ALL 3 OF HIS OLDER BROTHERS VERY FIRST TOOTH, AND HOW I WANTED TO BE THE ONE TO PULL HIS FIRST LOOSE TOOTH.
WELL TODAY HE CAME AND SHOWED ME HIS VERY LOOSE TOOTH. I SAID ITS TIME.
SO GRANDMA GOT A PAPER TOWEL AND REACHED IN AND WELL WAS SUPER SURPRISED THAT IT JUST KINDA FELL OUT. IT BLED A LITTLE OF COURSE AND HE SAID HURT A LITTLE BUT I THINK IT WAS MORE THE SHOCK OF SEEING HIS TOOTH OUT THAN REALLY HURTING. SO NOW AS OF TODAY JAN 1ST 2013 I HAVE PULLED ALL 4 OF OUR DAUGHTER'S BOYS VERY FIRST LOOSE TOOTH. I AM SO PROUD.

I DON'T KNOW WHY IT WAS IMPORTANT FOR ME TO BE THE ONE TO PULL THEIR FIRST LOOSE TOOTH BUT IT REALLY WAS AND IM GLAD IT DIDNT FALL OUT BEFORE TODAY. SO TJ AJ JJ AND LJ HAVE ALL HAD THEIR FIRST LOOSE TOOTH PULLED OUT BY GRANDMA GAB!!!!

A SAD NEW YEAR EVES

TODAY IS NEW YEARS EVE......A DAY OF LOOKING FORWARDS TO MAKING NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS AND STARTING OUT A BRAND NEW YEAR. YET OUR FAMILY IS MOURNING. WE HAVE LOST ANOTHER FAMILY MEMBER.
ONE OF MY MOM'S BROTHERS PASSED AWAY THIS MORNING. AT 8AM.
I NEVER GOT TO MEET THIS UNCLE AND NOW WILL NOT TILL I JOIN THEM ALL IN HEAVEN...UNLESS IM SENT IN THE OTHER DIRECTION LOL.

SO WITH A SAD AND HEAVY HEART I SAY

HAPPY NEW YEARS!

I WILL BE ALONE TONIGHT AS HUBBY WORKS AND GRANDSON WILL WORK TILL ABOUT 1AM.
BUT PLEASE IF YOUR OUT DRINKING PLEASE DON'T DRIVE. HAVE A GOOD TIME AND I HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL IN THE NEW YEAR.

It was a Wonderful Christmas

 Our Oldest son Jack Jr and  his daughter Kelley

 Oldest son daughter Kelley his girlfriend Nickki her boys Dillion and Dorian

 Our daughter Tonya and her 4 boys Tj Jeremy Logan on her lap and Aaron

 Our youngest son Timothy his 3 Tim jr Kaitelynn and James

 Tim and his kids and his girlfriend Shawn and her son Jamal

In this Picture its Mr Gab and me and our kids with their kids! I am on end of couch under Tj who is holding Kaitelynn! If you click on each picture you can enlarge them to see each one better.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

MERRY
                        CHRISTMAS


FROM 
             GAB AND MR GAB.
and a very HAPPY NEW YEARS!

HOPE YOU ALL HAVE THE VERY BEST DAY TOMORROW. AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Me day today

I went and got my nails done today.

And the grandkids got our tree done for this year. I think they both look good