Still here

I've still got a cold!!!! I would say it's not as bad as it used to be but what the heck is that really saying? I'm still coughing....my nose is still running...and my throat hurts like the dickens.....oh wait my eyes aren't watery any more that's an improvement.

My biggest thing lately.....................one of the pills I take give me gas........really really bad gas! NO Not necessarily smelly....just a lot of it. I cough I toot.....I sneeze I toot...... hell I just plain toot toot toot toot.

I've tried to stop each pill for a couple of days but haven't figured out yet just which one is the culprit of course there are about 3 pills I can't just drop for a couple of days but those pills I have been taking for while so I don't think they are the cause.

So I guess I live with it. I don't think taking something like Beeno would be a good idea.

I also seem to be burping alot............and I'm so damn tired of saying excuse me all the time.! Mr Gab passes gas and does he say excuse me HECK NO!!!! So why should I have to? when he's here and I pass a little gas he either glares at me till I say excuse me or he makes this noise like "are you kidding me that's disgusting" So its like I don't hear you saying anything when you do it and its a normal body function yet I get the dirty looks.

I guess I need to go outside or something to make him happy!

Just not with it

Ive got a bad cold.......a very bad cold......and I havent felt like doing much lately....not even on facebook......so I thought Id pop in here and let you know Im around just suffering right now and much rather be sleeping.

No school tomorrow means sleep over tonight

Instead of me having a quiet night alone while Mr.Gab is at work I have all 4 boys. Now to understand this is simple...Im giving daughter a break so she doesnt have to get up so early to drag them over here since there is no school tomorrow...President's day. She has had to take her oldest son all last week and will have to again this week. His first class is at 6:50am so you have to get up at about 5:30am or 5:45am to get him there on time.(I got up at the 5:45 time as I live closer to the school.) Now granted your saying why are you getting up at all? Well our oldest grandson has been living with is living with us. So I get him to school. Now the reason daughter has his again this week is my Durango doesn't have any breaks and I mean NONE! First time I drove it when I discovered no breaks I was alittle confused as I had drove it just that morning to take grandson to school and everything was aok then. So after we got back home when I discovered we had no breaks Mr Gab looked at it and found no fluid in the thingy. Which means there is a hole somewhere. But last week Mr Gab had fallen at work and was too sore to get down to work on th breaks. Then we also had a cold snap where we finally got winter tempatures. So he couldnt go out then. He works all this week until Friday so grandson has to stay at his moms for another week. Because Mr Gab doesnt get off work till 7am a little to late for grandson to get to school on time.

I on the other hand had a break from getting up early last week and will again this week so I figured I would give her one day as its a holiday and the kids will be already home.......maybe I'll get lucky and they will sleep in........better since its so late now........why am I up? KIDS BEDTIME

Thank god for the internet I guess?

Yesterday I was cruising , watching the feeds go by......some times I click on something to help a friend sometimes I just read what they posted...............................Then it happened................I seen a feed, started to read when it disappeared..............What I screamed at my computer NO WAIT.........but it was too late it was gone and I had only a glimpse of what looked like some bad news from our family up north. So I did the next best thing I started to see if any family members were on. I found one and I asked him if he had heard anything from up north. (his parents and sister live up there) He said no and he had talked to his dad just that morning.

SO I started checking my friends list to find family members Im friends with and then go to their page to see if I could find what I thought I had read. I finally found the family member who had posted then left a message. Nothing......so I looked again and seen they had used their cell phone to post it so I quick put message on facebook in the comment area. Now I got an answer................

It seems that hubby's brother-in-law had died. What I've learned so far is that he had had heart surgery went home and they found him dead. Thats it. So we are now waiting for the rest of the information...............................

BUT...................................I do not think we will be attending his furneral!!!!! WHY? Because he abused his wife(hubby's sister) and because of him his daughter committed sucide. So no I dont believe we will be there......But we would like the rest of the details.

well its about time

Mr Gab and I have finally decided that its about time to do what we want without kids, grandkids and everyone else who seems to be caught up in our lives.

He wanted to really wait till he turned 62 to retire early (funny thing though just about 8 months ago he was talking about working until he turned 69) But his aches and pains have caught up with him. and he just wants to rest now.

He has gotten his own laptop......he plays on Face Book (lol I got him addicted) we also play on Pogo. And yes we both pay for it. We didn't start out paying but when all these interruptions kept happening while we were trying to enjoy a game Mr Gab said oh hell pay for it. There has been several times we didn't because money was to tight and two of our three kids would pay it just to keep us happy(or so they said).

So we have talked and talked about what we should do.....I still want to be in Florida. BUT then again I love the farm.......wide open spaces no close neighbors (closest neighbor 1 mile in any direction which is a-ok with me) But the winters can be really bad. So then we talked about summers in SD and Winters in FL. well, yes that would work. Mr Gab also talked about buying a rv but neither of us can agree on a small one or one a bit bigger. One on top left is smaller one one top right is bigger one. Well of course money plays into it But I said if we sell everything we could buy either one. then again if we sold the farm as well and bought the bigger one we could just live on the road.

One thing we both agree about is we DON'T WANT LEATHER SEATS! Cloth is just fine for us.

I AM PISSED

Ok breath in out deeply NOW YELL AT TOP OF LUNGS..................I swear the more I learn the more I wish I could do .........................

Ok so you may or may not have heard about we have our granddaughter alot. its kinda like this she comes Monday spends night till weds when she goes home with her mom then comes back Thurs after school and goes home Friday with her mom. OK? OK!................But here's the deal (what Ive learned in the last week...........

Granddaughter is on meds (or suppose to be) she hasn't been on them for over a week now.......granddaughter is really off the wall..........we are trying trust me but its getting harder and harder....................granddaughter's mom told Mr Gab on Friday that she was waiting for Medical assistant to come through because these pills are really expensive...........ok we can understand she move from one county to another and has to reapply right?

Now here's where it gets dicey..........................

Our oldest son shows up Monday and says that granddaughter's mom isn't getting granddaughter's needed pills because she wants to have granddaughter committed into a hospital.........then he yelled at his daughter and asked her why she ate a whole bag of sugar on Saturday?! WTF???? so I wait and listen....to hear" mom wouldn't get outta bed and get me something to eat and there was nothing else and I was hungry" Her dad our son got mad and yelled at me. I'm like I didnt get involved with her and have a child with her and he's like you dont understand mom all she wanted her for was to collect money she tried that with her first kid and look what happened she lost him and has to pay her x-boyfriend child support so she figures she can get me to pay her because of our daughter. He goes I buy her what she needs but I wont give her mom the money otherwise she spends it on stuff like massage and crap like that. So I said well if you buy her what she needs then why was she eating a bag of sugar because there was nothing else to eat. Well of course no answer for that!!! I just hope some how some way stuff gets changed but it may be awhile

dreams

LOL I've got a short one this morning another quickie

OMG you should never leave the door open because any one or thing can walk right in. I was "spring cleaning" and opened all the windows and doors to air out the house and dust it out you know do carpets and such. and then I closed it all up only to realise there were geese every where in my house. And I couldn't get any of them to leave because they were all sitting on nests. So every time I walked close to them they would honk and hiss protecting their eggs. Soon all eggs hatched and I was able to open the door and get them all to march outside. man what a dream that was.

Miss Whitney Houston has passed

Too many of us—myself included—are guilty of making insensitive jokes about the demise of Whitney Houston, her frail frame, loss of one of pop's purest voices, and battle with drugs.

But none of us are laughing now.

On Saturday, Houston's publicist confirmed to the Associated Press that the award-winning "I Will Always Love You" singer died. She was 48. The timing of her death, the eve of the Grammys, the biggest music event of the year, makes the horrible news even more tragic. According to CNN, Houston was pronounced dead at 3:55 p.m. PT at the Beverly Hilton Hotel.

The Beverly Hilton is the venue for the music industry's most prestigious pre-Grammy party hosted by veteran executive Clive Davis, who discovered Houston.

In an industry flooded with novelty artists, who disappear after scoring one hit, Houston's longevity was unquestioned when she released her debut single, the ballad "You Give Good Love" in February 1985. The song's soothing opening ad-libs displayed her soulful roots while also celebrating her pop sensibilities.

Houston's sound was distinct, and clearly separated her from the funk-laden stylings of the era's other female R&B singers. Plus, she was a model who appeared in "Glamour" and "Cosmopolitan" magazines.

Houston's sound made sense when considering her pedigree. She was the perfect melding of the styles of her mother, gospel singer Cissy Houston; cousin, 1960s pop singer Dionne Warwick; and godmother, queen of soul Aretha Franklin.

Houston's self-titled debut album topped the charts and was certified diamond. Her career was impenetrable throughout the release of several follow up albums, 1987's "Whitney," 1990's "I'm Your Baby Tonight," and 1992's "The Bodyguard" soundtrack.

Houston's fans were concerned when she married R&B bad boy Bobby Brown in 1992, but they professed their happiness.

By the late 1990s, Houston's drug problems began to become tabloid fodder. In a 2002 interview with ABC's Diane Sawyer, Houston admitted to her struggles, but maintained that she was doing fine.

The public received its first real glimpse of Houston behind-the-scenes in 2004 when she appeared on Brown's reality series "Being Bobby Brown." The bad publicity move depicted Houston as profane, combative, and delusional, seemingly supporting the behavior of someone on drugs.

Among the saddest indications of Houston's fall was her 2009 comeback album, "I Look To You." While the album received positive reviews, her live performances signaled that the damage to her voice was beyond repair.

Happy Hubby

Mr Gab has an old laptop that was held by electric tape and looks like some one had took a screwdriver to the keyboard area ...in fact half the time the keyboard didn't work. So when we got taxes back I told him go get a new one. Well, first he looked online at Dell and then he looked on E-bay and then looked at Walmart online and Micro Center online. I have been asking when he was gonna go but he just kept putting it off. Then on Friday the breaks went out on my car. And wouldn't you know it it gets too cold to work on the breaks. So today He decides to go look at laptops. And low and behold he bought one. We got home and he's raving about the fact its so thin and runs so fast. He doesn't have to hold it just right to get it to work and he can now play games on facebook faster than before. when he clicks it actually goes right now....before he would click and take a nap before it would start moving. I was just plain laughing over the joy on his face at having a "good" laptop. Ah what money can buy.

ahhhh quickies arent they the greatest?

Yes quickies are a lot of fun they are fast and get the job done! course it all depends on who your talking too. Some will say a quickie can leave you wanting more...a quickie can only satisfy only a little and makes you wish for the real thing.......ah yes quickies are just that quickies. lol

Well as you may or may not have guessed I'm Back to writing my blog. Life can be so frustrating at times that you want to pull out all your hair. Now this can be hard for a cancer patience.

I have a friend whom I sorta knew in High School all those years ago. When I found him again it was to learn he had a very rare form of cancer. We connected and chatting getting caught up in each others life and then all of a sudden he wasn't there any more. I know not what happened. I of course freak out and run to check the obits and only find a listing for an old neighbor we had years ago. That got me thinking even more. Where is he? did he get worse? I wonder daily and I pray. Funny thing is some days I try to bargain with God and tell him make me sick and him because he still has so much life to live where as I see myself done at times. All I know is I miss him and worry.

HERE GOES

SO THIS WEEK HAS BEEN HECTIC TO SAY THE LEAST AND I'M NOT DONE YET. SO FIRST OFF LETS START OFF BY SAYING TOMORROW I HAVE MY LAST PT SESSION. IT'S MY LAST ONLY FOR TWO REASONS FIRST ONE WAS THAT'S ALL THE DOCTOR ORDERED. SECOND OFF BECAUSE THE PT THERAPIST DOESN'T THINK ITS HELPING BECAUSE OF THE PAIN IN MY BACK. EVEN THE PAIN PILLS AREN'T DOING THE JOB THE WAY THEY SHOULD.

SO LETS START OFF GOING BACKWARDS.....TUESDAY I HAD 2 APPOINTMENTS THE FIRST ONE WAS TO SEE A SPECIALIST FOR THE PAIN IN MY LEFT SHOULDER. AFTER HER ASSESSMENT SHE DECIDED TO GIVE ME A SHOT JUST LIKE THEY DID LAST YEAR FOR MY RIGHT SHOULDER. SHE SAID IT PROBABLY WONT WORK RIGHT AWAY AND MAY EVEN TAKE UP TO TWO WEEKS.

LAST NIGHT AROUND 8 PM I WAS SITTING IN MY RECLINER WITH HEATING PAD ON BACK BECAUSE I HAD DONE WAY TO MUCH WALKING WHEN ALL OF A SUDDEN I ACTUALLY FELT MY SHOULD DROP. RELEASE. IT WASN'T KNOTTED ANY MORE. SO I TRIED TO MOVE IT.....AT FIRST IT WAS STILL A LITTLE SORE AND STIFF BUT IT RAISED ALMOST ABOVE MY HEAD SOMETHING I COULDN'T EVEN COME CLOSE TO YESTERDAY MORNING. SO I WAS NICELY SURPRISED THAT IT WORKED SO QUICKLY.

FROM THERE I DROVE TO MY REGULAR DOCTOR TO TALK ABOUT WHAT THE PT DOCTOR TOLD HER AND SEE WHAT SHE THOUGHT WE CAN DO. SO WE RAN OVER THE WHOLE STORY ABOUT WHEN I HURT MY BACK THE FIRST TIME WAY BACK IN ABOUT 1995 TO WHEN IT WAS INJURED IN THE CAR ACCIDENT IN 2008. AFTER RUNNING OVER IT ALL SHE LOOKED IN MY RECORDS AND COULD ONLY FIND THE MRI ON MY BACK BACK IN 1995. THERE HAS BEEN ONE DONE SINCE THEN BUT I COULDN'T REMEMBER WHO AND OR WHERE. SO OF COURSE THAT'S THE FIRST THING SHE ORDERED AND THAT WHAT I HAD TO DO THIS MORNING. NOW ONCE SHE GETS THE MRI BACK SHE WILL SET UP A TIME FOR ME TO SEE A BACK SPECIALIST. THEN WE SHALL SEE WHAT MY NEXT STEP WILL BE.

SEE LAST WEEK WHEN I WAS AT PT SHE STARTED ME OUT WALKING DOWN THE HALL WITH THE CANE. OK NO PROBLEM EXCEPT IT WAS A VERY LONG HALL AND I DON'T WALK THAT FAR. I MADE IT THERE AND BACK THEN SHE SAYS LETS TRY A WALKER BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE WHEN THEY BEND FORWARDS THEY RELEASE SOME OF THEIR LOWER BACK PAIN. SO SHE FOUND ME A WALKER AND TOLD ME TO WALK THE SAME HALL AGAIN. WELL I GOT ABOUT 4 STEPS AND I COULD FEEL MY LEGS STARTING TO GIVE OUT I STARTED TO SINK LOWER AND LOWER WHEN I SAID I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT AND SHE RAN AND GRABBED A CHAIR AND SHOVED IT UNDER ME. I SAT THERE FOR A BIT THEN HAD TO MOVE TO THE TABLE AND LIE DOWN AND SHE GOT ME A HEATING PAD AND SAID WELL THAT ANSWERED THAT AND THEN TOLD ME SHE WAS GONNA CALL MY DOCTOR AND THAT WHY I'M HERE TODAY JUST ABOUT COMPLETELY WIPED OUT.

I'M TRYING HARD TO GET MYSELF TOGETHER BUT I'M SEEING MYSELF FALLING FAST.

another quickie

ok very small................Im having an MRI this morning at 7:30 when I get back home I'll tell you all about yesterday and today!

Just a quickie

Ah Ha caught you lol..........You looked at title and went right to the gutter!

Nope today just a few quick words about what I have to do. First off this morning I'm going to go get a shot in my left shoulder to try and loosen it up. Then I have to stop at my regular doctor's office and see her to set up to go see a spine specialist. Why you might ask well it seems that after several weeks of PT my PT doc has finally understood what Ive been telling her all along that I'm having difficulties in walking and standing. That after just a few mins I collapse! So now with that in mind she has written a report to my doctor saying that she doesn't believe she can help me with PT! Not that I didn't try god only knows how hard I tried hoping against hope that I would be able to do PT and some how all would be well.

I shall report back to you tomorrow

Point A

They always say the quickest way from point A to point B is a straight line. But in life that straight line always has some detours.

Our oldest grandson who is 16 finally got to be with his dad again 3 years ago only to learn he has a little sister. Well that was ok as he already had 3 brothers so a sister was a nice change.

Then his dad and his step mom and sister moved way up north. So now visiting was only during the summertime. The last year his dad was talking to him and said a few things that had him wondering what they meant. So he came to me and said Grandma if some one said this to you what would you think it meant? and then he gave me the clues. I said oh honey that's easy they are going to have a baby. At first he was a little upset. But then he got all excited maybe he would get another sister to even things out. So things went along then one day he came to me with the saddest face I ever saw. I asked whats wrong. First he said nothing. I said honey I know you better than that whats wrong. Then he told me......it's gonna be a boy. Oh I said another brother. Then I said well look at it this way you are getting another brother yes but he will look up to you like your sister does. That made him happy.

when his new little brother was born he was on top of the world. He kept txting them to find out all the details like whats his name. Then he would txt and say how about timothy......which is his name. Almost 3 weeks after the baby was born they said his name was Ethan Tyler. Oh I said ET phone home...........OMG my grandson flipped out on me. You are saying my baby brother is an alien that means you think I am!!! Oh man he takes stuff so literally. So I had to stop teasing him about his brothers initials being ET. We call our grandson by his initials which are TJ. but I guess we wont be using ET for his new brother,

UGH I HATE PACKING

Do you know that when you have lived in one place for many years that you tend to collect to much stuff? And do you know that when you are getting ready to move you have to go through said stuff and decide what you want to take with and what you want to get rid off that it can be an hair pulling event? the rule here is if you haven't used it in the last 5 years toss it. BUT BUT BUT I really really want to keep some of the stuff and the reason I haven't used it in the last 5 years is because I don't have room to display it. So we have a struggle each and every time I come across something that I bought for when we move into our new home and I put it away till we do move and yes some of the stuff I bought over 5 years ago. We've been talking of moving for the last 10 years or so. we did move in 1999 to South Dakota but it was a small house and we didn't take everything from this house. Our daughter was living here in this house so knew that we could leave some of the stuff here till we either built a house at the farm or built a new house in town. But before we could do anything dad got sick and we moved back here to take care of him. So now I gotta go through every thing here because this time when we move we are moving moving!!! So on I go to go through stuff pack this toss that. UGH I hate this! I've told Mr. Gab that we should just toss it all and start over. He says put it on Ebay. I've put some on Ebay but a lot of it didn't sell Sooooooo................what to do? Now hubby wants to have a garage sale BUT OMG HAVE YOU SEEN HIS GARAGE? it has more stuff than the house does. waaaaaaahhhh!!!!!!

Time again

Well its that time of year again when they ask the groundhog if he sees his shadow or not.....if the weather is any thing like here the answer will be NO he cant see his shadow. Because its so foggy here you cant see a foot in front of you. So lets see what that means: a shorter winter right? he sees it means 6 more weeks of winter and not means winter is almost over!

LOL grandsons and I were just talking about that yesterday how no matter what the groundhog sees or doesnt see we will have about 6 more weeks of winter. From Feb 2 you count out about 6 weeks which puts you about middle of March or about the 17th of March which is about end of winter so why do we ask a groundhog how much longer we will have winter when we all know it will be 6 more weeks of winter either way

I JUST DONT BELIEVE IT!

I am royally pissed off!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so I'm the mom of a son who is a drunk and an addict who can't keep a job and spends a lot of time in jail. I AM NOT PROUD OF HIS BEHAVIOR!!! I am however proud of my son in other ways.

He has given us our first granddaughter. Now this little girl is spoiled rotten and I truely mean rotten.

however as a grandma who loves her granddaughter I do spoil her my self on occasion.

BUT I LOVE HER

We had an incident a few years back where our granddaughter's mother took her away from us for 3 whole years. Then one day she called and asked if we would like to see her. OH MY GOD YES OF COURSE WE WOULD. So she said that granddaughter had a school play coming up if we wished to attend. So we went and watched our granddaughter preform and oh what a little performer she was. Then her mother says how would you like to have her stay over night?

YES OF COURSE WE WOULD. So she got to spend the night.....

Well little by little our granddaughter started to stay more and more. We learned she was on several medications to control her sleeping waking and staying awake so forth and so forth.

Then her mother had to move ...she moved farther south from us but she worked right her in our neighborhood ( well about 10 miles from our home in a near by city) so she said I would like to enroll her in school your other grandchildren go to and have her ride the bus to your house and have her stay till I'm off work. Ok that could work. and so we started. But then it got to be really late at night when she was picking her up so she started spending the nights with us and I was sending her to school every day. Then she would go home on Weds only to come back Thurs and then go home some time Friday. Her mom has Friday off. Well it was seeming like I had her more than her mother did. THEN THE BOMBS DROPPED!!!!!!!

1) Her mom was talking to me and she said "I'm so glad your here to help as my mom doesn't like her and doesn't want her at her house any more"

are you kidding? What grandma would not want their grandchild? THEN CAME THE KICKER..............granddaughter tells me herself her other grandma hates her and doesnt want her around any more.

How can you say that to her face? I will agree that she has times when she just exacerbates me to no end but I still love her and want her.

2) granddaughter was talking to me and she says" My mom told me I'm so bad that I'm gonna go to a home for bad kids because no one wants me not even my mom"

WHAT? WHAT? ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME??????

So I say to granddaughter well if your momma doesn't want you and she's gonna put you in a home tell her she can put her in my home because I WANT YOU! AND I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!

I can see why granddaughter is on so many different medications. I would be that screwed up my self if some one told me that no one wanted me including my own mother.

So I have her alot now and yes there are days when even I wish she would go away but I never tell her that to her face I just some times loose my cool and yell at her but I aways and I do mean always hug her tell her I love her and explain why I got upset. That what she has done is not acceptable here in our house and she needs to know that we won't put up with that sort of stuff and no matter what we love her. Its been a tough battle as she has done so many things that no one has bothered to tell her not to do and she is so spoiled that she whines when she doesnt get what she wants. BUT we put our foot down alot and tell her no alot and so far every thing is going ok...not perfect but what kid is?