A SAD NEW YEAR EVES

TODAY IS NEW YEARS EVE......A DAY OF LOOKING FORWARDS TO MAKING NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS AND STARTING OUT A BRAND NEW YEAR. YET OUR FAMILY IS MOURNING. WE HAVE LOST ANOTHER FAMILY MEMBER.
ONE OF MY MOM'S BROTHERS PASSED AWAY THIS MORNING. AT 8AM.
I NEVER GOT TO MEET THIS UNCLE AND NOW WILL NOT TILL I JOIN THEM ALL IN HEAVEN...UNLESS IM SENT IN THE OTHER DIRECTION LOL.

SO WITH A SAD AND HEAVY HEART I SAY

HAPPY NEW YEARS!

I WILL BE ALONE TONIGHT AS HUBBY WORKS AND GRANDSON WILL WORK TILL ABOUT 1AM.
BUT PLEASE IF YOUR OUT DRINKING PLEASE DON'T DRIVE. HAVE A GOOD TIME AND I HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL IN THE NEW YEAR.

It was a Wonderful Christmas

 Our Oldest son Jack Jr and  his daughter Kelley

 Oldest son daughter Kelley his girlfriend Nickki her boys Dillion and Dorian

 Our daughter Tonya and her 4 boys Tj Jeremy Logan on her lap and Aaron

 Our youngest son Timothy his 3 Tim jr Kaitelynn and James

 Tim and his kids and his girlfriend Shawn and her son Jamal

In this Picture its Mr Gab and me and our kids with their kids! I am on end of couch under Tj who is holding Kaitelynn! If you click on each picture you can enlarge them to see each one better.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

MERRY
                        CHRISTMAS


FROM 
             GAB AND MR GAB.
and a very HAPPY NEW YEARS!

HOPE YOU ALL HAVE THE VERY BEST DAY TOMORROW. AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Me day today

I went and got my nails done today.

And the grandkids got our tree done for this year. I think they both look good

A tribute

Twas' 11 days before Christmas, around 9:38, when 20 beautiful children stormed through Heaven's gate.

Their smiles were contagious, their laughter filled the air they could hardly believe all the beauty they saw there.

They were filled with such joy, they didn't know what to say. They remembered nothing of what had happened earlier that day.


"Where are we?" asked a little girl, as quiet as a mouse. "This is heaven," declared a small boy. "We're spending Christmas at God's house."

When what to their wondering eyes did appear, but Jesus, their savior, the children gathered near.

He looked at them and smiled, and they smiled just the same. Then He opened His arms and He called them by name.

And in that moment was joy, that only Heaven can bring those children all flew into the arms of their King.

And as they lingered in the warmth of His embrace, one small girl turned and looked at Jesus' face.

And as if He could read all the questions she had He gently whispered to her, "I'll take care of mom and dad."

Then He looked down on earth, the world far below He saw all of the hurt, the sorrow, and woe.

Then He closed His eyes and He outstretched His hand, "Let My power and presence re-enter this land!"

"May this country be delivered from the hands of fools" "I'm taking back my nation. I'm taking back my schools!"

Then He and the children stood up without a sound. "Come now my children, let me show you around."

Excitement filled the space, some skipped and some ran. All displaying enthusiasm that only a small child can.

And I heard Him proclaim as He walked out of sight, "In the midst of this darkness, I AM STILL THE LIGHT."


Author wishes to remain Anonymous

Terrible

What happened yesterday was just plain terrible. A gunman went into a school with a gun and killed innocent children and adults. Kindergartners  5 and 6 year old's. Kids who still believed in Santa. Who most hadn't even lost their first tooth yet.  And why? for what reason? No one knows and we may never know. The gunman killed himself as well.....and his mother. The whole thing is just stupid. How does this happen? So many unanswered questions.  I pray for the families. I hug my own grand children even more. I wonder should I send them to school? Could this happen here? We all take it for granted we send our children off to school thinking its one of the safest places for them to be....to learn...to socialise....to become adults......not to die. It made me so sick and scared. I cried. I cried not just because they were killed but because they wont know things like growing up getting married having their own children and grand children they wont become the president or develop the cure for cancer they just wont. they could have but now wont. God holds them in his hands. God has plans for them all I know. But I still think its cruel that God would take small children. I'm sure many parents are asking God why as well. But we will still pray, and hope and start anew. But the fear will be there stronger now. More and more parents will wonder should I send my child to school or teach them at home? People say he was sick...People say he was a Monster. They say he had a split personality and wasn't taking his medication. He was probably sick and was a monster for sure when he killed those children. Everyone has an opinion. No one knows for sure. Police hope to piece it together for some kind of answer but Im not sure they will find one. I hope they do for the peace of the parents who lost those children.

TODAY JUST PLAIN LUCKY

TODAY WE WERE JUST PLAIN LUCKY. MR GAB OUR GRANDSON TJ AND I HAD WENT OUT TO BREAKFAST. WE WERE ON OUR WAY HOME. IN FACT WE WERE JUST 4 BLOCKS FROM  HOME. THE LIGHT WAS GREEN MY WAY. AS WE APPROACHED THE  INTERSECTION WE NOTICED THAT A WHITE VAN WAS MOVING VERY FAST TOWARDS THE INTERSECTION WITH NO INTENT AT STOPPING. I HIT THE HORN AND THE BREAKS SLID OVER TO RIGHT LANE TO MISS BEING HIT. AS SHE CAME AROUND THE CORNER MR GAB NOTICED THAT SHE WASN'T EVEN LOOKING UP AT ALL SHE WAS LOOKING DOWN AT HER CELL PHONE. AND GOING WAY OVER THE SPEED LIMIT.
THEN WE NOTICED SHE WAS FROM ANOTHER COUNTRY AS SHE WAS WEARING THE BLACK SCARF(VEIL) THOSE WOMEN WEAR. AS SHE PASSED AND WE WERE SAFE WE COULDN'T BELIEVE IT. FIRST SHE WOULD HAVE HIT US IF WE HAD PROCEEDED THOUGH THE INTERSECTION SECOND SHE ALMOST HIT US COMING AROUND THE CORNER IN HER LEFT TURN AS SHE TOOK OUR LANE. WE WERE JUST DAMN LUCKY TODAY.
IT WOULD HAVE BEEN A VERY BAD ACCIDENT. ONE WE MIGHT NOT HAVE WALKED AWAY FROM.
I'M SO GLAD SOME ONE WAS WATCHING OVER US. THANK YOU!

Uh sorry?

LOL

Sorry about the break in blogging.......I got the cold my grandkids had and it took me down HARD! I'm not quit over it yet but better!
The cold isn't helping my arthritis either so my fingers are stiff and a little hard to manage. I was hoping by working (playing) on Face book that it would keep me nimble but no such luck. Then last night it was a very bad night Hip and back hurt Plus the arthritis so I ended up using a pain pill which I try not to use but some time just have to.  Daughter has been helping me at least once a week doing my pots and pans, i can usually load dishwasher but pots and pans I cant stand long enough for.
I used my pitance of a settlement and bought a rocker/recliner love seat. I probably should have got a mattress for our bed so Mr Gab and I can sleep together again.....or a scooter so I can get around better. But if you had seen  our old couch you'd understand why we got the loveseat .
I am so wishin we had gotten to Fl this year this cold weather sure isnt helping me. I swear the colder it gets outside the worse I get. Here in the house most days I wear shorts because I get to hot.....then I get to cold and put on jeans which then makes me to hot again. Back and forth till Im sick. UGH!
and then comes the grand sons...with their colds, flu and what nots and I'm sick again.
In fact Jeremy is home today with the Flu so I probably will get sick this weekend! never ending circle. Ah the joys of being a mom then grandma!

Was gonna

I was gonna post something here, something I was very strong opinionated about but then I realized every one has their own opinion about stuff so I cant be mad! And what difference does it make to you you believe that way you believe and they believe what they believe. Once someone "knows" what they think they know you can talk till your blue in the face and they probably wont change their minds. Too many have the wrong information and too many heard the wrong stuff and then formed their own opinion based on the wrong information. So with that said I wont say any thing. But I will say Im happy with my choice and I also heard about the bad stuff but stopped to hear the right stuff then formed my opinion from that!

Is there something wrong with me?

I just seen a commercial saying they have almost got it down to a science to exactly when you get pregnant. What ever happened to lets try to get pregnant and hope for the best? Not take this pill or this test or what ever just ok honey I want a baby its time can we try? is it in our budget (or maybe not) Why do you gotta take a test to see when to the minute you get pregnant? I like our way better you either did or didnt you took a chance a lottery if you will. And you didnt know for sure till you seen a doctor. We didnt have sticks to pee on either. We either started to feel ill or noticed that we missed a period or two and then made an appointment with the doctor and found out if we were or not and usually we were and then from their the doctor would "guess" at the due date. Just because you know the exact minute you become pregnant doesnt mean you know when this baby will be born because no matter what its still up to the baby and god! And then of course there are the ultra sounds to now tell you if your having a boy or girl. We didnt have those either we waited till we delivered.
Now let me throw something at you. Now a days people have the ultra sounds to see if its a girl or a boy right? and now a days lots of these kids are being put on drugs for problems they have adhd add whatever right? Is it possible these ultra sounds are causing this to these kids? Im just saying maybe some one should check into this! I mean I never had to put my kids on drugs they maybe should have been but they weren't!

Thanksgiving

HERE IS MY FAMILY SANS GRANDKIDS.....
MR. GAB WELDING THE REMOTE AND WATCHING FOOTBALL
ME I PUT ON SHORTS THE HOUSE WAS TOO HOT FOR ME
YOUNGEST SON TIMOTHY CANT GET HIM OUTTA THOSE DAMN HATS
DAUGHTER TONYA THIS IS HER HOME
OLDEST SON JACK ASKING ME A QUESTION RIGHT AS PICTURE IS SNAPPED.

OLDEST SONS DAUGHTER KELLEY WAS NOT WITH US. (long story)
DAUGHTER'S 4 BOYS TJ,AJ,JJ,LJ WERE ALL EITHER PLAYING ON VIDEO GAMES OR OUTSIDE RUNNING AROUND (was nice day for it)
YOUNGEST SON'S KIDS JAMAL,JR,JAMIE,KAITELYNN WERE ALSO EITHER OUTSIDE OR WATCHING OLDER KIDS PLAY VIDEO GAMES.
DAUGHTERS BOYFRIEND YOUNGEST SONS AND OLDEST SON'S GIRLFRIENDS WERE SNAPPING PICTURES.
DO WE LOOK BORED? THIS IS ACTUALLY BEFORE WE ATE!!!

Blank canvas

naw I'm not talking about painting a picture. Lol I cant even draw very well. I suppose I could do some abstract thing and call it a painting. But no I was more along the lines of nails. I took off the nail polish I was wearing. And my nails are blank or clean or plain. a Blank canvas if you will. As I sit looking at them wondering if I should paint them again myself, wait till tomorrow and go have them done or just leave them blank awhile my mind keeps jumping to blank canvas. My friend Jenn has done some amazing things on her nails and I wonder how hard it would be to try it myself?  Well first I'd have to go get a few things to even think of trying for one I need more polish remover. When I was removing the polish last night I realized I barely had any and was praying that I could make it last through all 10 nails! it did barely! So I'd want to get more before I tried anything spectacular because if it doesn't work I wanna make sure I can remove it and start over! Then there would be at least one other color, because you really need two to work with! Well I think so any ways. I've one color and one sparkles and yeah that would work but I was thinking more along the line of two colors with the sparkles. like blue on top and purple on bottom with sparkles all over! or maybe other way around purple on top blue on bottom and sparkles all over. or maybe one hand one way the other hand opposite. IDK thats why I have a blank canvas! well if and when I figure out what I wanna do if they come out ok I will post a picture here. other wise if you see nothing it either didnt work or I went and had them done!

happy turkey day

HAPPY 

             THANKSGIVING!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING:

 TO ALL MY BLOGGER FRIENDS:

TO ALL MY FAMILY:

TO ALL MY POGO FRIENDS:

TO ALL MY FACEBOOK FRIENDS

MAY YOU HAVE AN ENJOYABLE DAY, EAT OR NOT EAT TOO MUCH, HAVE FAMILY AND FRIENDS TO ENJOY THE DAY WITH AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU!

and if you find yourself alone today think of me and pretend I am there with you to share this day, because if I could I would be with each and every one of you today!

I thank God each and every day when I wake up that he has granted me another day! 

We have so very much to be thankful for

My Mother in law had major surgery last week. She had a tumor removed that was cancerous. And with her age is was one of those cross your fingers and pray a lot. In a way I was almost holding my breath through out the day. Then finally my sister in law posted on face book that surgery went well and mom came through it with flying colors. Mom is home now ...recovery will take a bit but it really looks good for her. I am so very happy. I don't want to loose my mother in law just yet. Yes that is selfish but I would like her here for a few more years. And I know she isn't really ready to go yet as she has much to still do. She has grand children, great grandchildren and I even think great great grandchildren! She is a very special lady and I can't thank her enough for giving birth to her son and keeping him, as she was unmarried at the time. So I am truly grateful! So this Thanksgiving I have so very much to be Thankful for .....myself my family my mother in law making it though a tough surgery and still having a home to live in.


THANKS!

I think it will be fact

I think Mr Gab and I have now decided that we will be getting a condo in Florida. Two reasons. 1) of course is our age....we are at the point we don't want to do yard work any more and just want to enjoy the out doors. and 2) I think Mr Gab is hurting more than he is letting on.
So I started to look at a few condos and I like some of them then came the shocker ....No not the price....The stairs....... just about every one had steep steps. I mean almost straight up and down step not angled like most steps. and one look at those and I said oh oh sorry nope not interested any more.
I revised my search to one level and found 5 available homes. That is not a lot. So then I tried a different area of Florida.......that one gave me 30 homes. ok better.....till I realized that some of these supposed one level homes were actually 2 levels and in a couple of cases were 3 and 4 levels but the ones for sale were on first level of building. Hummmm guess that counts right? LOL ah well I shall keep looking as we have 6 months to look.

regrets

There comes a time in everyone's life when you have regrets of one kind or another.
I have had a lot lately and wonder why I even choose some of the paths I went down only to be slapped in the face or be told they wish I hadn't.
Thanksgiving is coming up....................
I AM NOT DOING IT AT MY HOUSE!!!! every year I did it at my house I bought the groceries did most of the work preparing the meal and did most of the clean up while I had my son's girlfriend sit around and watch. So I put my foot down and said NOPE NOT HAPPENING. Thing is even though we told her we'd like some help cleaning up she would A) have to go home or B) just sit there like a bump on a log and stare at us like you can't possibly mean her. BIGGEST thing that bugged the hell out of us...she wouldn't even get her own kids a plate of food! We had to do it. One year we got every ones food but their's thinking she'd take the hint and every time one of her boys asked about when they were gonna get a plate she would say you gotta wait for grandma to get it for you. OMG
I told her go ahead help your self and get the kids a plate but noooooo not her she waited till either my daughter did it I did it or grandpa broke down and got it for them which really made him mad. You don't want to make Mr Gab mad!
I even went so far to set every thing up buffet style so that every one could help them selfs and I said sit where you want except grandma and grandpa's chairs and we didn't do a prayer or anything and she still waited around for some one else to feed her kids.
Now this year we said we were going to a restaurant to eat. But daughter didn't like that so we finally agreed to go to her house so I called youngest son and asked are you and the kids and her coming for thanks giving? He said IDK you gotta call and ask her. So I text her to ask her and got no answer. SO I called son again and I'm like look we gotta know who all is coming so we know how much to buy, so he talked to her then text me back and said she wont come because they have to come all the way down here every year. So I'm like ok. But I text her and said Id come there in a heart beat if she didn't have so many steps I CAN"T DO STEPS!
But there is another reason I will never ever go to her house for any meal. its a pig sty! worse than a pig sty. YOU CAN"T IMAGINE! she has stuff every where and the cat has peed and pooed on every thing at least a dozen times. She leaves her dishes till the mold is 6 inches thick and then trys to wash it. I told son toss it out.
and the few times we have eaten at her place we have gotten so sick that I just don't want to repeat it ever again. What surprises us that CP has been there and they know how bad her place is but they give her a warning make her clean it up and that's it till next time. when she knows she has almost one to many strikes against her she moves. I keep hoping some day they will catch up with her and take the kids away but so far no luck.  So this year it will be daughters house and she has already ordered a prepared meal that we will just heat up on Thanksgiving. And I will buy a few extras that are family tradition and that will be our meal. Oldest son said him and his girlfriend will be there which is ok as long as they are sober. Hopefully next year we will either be in S.D. Or FL. at Thanksgiving!

THANK YOU

TODAY IS VETERAN'S DAY

SO ALL I CAN SAY IS:



THANK YOU!!!!!!

THANK YOU FOR MY FREEDOM
THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART FOR THE RISK YOU TAKE EACH AND EVERY DAY.
THANK YOU FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO CAME HOME BUT HAD BEEN INJURED
THANK YOU WHO RETURNED HOME AND NOT INJURED BUT HAVE NIGHT MARES BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU SEEN AND DID FOR US.


THANK YOU. ITS NOT ENOUGH I KNOW BUT ITS ALL I CAN SAY. AND I CANT SAY IT ENOUGH.

He's 17!

TODAY IS GRANDSON T.J.'S 17TH BIRTHDAY



HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR T.J.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUU!
and many more!



OMG I can't hardly believe that TJ is 17! Old enough to drive .......YIKES!
if you could have seen him on his Big wheel when he was 3 lol hell on wheels was that one......just like a stunt man! and then when he was big enough for a bike......geeze the same hell on wheels! yup yup yup he was one fast moving little guy. I really hope he doesn't do that when he finally gets that lisence! aww I don't think he will as I do believe as he got older he got wiser.

Its fun to think back of the days when he was just a little guy. and its a shock to see him as big as he is now.
OH he got one of his wishes from back when he was 3.

He came to me one day and said "grandma I want to be as big as grandpa when I get older"
and I told him " Well you just got to wait and see"

Today he's at least 2 inches taller than grandpa but weighs about the same. So yep I guess that wish came true.

I told him way back when he was 3 that no matter how old he got I was always gonna call him baby so he better get used to it. I try to do it only here around the house but he's always gonna be baby to me and thats my right as a grandma to call him that!!!

So Baby Happy 17th Birthday. Love you lots.....xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
grandma!

Scared

We have lived here in Bloomington for 37 years and never ever had any real problems to worry about. Oh yeah there is a couple of times we worried about the sex offenders that were living down the street....Oh and there was the time we think now mind you we really didn't have much proof of the whore house 2 doors down. But you know when cars come and go at all hours and woman of all sizes shapes and ages were going in and out and wearing next to nothing PLUS the light on the porch was a red light well gee I think that spoke for itself.
BUT NOW:

Now we seem to have an arsonist running around our neighborhood. Yeah ok most of the houses are several blocks away but still way to close for comfort. So far it's been just garages that they are burning BUT who the hell knows if or when it will change to something more. several of the garages are attached to the houses but thankfully they got there and contained it to just the garages. But last week it was just up the street and this time the whole garage was a total loss. it was a super hot fire. Worse than all the others put together. Straight up the street from us they block off one end and the school bus couldnt go though and the smoke was so thick. this one really upset me alot and scared me.
I jump at every noise now and go check our garage often. and of course Im watching all over our neighborhood. I'm one of the few home during the day. I just keep praying they dont come our way. and that they catch them soon. Its been about 8 months now.

OH NO NO SAY IT AIN"T TRUE

So we are sitting here yesterday watching TV when there was a funny part that came on and we all were laughing.
I all of a sudden stopped got up looked around went to the kitchen looked around some more then came back into the living room and sat back in my chair with a totally funny look on my face.
My Gab looked at me like what is wrong but he didn't say anything and neither did I.

Then as we watched there was another funny part in the show and all of a sudden we all are laughing like crazy when I stopped jumped up and said "did you hear that"? Mr Gab says"hear what" I said dad and Uncle Harold! I can hear them laughing".
Mr Gab goes "yeah its you"! "WHAT"? I go "what do you mean its me"?
Dad and Uncle Harold are brothers Uncle Harold is the oldest and dad is the youngest. Both have very different laughs "BOTH HAVE PASSED ON"
So I sat there and thought about it and realised he was right I have been sounding like them. Some times I sound just like dad some times just like Uncle Harold!
BUT I DON"T WANNA SOUND LIKE THEM!
I want my girly laugh back.......my tinkly sounding laugh or my outrageous loud laugh. Not my dad or my uncle Harold's laugh.
I mean I loved them both but not enough to want to laugh like them. after all I'm a girl not a guy. So yeah I dont know why but lately I have their laugh and I dont really like it. I want my laugh back.

I love but Hate

I love the fact that we are turning back the clock an hour.....it means an extra hour of sleep in the morning.
Well maybe!
I also hate the fact that we turn back our clocks an hour......
our cats are on old time....so come 6:30 they want to be fed.....they don't care that we set the clocks back an hour because their clocks say its time to eat! And to bad if you wanna sleep that extra hour they want food. I turned away from them put my face to that wall covered my head with the blanket. Only to have them jump on my side which by the way hurts. Then of course my face is showing so they get into it up close and personal and meow at me. By this time all I want to do is fed them to get them to leave me alone.
Go back to bed you say Yeah that never happens!
its like once Im up Im up! Maybe later I can take a nap and yes some times I do.
Then comes the afternoon. Now I try to make them wait as long as possible but as soon as the youngest grand kids get home from school at 3:15 they want to be fed PERIOD! Pumpkin will start standing on my laptop Lucky will get on my chest. So I will ask one of the grands to feed them. Funny thing The time from 6:30 am to 3:15 pm is not that  long of period of time....but from 3:15 pm to 6:30 am is a really long time. But the cats can wait that length of time. IT MAKES NO SENSE! these cats are crazy!

So here we are at Sunday already school is tomorrow which means I gotta get up early again and I still didn't get to sleep in. I'm really thinking of putting the cats in kennels at night! Last time I did that they cried till I let them out!


I've been putting stuff on Craigslist to sell.....I've put stuff on E-Bay. You know that name up there on the right hand side. I used to have it to go right to my page on E-Bay but since all the changes are happening here I some how lost it and can't figure out how I did it LOL

I think I have decided to sell it all. Period! Only thing I'm thinking of keeping is a couple of clocks and 1 set of salt and pepper shakers the first set my mom ever gave me.
That should be enough.

Happy Birthday

A little birdy told me it's Btexpress's birthday today.....so in true Gab fashion(as always)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO  YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR TONY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOUUUUUUUUU!
and many more!

yes another year has passed us by and it is once again Tony's birthday. I'm sure Lori will give him the best present of all(she usually does) BUT the thing that is shadowing Tony's birthday this year is the aftermath of Sandy.
I can say and I will say that Tony and Lori didn't suffer much loss and they are ok (Thank you God) so they can celebrate Tony's birthday today together. Have a good one Tony! xoxoxox

Why dont we have stuff like this today?

This was sent to me by a friend of our who lives in South Dakota. He sends us stuff all the time and a lot of time it is very good. Today it was great!
I wish we had comedy like this today......instead of all the swearing that most comedians use in their acts. Sure that can be funny but ya know this is just as funny if not funnier! Enjoy

Hurtin'

Yep


I over did it!

And this morning I added to what I had already done yesterday by getting up peeling potatoes and eggs for potato salad. Then when I got the potato salad in the fridge to cool I started squash. By the time I sat back down again I could tell I was in trouble.
Not only did my back hurt but my upper legs hurt, my arms hurt and my hands hurt!
The arthritis kicked in and decided today was the day to add to my pain and so I had to deal with that as well.
I know better! BUT .......you know as I sat in their very comfy chair at the nail salon getting my nails done I didn't notice my back. Then when I got up and went to the Beauty shop next door to get my hair cut I didn't have to sit in a bad chair for long and the chair you sit in for getting cut (styled and everything else) wasn't that bad either. SO I didn't notice it much till I came home. Then sliding out of the Durango I knew I was gonna pay for it. I then had to make a quick trip to the dollar store to buy candles for grand kids pumpkins and while I was standing there in line my legs started shaking so badly I thought I was gonna land on my face before I got out of there.
and when I got home I sat in my recliner and put the heating pad on my back and didn't move till bed time. It was then as I was relaxing all the way into dream land that my body was letting me know I had over done it.
But I had promised Mr Gab that I would make this for lunch today as I had already put it off from yesterday so I had to make it.'
We are trying Dinner at lunch time to see if it helps Mr Gab sleep better before he works the over night shift.
Which was why I was making this stuff early in the morning.
After all was made/cooked and Mr Gab made the steaks we ate our meal (which by the way he was very nice and made me up a plate) I took the whole afternoon off and just rested! Tomorrow I will need to do the dishes but that will be tomorrow!

Here are the boys pumpkins:
Top pumpkin is Jeremys big pumpkin from grandma and grandpa.
next is Aaron's
Next is Logan's
next is Jeremy's little pumpkin he got with his Big's
and last is T.J's
TJ s did a what the heck with a hammer to the back of his pumpkin's head. and of course the guts spilling outta his mouth....a little on the dark side yes but we said he could do what ever he wanted and that's what he did!

whole new me

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! I THINK THIS WOULD BE ME AND MR GAB FOR SURE LOL!

SO IN HONOR OF HALLOWEEN I WENT AND HAD MY NAILS DONE. SINCE I TAKE THESE STUPID MEDS, MY NAILS ARE THIN AND BRITTLE AND EVERY TIME I GET THEM LONG, THEY BREAK AND THEY DON'T JUST BREAK THE SPLIT ALL THE WAY DOWN INTO SKIN TO POINT OF BLEEDING! BOTH HANDS ARE THE SAME PUMPKINS ON RING AND THUMBS!
SO MR GAB TOLD ME GO GET THEM DONE.
I ALSO WANTED TO GET MY HAIR CUT. BECAUSE AGAIN WITH THESE STUPID MEDS I TAKE I ALSO SWEAT ALOT AT NIGHT! SO I PREFER IT SHORT SO ITS NOT SO BAD WHEN I DO SWEAT! WHEN ITS LONGER I WAKE UP WITH MY PILLOW SOAKED AND I HAVE TO SWITCH PILLOWS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT SOME TIMES AND I'M RUNNING OUT OF PILLOWS! SO I GOT IT CUT!
I AM HAPPY BECAUSE I WAS ABLE TO SIT THEM THEM  BOTH IN ONE DAY. USUALLY I HAVE TO DO ONE OR THE OTHER ONE DAY THEN THE OTHER ANOTHER DAY. AND SOME TIMES I HAVE TO WAIT TWO OR THREE DAYS IN BETWEEN. THING IS I'M SURE I'M GONNA PAY FOR IT TONIGHT.
AND TONIGHT BEING HALLOWEEN WITH KIDS COMING TO THE DOOR MAY PRESENT A PROBLEM!
BUT RIGHT NOW I FEEL GOOD SO I THINKS THAT'S WHAT COUNTS!
HAVE A HAPPY AND SAFE HALLOWEEN EVERYONE.
AND I HOPE ALL MY EAST COAST FRIENDS ARE OK

ThankFully

You know my last post seemed to be such a downer. I didn't intend it to be I was just pointing out all the stuff that seemed to be going on that all seemed to be ....well not good.

I am truly thankful that I wake up every day. I still have lots of difficulties walking and I will for the rest of my life as that is what happens when your in a car accident.
Speaking of car accident this year marks the 4th year since it happened. And we are finally settling. We took 20,000. Now I only get 1/3 of that because of course the insurance company has to be paid back and of course the lawyer needs his cut. It sure doesn't seem fair that I only get 1/3 of that money when I'm the one who suffered.
Now here's the thing that really bothers me.....Here in MN there is a No Fault Law. You can sue up to 50,000. Now I tried to get more than the 20,000 but the adjuster said NO because I went to physical therapy to much for a "soft tissue injury". But does this adjuster realise that I was sent back to physical therapy because I was having trouble standing and walking? Because I was falling on my face for no reason? Because I cant stand at the stove and make a dinner? or load the dishwasher? or even do a small sink load of dishes? NOPE I guess he don't really care! and my lawyer didn't seem to really want to work for me either. We wanted to go to court and really push for that 50,000 but as the lawyer explained even if I won that 50,000 I would end up with less than what I'm getting with the guarantee 20,000. I say you should have worked harder for me and then maybe what I pay you would have been worth what I do or do not get.  So either way I got crapped on. Because not only do I NOT get enough money for future doctor appointments which by the way the doctors are now talking about surgery on my back because my feet are curling at the edges and I seem to have lost control so they think there is a nerve being pinched that affects my feet(Surprise.....NOT) So that will all come out of my pocket, I still have trouble walking....lets put it this way I REALLY CAN'T! my legs start to shake if I walk to much or basically to far and next thing I know Im on the ground. I rarely leave the house because I get embarassed when my legs give out and I'm on the floor. Although Mr Gab has been coaxing me out to dinner once a week. I use a scooter when I grocery shop but if I don't have someone else with me to get stuff I can't reach, pack the grocery bags and load the car then its useless. So I usually leave the shopping to Mr Gab. On the other hand since I can't even cook a meal, lots of times we don't eat or we have sandwiches or maybe order in. Either way this SUCKS BIG TIME!
I still am trying to figure out how the adjuster thinks a soft tissue injury is something you can say well Im sorry but you've  gone to physical therapy too much so I am not going to reimburse you? I thought you were suppose to go to physical therapy to get better?  Ah well I guess they just want to save money and they will screw the person who needs it the most..........funny thing.........I follow the law and get hurt.....she breaks the law and gets what? I wonder if she ever feels guilty for running that red light? I wonder if I went to her house and showed her what she did to me by running that red light if she would feel bad then? Of course even if I did it wont change a thing. Might make me feel better but it wont help me walk!

PRAYING

Well Oldest son finally got out of the hospital.........
Cousin Robin's husband in hospital.......he is fighting an infection!!!!!
OMG all this infection....I still have infection in my mouth where they pulled the tooth. I finished meds yesterday. I intended to call dentist today but we had some other crap going on here.

I AM PRAYING ALL MY BLOGGER FRIENDS ON THE EAST COAST ARE STAYING SAFE!


terrible storm going through......

what the heck is going on? this year it seems as if we are being bomb barded with stuff. I even heard this winter will be one of the worst in years!

still dealing with stupid people on our house.......looks like we are gonna loose it after all! :(


I really just give up.................I told Mr Gab that if he can work it to work only 3 or 4 days a week I would like him to do it.
I enjoy having him home. I know we still need money to live but if he can do something else so that hes home more I'd rather he do that. Still not sure what to do for medical or dental insurance but we gotta do something else because Holiday is getting to much for both of us. More Mr Gab than me but it filters down to me as well.

well I guess thats the updates for now.

I'm a little worried

Well they drained our oldest son's hand but it's still not doing good. He has an appointment with an infectious doctor. Our daughter went to see him tonight at the hospital and said hes on a floor that some doors are red tagged but his is not. NOT YET any ways.
She also said it doesn't look that great either. She is even worried.

Then  finally  Mr Gab called his mom today. One thing he learned was she is having her pace maker replaced next week. His sister kinda acted like it was a no big deal surgery. He told her any surgery is a big deal surgery but even more so for an older person. After all his mom is in her 80's.

I am so glad he got past all his anger and talked to her. If he hadn't he would have never forgiven himself.

I have been dealing with a stupid hole in my mouth that wont heal. And pain pills aren't helping it none. Do some scrapping......yeah ok maybe .....travel.......yes.....garage sales and open our own shop yeah I can do that. So ok we have a few ideas.

 here is Our son's Hand

But first I have to get past the goings on with our son and my mother-in- law.

Prayers are needed

This is Weds. By Tues I had so much bad news that I wanted to crawl into a hole and bury myself.
The first thing I learned on Monday was my mother-in-law has cancer and they are going to be doing surgery Nov 13th removing a large mass. I really love my mother in law and this broke my heart. I was hoping to be in Florida this year to spend more time with her but we just can't seem to move forwards.
Mr Gab, was so upset that he went around ranting and raving about things from the past that really no longer was important but because this was something (last thing) he expected he had to figure out a way to blame her. He's mad at himself of course but he didn't want to admit that.
On Tues. we learned our oldest son who had sliced his fingers down to the bone had infection in his hand and needed to be hospitalised.  So I was freaking out about that is he gonna lose his hand because he didn't follow directions? And of course he wasn't letting me in on anything so all I could do was wonder and read some of his post of Facebook.  I finally got him to tell me (hopefully truthfully) that his hand is ok they might have to open it and drain it (Ick) and right now they are forcing lots of antibiotic's in. Now I happen to know a little about infections because Mr Gab had an infection in his knee and I watched it move fast up his leg. So fast that they were scared (at the hospital no less) and they forced some antibiotic's fast into his system to try to head it off. After it was all safe they told us the antibiotic that they used usually is dripped slowly that that sized bag takes two hours to go in. They put 2 of those bags in in 30 mins. that's how scared they were.
So I really hope our son isn't hiding any thing from me. "sigh" Please pray for them both!

On to the good stuff.........

I finally got the link over there on the right side for Jenerally Speaking to work! So now you can click on it and go right to her Blog!!!!!

And I suggest that you go over and visit her while she is doing her Halloween "nail" contest. Oh heck even after the contest visit because this is one talented lady with doing nails! SO far she has blown me away. When I get my nails done I usually stick with a very light pink color something that doesn't stand out much.......BUT HER NAILS ARE SO GOOD SHE MAKES ME WANT TO HAVE MINE DONE JUST LIKE THAT TO SHOW THEM OFF! So go check out her page and see what she has come up with I will guarantee that you wont be disappointed.

Not a techie

I don't do smart things with my computer. I'm not a techie.....I do basic simple easy to follow things...that I usually mess up at some point or another. My daughter's girlfriend on the other hand can do all sorts of stuff with her web site and makes everything look so dang cool. SPEAKING OF COOL......
she also can do nails! And get this SHE HAS NEVER GONE TO SCHOOL FOR IT!
That's right never! and SHE ROCKS AT IT. Now Ive tried unsuccessfully to add her to my links on the side bar only to get just her name but not her web site.
I'm gonna type it here to see if it will come up for ya because you really really need to see the work she does. IT IS AMAZING.
and yeah she is my daughter's friend and yeah I like her alot but that is not why I like them I am really truly amazed at what she can put on nails. she makes her the nails look like art. You know the kind where you go to a gallery and walk around looking at pictures! Yeah they are that good. One she did was of candy corn. Now imagine this if you can you glance at these candy corn and think oh cool I'll have some then look again to realise they are some ones finger nails all painted up. That is how good they are. And she is doing a contest with some other gals and these other gals are good as well but ya know Jenn's nail's POP thats the only way I can explain it they stand out and are so cute! Any ways enough of that bragging hehe let me give you that link see i you can pop over and look for yourself and then while your there check out some of the other nails being shown off! All I can say is every one is very talented and I want mine done!

Well I cant seem to add so try www.JenerallySpeaking.com

MEA

SO MEA DIDN'T GO AS BAD AS I EXPECTED........THE FIRST DAY I HAD ONLY 3 BOYS ONE STILL HAD SCHOOL WHICH HE REALLY THOUGHT WAS TOTALLY UNFAIR. THEN DAY 2 OUR DAUGHTER WAS HOME FROM WORK SO SHE HAD 4 BOYS AND I HAD A TOTAL BREAK. THEN I HAD 3 OF THE 4 BOYS HERE TODAY AS BOY NUMBER 4 SLEPT IN AND IS ABLE TO STAY BY HIMSELF.
SO BEFORE DAY ONE GOT HERE LITTLE MAN ASKED FOR THE NEW MADAGASCAR MOVIE BUT..........HE DIDN'T WANT JUST THE MOVIE HE WANTED THE MOVIE AND THE WIG. SO GRANDMA AND GRANDPA WENT OFF TO WAL-MART AND FOUND THE MOVIE AND THE "RAINBOW" WIG. THE NEXT MORNING FIRST DAY THE BOYS HAD OFF I GOT UP CAME OUT TO THE LIVING ROOM WITH MOVIE BEHIND MY BACK AND SAID GUESS WHAT LOGAN? LOGAN GOES HUH......I WHIPPED OUT THE MOVIE FROM BEHIND MY BACK AND THE SMILE THAT CAME ACROSS HIS FACE OMG!!!!!!
THEN HE RACED INTO MY ARMS AND GAVE ME THE BIGGEST HUG. AND SAID CAN WE WATCH IT NOW?
WELL, WE HAD TO GIVE GRANDPA A LITTLE TIME TO WATCH SOME NEWS THEN GRANDPA SAID OK LETS WATCH THE MOVIE.
ALMOST AS SOON AS IT FINISHED, LITTLE MAN WAS ASKING TO WATCH IT AGAIN. SO WE STARTED IT ALL OVER AGAIN! SCORE!
NOW NEXT DAY WHILE BOYS WERE WITH THEIR MOM OUR MAIL CAME AND HEY REMEMBER THAT MOVIE LITTLE MAN ASKED FOR BEFORE? THE LORAX? YEAH ITS HERE NOW.
SO GRANDMA'S THINKING THAT TAKES CARE OF FRIDAY'S ENTERTAINMENT.
SO TODAY GETS HERE BOYS ARE HERE AND I SAY HEY LOGAN LOOK WHAT CAME IN THE MAIL YESTERDAY. AS I HOLD UP THE NEW MOVIE. HE SAYS COOL CAN WE WATCH IT.
WELL NOW WAIT A SECOND HERE HE DOESNT HAVE THE SAME BIG SMILE ON HIS FACE NOR AM I GETTING A HUG FOR A MOVIE HE ASKED FOR.
AH WELL OK LETS WATCH IT.
SO WE PUT IN THE MOVIE AND WATCH IT. IT GOT OVER LITTLE MAN GOT UP AND WENT INTO THE OTHER ROOM ASKED HIS BROTHER TO MAKE HIM LUNCH AND THAT WAS ABOUT IT!
??????????
REALLY?
YOU DIDN'T LIKE THAT ONE?
ARE YA SURE?
YOU ASKED FOR THAT ONE?
WE SPENT MONEY AND BOUGHT IT FOR YA?
WANNA WATCH IT AGAIN?
NO WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO? TAKE A NAP? SURE OK! LOL
I GUESS THE WIG HAD A LITTLE BIT TO DO WITH THE MADAGASCAR MOVIE AND WELL THE FACT THAT HE LOVES THE" MOVE IT" SONG AND WELL LETS FACE IT THE MADAGASCAR SERIES IS REALLY CUTE AND EASY TO FOLLOW ALONG WITH
WHERE AS THE LORAX IS ABOUT SAVING A TREE. WHICH AT THIS POINT IS LOST ON JUST ABOUT ALL KIDS I THINK.
YEAH SO MADAGASCAR WAS A HUGH HIT HERE AND THE LORAX? WELL WE WILL WATCH IT AGAIN BUT YEAH NO IT JUST DIDN'T MAKE LITTLE MAN'S CUT!

OCT 16th- HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYS

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR JACK JR 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOUUUUUUUU!
and many more.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR TIMOTHY 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUU!
and many more



And so today  is the day. Oct 16th! 
On this day in 1974 our oldest son Jack Jr was born. Our first born baby. Our son.
Ah what a day.
It started out bad and got worse.
The night before he was born I had made gizzards. Now I don't like gizzards But Mr Gab does. So I made them for him. As we sat there he says try just one for me please. SO I tried one. I burped that thing up all night it made me sick. The next morning I was still not feeling well and I was now having bad pains. We decided to go into the hospital. They tell me I'm in labor. So ok. Thats great a little earlier than the due date they had given me but I'm not complaining.
They were hooking me up checking me and then the nurse says OMG. She rushes out of the room and soon her and the doctor come back in. The doctor prods and pokes and listens and then says "ok young lady we are going do an ultra sound to see just how this baby is sitting." I go ok sure. 
So they do the Ultra sound then come back and say ok well there is good news and bad news.
So now Im freaking bad news? Bad news no one wants to hear bad news when they are giving birth to their first born. 
" The good news is the baby is trying to get out just above your left leg so we are going have to pull the baby back into place to be born." WHEW not that I really knew what the hell they were talking about but ok.
"Now the bad news" I wait " we also did the altra sound because we kept hearing what we thought was two heart beats" TWO OMG Now I'm freaking two, ......two babies? UGH I've only got stuff for one.
"But after doing the ultra sound we seen just one baby and he has hic cups. So its just one baby"
Oh Oh ok one ok thats better I didnt have a name for two babies. 
I mean I wasnt even thinking straight. Finally after all day labor I finally have a baby.
Now I dont remember much. But Mr Gab says I was swearing a blue streak. And some of the nuns left the room because I was so bad.
I don't even remember it. Then comes the recovery room. Im in and out. I lost a lot of blood. They have to give me a blood transfusion. I over hear two nurses talking. One says She wanted that baby boy so badly. the other goes Yeah I dont know how they are going to explain it to her that it has died.
I'm hearing this and thinking they are talking about me. Now I freak I wanna see my baby. They dont want to bring me my baby. I say bring me my god damn baby NOW.
So they got and get him and show me the numbers match show me that he has all his little boy parts. ok so Im calm and can go back to sleep. 
I later learned a lady was in a car accident and she had lost her baby that they had tried for years to get pregnant. I felt really bad for her. But I also knew those nurses should never been talking in front of me. 
My next 3 days at the hospital I had an Iv in one arm and a blood transfusion in the other. I couldnt even hold my baby. In fact I had to give them permission to bottle feed my baby because I had so much drugs in my system I couldnt breast feed. Ah the day I went home was the best day of all. I finally got to hold my baby and I wouldnt put him down for NOTHING!


Oct 16th 1978
I am now expecting our 3rd baby. we have one son and one daughter. I thought our family was done but well I guess we were not.
We started out the day I baked our Oldest son his birthday cake.....he is 4 today. It is sitting on the stove cooling before I frost it. Mr Gab comes home from work and we go shopping. This is the year that a lot of the little kids are picking out their own birthday presents. So we are gonna let Jj pick out his own present. Baby Tonya is 18 months old and Im due in a week. 
We are in the store and Jj is looking over all the toys. Im not feeling to good. In fact Im having pains in my back. All of a sudden my water breaks and I scream OMG we gotta go NOW.
So we yell at Jj to just grab something we gotta go now. We dropped the kids at our babysitters and go to the hospital. When we get there they look at my record and see two births two blood transfusions so now they want to try blood plasma before having the baby. I say ok lets try it. After all I would like to be able to hold one of my kids right after they are born. So they do the Blood plasma first.
I pray this baby goes past midnight so that he or she is not born on the same day as our oldest son. Please I ask god please.
My prayers were not answered. Our youngest son Timothy was born the same day as his older brother just 4 years later.
Well ok now how many big brothers can say they got a baby brother for a present?
But this birth didn't go as easy as they expected either. Oh yes I did get to hold this baby right after he was born. I had the IV but this time I did not have a blood transfusion in my other arm.
On the night before I was to go home. I went to the bathroom and almost fell. In fact I didnt make it back to the bed. They came in checked me and ran out. Soon 5 doctors were in my room and they were all checking me.  My legs were hot and swollen. They sent me for test. I had massive blood clots in both my legs but my right was worse than my left. Now I cant get out of bed PERIOD. and going home was a NO WAY IN HELL.  I ended up being in the hospital for 15 days total. and then when they sent me home they really didnt want to. Timothy ended up being bottle feed because mom couldnt do what she was suppose to do. He was the oldest baby in the nursery by the time we left. and he was spoiled by the nurses. By the time we got home I had to hire some one to help me and holding baby Timothy was on a timed bases. 

Happy Birthday boys. You made each of your birth days intersting for me. And all through the years we've had many more ups and downs but I guess thats what make life life right? LOL
I love you both. 

Do we need new cars? yes yes we do!

These are our cars.......One picture is of both cars together can you see the rust? Then I took one of where it has finally made it through the back door (yes that is a hole all the way through) where the grandkids get in and every now and again they like to stick their fingers in the hole. The one of the back of the pickup THE BIG HOLE is just an indication of how bad it is and how we really dont dare put anything in the back. The grandkids love to climb in and we are forever yelling NO! LOL we really want newer cars after all these are from the 1900's!  I love saying that now it makes it sound like they are reallllllly old! Mr Gab tells me I gotta say they are from the 1990's . But that doesnt sound old at all.

I TOTALLY LOVE MY NEW PRODUCT.

I AGREED TO DO A PRODUCT TEST. NOW MIND YOU I USUALLY DON'T DO THIS SIMPLY BECAUSE OF MY ALLERGIES.
BUT MY DAUGHTER'S FRIEND JENNY WAS DOING THIS AND SHE SUGGESTED I TRY IT AS WELL.
SHE WAS TELLING ME THAT THE PRODUCTS WERE ALL NATURAL.

SO OK. I THOUGHT I WOULD SIGN UP AND PROBABLY NOT BE PICKED.
WELL TO MY SURPRISE I WAS CHOSEN TO DO A TEST PRODUCT.
SO IT CAME IN THE MAIL THE OTHER DAY AND LOW AND BEHOLD I WAS IN LOVE FROM THE MINUTE I OPENED THE PACKAGE.

IT SMELLED WONDERFUL.......I TOOK A BIG SNIFF..........AND WAITED.........................NOTHING NO SNEEZING NO EYES WATERING AND NO NOSE PLUGGING UP SO THAT I CAN'T BREATH! OK 1 THING DOWN MANY TO GO.

SO I PICKED A VERY SMALL SPOT ON MY LEG BY MY KNEE AND I SPREAD A LITTLE ON MY SKIN. AND I WAITED...............................NOTHING AGAIN...............NO RED SPOTS NO ITCHING AND NO RASH.

OK SO NOW I'M LIKE YAY I CAN USE THIS STUFF AND ITS NOT BOTHERING ME ................SO I PICKED A BIGGER SPOT AND PUT ALOT ON....................................NOTHING...............AND MY SKIN FELT GREAT ITS NOT GREASY ITS NOT OILY ITS WONDERFUL.

SO NOW I KNOW I CAN USE THIS PRODUCT. AND I DONT HAVE ANY PROBLEMS LIKE I DO WITH MOST EVERY THING I BUY IN A STORE.
LET ME TELL YOU THAT IS SUCH A RELIEF. BECAUSE I HAVE TO BE VERY CAREFUL BUYING STUFF IN THE STORES. I NEVER HAD THIS PROBLEM BEFORE BUT AS I GOT OLDER AND THE MORE MEDS I TAKE THE MORE I SEEM TO HAVE PROBLEMS WITH SMELLS AND FRAGRANCES. ONE OF MY BIGGEST PROBLEMS HAS BEEN WITH SHAMPOOS NOTHING LIKE BUYING SOMETHING THEN ITCHING SO BADLY THAT YOUR HEAD BLEEDS THEN YOU GO TO GET YOUR HAIR CUT AND THEY SEE ALL THESE SCABS AND WONDER WHAT THE HELL............IM FOREVER CHANGING SHAMPOOS I USE ONE FOR MAYBE A MONTH THEN GOTTA CHANGE AGAIN...SOME TIMES I DONT EVEN GET TO USE IT THAT LONG. YOU WILL SEE ME A STORE SMELLING STUFF BEFORE BUYING AND LOTS OF TIMES IM PUTTING A SMALL AMOUNT OF IT ON MY SKIN TO SEE IF I HAVE ANY KIND OF REACTION. THANK GOD FOR SAMPLES BUT SOMETIMES EVEN THOSE I HAVE TO OPEN TO SMELL AND TRY I WILL HAVE TO GET AN EMPLOYEE ALOT OF TIMES TO HELP ME BECAUSE MOST ARE SEALED AND MOST TIMES I CANT BUY IT AFTER I TRY IT. SO THIS MAKES ME HAPPY. GO CHECK THEM OUT:

http://delvauxsoaps.com/

PUPPIES

Awwww I love puppies!!!!

and if I could I would buy every puppy I see.........but you know I would probably go broke and then poor puppies would have to go away.

But I do love puppies and I do want one! and here is the one I want....Her name is Diamond! and just like a Diamond she is precious.

I go to : http://www.scottspuppypalace.com/ alot to look at puppies. I also enter their contest to win things.

I went today and found Tux....OMG he is soooooooo cute!
they also have other puppies, not just Yorkies......but I'm looking for a Yorkie as my next dog.

But now my biggest problem is if I could today which one would I choose? Diamond or Tux? Well let me tell you if I had the money right now today I would take them both! After all Diamond would need a play mate and who better to fill that position than Tux?
If you are looking for a little friend to join your household take a look at: http://www.scottspuppypalace.com/
because I know you'll fall in love just like I did......Oh and let them know I sent ya will ya!? Thanks

HAPPY OH SO HAPPYn

I had a different post for today but lets do this one!!! You will understand in a minute:



I THINK- YES I THINK...OH NO THATS NOT GOOD I SHOULD NEVER THINK..............



BUT


I THINK



THIS


IS


GOOD!!!!!!

YES...IT IS GOOD!!!!!!! Well it started yesterday when mail came......but we forgot the mail lol cause we went to bed around 5pm and basically slept through the night...now that's what I call tired. So today I'm paying bills and these are ones that I actually have to write out a check and mail off to the people. Oldest grandson T.J. went to put bills in mail box and seen there was mail in there so gave it to me. After I did a quick run through I passed some over to Mr Gab. He open one tossed it and made a comment about here we go again.
then he opens second one from same company and goes "OH MY GOD" and then "OH MY GOD" and then "OH MY GOD" and so I'm like "what" then I'm like "WHAT WILL YA TELL ME?" So then he starts in........
it seems that the company that now owns our mortgage has reviewed our paperwork seen how little we actually make and has now adjusted a payment we can possibly make. So instead of us loosing our home we can now save it! Our daughter will be helping us.

BUMMED

I'm Bummed......One of Jack's classmates passed away. he was only 61. One of my classmates is terribly sick and has no hope of recovery. He's only 57.  It makes me realise our time is coming to an end.
My grandson wanted to go to a friends the other night I wanted him to stay home as I was feeling dizzy. Just in case when I got up in middle of night if I fell he would be here. In the end here's what I told him.....go ahead and go I would stay in bed so that way I wouldnt fall.
Then he said but what if........And Im like "Look even if your home in your bedroom sleeping and I'm in my bedroom sleeping and I die there is nothing your gonna be able to do so you might as well go to your friends"
After he cried some more he finally went to his friends house.
Thing is that is so true......he can be right in same room with me but if hes sleeping and I die he wont be able to do anything about it. If its my time its my time. Thing is I havent done some of the things I want to yet.

On a much happier note two of my blogger friends got engaged! Congrats to Tony and Lori! May you have many happy years together!

OMG

Meet my grandson Tj. He is 16 until Nov of this year. I am 5'4" tall.......he is BIG lol (about 6'5")! 

This is the grandson we have had since he was a baby.......this is the grandson who even after he learned to walk he would stand in front of me and say "up gamma up" all the while opening and closing his hands to get me to pick him up. And I would say "you can walk baby your big enough now" and he would stand there and say "up gamma up" till gamma picked him up! I sure can't pick him up but he can pick me up.

Olympics

Yay the Olympics have started. Boo I wont be doing a lot of watching. Mitt Romney went over to England and pretty much made of fool of himself and in a sense made Americans look foolish as well. I'm sure those folks over there are laughing under their breaths(or not maybe right out loud) thinking if he get elected we are in trouble. Well they are probably right. At this point I am not sure if any one is the best one to be our president. Some times I wish there was a way for some of our first Presidents to come back from the grave and help us straighten out our problems. It may not be able to be fixed even then but it would be worth a try. Oh I gotta get down off the soap box because I dont have a clue anymore of whats what.
I was talking about Tv shows on another bloggers blog. I hate reality shows and how I think most of them are fake. I could do a better job than some of those people. I watched ONE episode of Bridezilla. And that was enough for me. Whine cry bitch OMG what I could teach those little bitches. I never had a wedding I never had a wedding dress and I never had a wedding cake. I was however married in a church by a minister. with my mom my best girlfriend while my hubby had his cousin at his side. My dad wouldnt even take the time off from work. My youngest sister however did get the big wedding ! So dont talk to me about unfair any thing.AND I DID NOT HAVE A HUGH ASS DIAMOND RING! I had a plain gold band. I did not get a diamond ring till we had been married about 30 years. So I do not like those reality tv shows because they dont even look real.

Sigh....yes Im done complaining

WHEN DO WE START?

We have talked and talked of starting the next part of our journey in life. Lets face it Mr Gab and I aren't getting any younger. And this week we learned that one of his fellow classmates passed away. Which to me gave me more reason to push this next journey faster. OH OH OH but daughter still wants us to help her. BUT DAMMIT all we have helped her probably more than we should have. LOL the things Ive been telling Mr Gab we should do. Oh if only we had the money to just do it. Remember that saying JUST DO IT?
Here is one of the just do it we would do should we have no issues with moneyhttp://www.mhsrv.com/2010-tiffin-allegro-bus-bath-12-w4-slides-used-rv-for-sale-used-diesel-pusher-tx-i595450.
I would get this one because it has a bath and 1/2 in it. For those times when Mr Gab has to go and so do I. Then I do not have to yell "get out I gotta go"!
One of the other things I was thinking was getting one of these:http://cgi.ebay.com/ebaymotors/Honda-Gold-Wing-1989-HONDA-goldwing-TRIKE-TRAILER-COMBO-very-very-nice-/150861254181?pt=US_motorcycles&hash=item2320080e25#ht_1791wt_1099.

Yeah if my back could handle it!!!!!

Then I was thinking of doing this:http://www.ebay.com/itm/Concession-Trailer-EXCELLENT-CONDITION-/280924514012?pt=LH_DefaultDomain_0&hash=item416867e6dc

Yeah go to fairs and flea markets and sell some of our junk and then sell them some thing to drink/eat all at the same time.

Now this one could be interesting to do. Find one of these concession stands and go to flea markets and sell all the junk we've collected over the 38 yrs weve been married then sell them some Ice cold drinks and maybe home made sloppy joes! Yeah now that is something I could do. And make money doing it. My recipe for Sloppy joes could make about 20 to 30 and sell them at oh what 2.50  a piece? or more? yeah I could make money. and when you have them in a slow cooker to keep warm well there ya go you dont need much room and if you made some ahead and freeze it then bring it with and that thaws while you sell first batch you have more to just keep going........Yeah  yeah I think that is something I could do. BUT the thing is to get started. I gotta push Mr Gab a little harder and Oh figure out where the money is gonna come from to start this little adventure.

TURN BACK THE CLOCK PLEASE

Can we turn back the clock please? Say to oh about 1950's. Oh but we dont have to go back in age ourselves, and we can still have our kids and grandkids.

Why you say.....well the 1950's seem to be the safest times. There didnt seem to be as much bad stuff back in the 50's as now. I mean think about it......as a kid I ran around out side without my mom worring that I would be snatched. We didn't lock our doors and most of our neighbors walked right in with out so much as knocking first. They opened the door Yoo Hoo 'd asked if any one was home and walked in.
Now Kids are afraid to go to Post Offices, Malls, Airports, School, Grocery Stores and Now the Movies. Soon they will be afraid to go to the Doctors, Dentists, Church(which in some cases they already are afraid ...to be molestered)Hospitals and well you get the picture. One girl was at her girlfriends house when the girlfriends dad snatched them both. When did it become some place to be afraid of? I fear for my grandchildren. I don't have a clue if this can be changed in time. Someone turn back the clock please...show the children of today that the world doesnt have to be a scary place.

I blame the video games.

Well I just dont know

I've tried to understand.
I know the answer really.
 BUT DAMMIT when you tell them and tell them and they still don't listen you just want to throttle them!!!!!
I know they have to learn the lessons of life them selves But why in the hell when they ask you what to do and you tell them they do the opposite, then come crying to you when it went the way you knew it would? Kids!!!! I would give them away but they are full grown adults even though they don't always act it!

Going back

Mr Gab is trying to plan another trip back to South Dakota to tear more of our house down. If we get one more section down before winter sets in well I guess it will make us feel better although I dont know why it would. This whole thing sure has me down in the dumps. I wish we could turn the clock back I wish we did things different. I wish I wish I wish............
Do wishes ever come true?
So if we do sell say the farm to rebuild the house at least what I want for a house is agreeable to Mr Gab. I am not changing much from the old house to the new rebuilt house.I want the back porch and kitchen and dining room to be the same. BUT instead of the office and bathroom and little bedroom well that's where the change comes in. I want to take where the little bedroom is and make that all into master closet and master bath room. Where the bathroom is I want to just have a half bath. and where the office is well that's where the guest bedroom will be. Then I want to add a upstairs area with a bath and bedroom. I also want a full basement under the house instead of a crawl space. and I WANT THE LAUNDRY ROOM TO BE EITHER IN THE KITCHEN OR BACK PORCH AND I WANT THE BACK PORCH HEATED!!!!
When our back porch was our laundry room before we had to have a heater on the floor out there to warm it up in the winter time. mainly so the Hot water heater didn't freeze. and it worked pretty well but there were some winters that even with that heater and me wearing boots out there to wash clothes it got cold lol.
ok ok I didn't wear boots it was slippers but hey you get the picture right? oh the good old days!
when they took off the screen door I had visions of kittens jumping through the top half where there was no screen (whole nother story) to get into the porch and cry for me to feed them. One of those kittens was Pumpkin. Another vision (which wasn't really a good one) was up at my father in laws house, he had the same kind of door and it slammed in the same manner making the same kinda "Bang" (which made me happy and I want Mr Gab to put that screen door back on the new house to which he answered no way in hell) Of us going in and out of his front porch and the screen door slamming kittens following us into the house (if they could get all the way into the house with out dad chasing them back out) Then came the tragedy......I went inside a kitten followed me and the door slammed before he got in and its back got broken. Oh the cries of that tiny kitten it will haunt me forever. Dad told Mr Gab's brother to take it out back and finish it off. I ran out into our tent trailer and fell onto the bed crying. That kitten was following me because I had been petting it and now its life was over. I was so upset. Our dog Lady crawled up onto the bed with me and laid there with me trying to cheer me up. She knew I was hurting. Mr Gab came back out to talk to me and said things happened it was just the way of life and it could have been any one who that kitten had followed. It didn't help much even though I knew it was true. But I was hoping to take that kitten home with us. I did "get" over it as best as you can in that situation and I did find a kitten to take home with us that weekend. But still it was a vision I had that day as they took off that screen door. Jeremy kept walking over to me saying why why would you tear down something where you have so many memories? I would look at him and say we don't have much of a choice now do we? So with all that in mind Mr Gab will probably be going with just the two older grandsons back to work more on the house. I just don't think I can take watching more of our memories flash through my head.

I want my old blog back

I understand it better. I don't like this new blog. I don't like a lot of change in my life and there is already enough of that going on. The more I look at the pictures of our house we are tearing down the more I wonder how did it get that bad? Well gee lets see it all started on the day before Valentines day in 2004 when I got the call my dad had a heart attack. I told my sister C that I would get a hold of Mr Gab who at that time was driving truck over the road. I then had to find some one to watch the grandsons who were still in school.Next day Valentines day I drove like a mad woman back to Minnesota to be with my family and my dad. The doctors said they put a stint in his heart but he really needed more than that one but he was too weak. The said if he lasted the next three weeks we would be lucky. So I stayed to care for dad. He wanted to die in his own home like mom did. But the days kept going and then the months. several times Mr Gab went home to check the house. He found a leak, he bought shingles and redid it. Insurance covered once second time we tried to make a claim after a bad storm they claimed we didn't repair it the first time. We had to take all receipts in to  prove it. They paid but dropped us. No one else would take us on as living there we had to insure it as an empty house not a home with our belonging in it. Then we couldn't get back for a couple years.By the time Mr Gab got back there was a bad leak. So he moved as much of our stuff out into the living room hopefully to save it. Then it was another 2 yrs before we got out there again. And you seen the results. Worst part is the money we thought we were getting we didn't so we have nothing for repairs. It has come down to we will probably have to see the farm just to rebuild the house. I hate that idea but I can't see any other way unless we some how win the lottery....but you gotta have money to buy the tickets for that. As it stands right now our kids have been paying some of our bills. And I'm to the point that as much I use the Internet as its my life line with this back injury I'm about ready to give it up. They have enough of their own bills to pay and I really don't need the Internet. Besides maybe I could have them buy the lottery tickets with the money they use to pay for the Internet! I've been getting around some so I could go to the library and get on for awhile.....except Mr Gab is pretty attached not sure how he would like it if I say I don't need it any more since I was the one who kept insisting to keep it

Very Unsettled

So we have been back just one week and both of us feel very unsettled. We both actually want to be back in South Dakota. Thing is we really have no place to live except the Camper. which is ok to a point but depending on how many people are in it can become very crowed fast! Now if it was Mr Gab and myself and the 2 cats we might be ok. But so far we have taken all 4 boys with us left the cats home and its been way to crowed. Mr Gab has been scrolling Craigslist looking for a trailer to put all our stuff into it and go. So far they are out of our league as far as money wise goes. So Im not sure what we plan on doing but I really want to go fishing.

The destruction of the house in SD

 This is the fan in the Dinning room. the blades are bent downwards. I first seen it I thought there had been a fire..but it is just water damage. You stand under the fan and can see straight up through the roof to the sky!

This end is the office and back porch which held the washer/dryer and water heater. So far the door and 1 window have been taken out....They are working in 105 degree heat. many breaks and lots of water.

Hubby is removing siding....it almost looks like he is holding the house up...or the house is holding him up. grandson Jeremy is sitting back watching.

All siding gone and both windows out.

Grandson Tj walking through the rubble most of back porch gone. the opening is the door to kitchen. We left that for now but kitchen will be torn down as well.

Back porch all gone!

when we get done 3/4th of our house will be torn down. only part left will be living room and big bedroom and front porch. once gone then we either have to find buyer who wants it to rebuild or we rebuild it. OH and guess what insurance didnt cover it because we had made a claim on roof before and they said we didnt repair roof right so they wont cover it! so we will get this all done some how our selfs.