It's been awhile and things have changed

So it has been awhile since I've been here. And some things have changed and boy do we feel like fools.
I don't like to be negative about certain things but lets start at beginning.
I think my biggest mistake was posting our plans on Face Book.
Yes I think that's where it all may have started.
Back in June we were counting the days till hubby retired and we moved from MN to SD then on to FL. We were looking forwards to retiring in the sun. And yes I posted this on Face Book. Well about the time we were going to leave we got a frantic call from our granddaughter's mother saying she needed a twin size bed frame and dresser for her daughter. Ok well we didn't have a twin size frame but we did have a queen one plus mattress and box spring so we asked if she wanted that. She said yes please. And we had extra dressers after all we are moving and so getting rid of one dresser won't hurt us. So we were looking for someone to help us load it and no one came to help so hubby and I did it ourselves! Big mistake. But we got it loaded took it out there to their current place they were living and waited for her. When she finally came out she was so "flaky" (ok higher than a kite) that trying to get her to help was out of the question. And she wouldn't tell us what to do with the stuff. She kept wandering around saying I've lost my keys and she was looking through her trunk and stuff in her trunk all the while her car door was open and it was binging because the keys were in the ignition!!!
We looked at each other shook our heads and waited. Finally she told us to carry the stuff inside. US? are you kidding. In the end as we were unloading someone did come out of the house and help us. BUT OMG DID WE BOTH HURT!! I can't do steps nor lift and hubby was having some issues with some hip pain.
The next day I get a message from a woman who is a friend of our granddaughter's mother saying she has our granddaughter and that she took her away from her mother because her mother was so high on drugs she didn't feel it was safe for our granddaughter to be there. Then she wanted to know if we could take her. Well of course we can. SO there goes our plans. We get our granddaughter and first off she has no shoes and really has no clothes to speak of so my daughter goes out with her and picks out a few clothes. Then I take her shopping and get her some pj's and stuff she needs for personal grooming. A few days later after she is settled I take her over and get her hair cut and styled. Now she looks more like a little girl not a rag a muffin. She tells us her mom took her to a bar and that's why she didn't have shoes. HUH? Well we got a sorta story out of her and the woman who brought her but the thing that matched was granddaughter's mom was on drugs and her boyfriends were beating her up.  SO now here comes my birthday and we always go to South Dakota for my birthday. But now I've got Kelley. I finally get a hold of her mom and get permission to take her to SD with us and get permission to take her to the doctors if any thing should happen but I learn that some of my own children, including one of my grandsons can't make the trip. So I stayed home and had a party at daughter's house. It was fun but we didn't go see fireworks. and that was the not so fun part. I mean when your born the forth of July fireworks are a must!
So what happens next? I open my big mouth and tell oldest son who happens to be Kelley's dad that him and his girlfriend can move in for 4 weeks. NOW I CAN"T GET THEM OUT! And they think we are moving out and letting them have the house! NO WAY IN HELL. BEEN THERE DID THAT ONCE and they ruined the house!!! Ok son not this girlfriend but Kelley's mom and oldest son are the ones who ruined house so why would I in God's name let oldest son and THIS girlfriend have the house? NO FREAKING WAY!
So school is about to start........and I have no way of getting a hold of Kelley's mom. So I start to get Kelley enrolled in school when all of a sudden I get a message on Face Book that she is coming to get Kelley! Great. So I don't get paperwork done I don't get information I need to give school and then what happens? I get new message today "I have no place to live that place fell through please get Kelley registered for school" yeah her appointment is tomorrow at 9 and I am missing some paperwork. But I will explain once again. Oh yeah and I think we've been used through this whole summer as a babysitter for Kelley mainly so her mom could have a "good time" and not worry about her daughter......why you might ask.....I just learned our son has been talking to her this whole time yet telling us she doesn't have a phone or any way for us to get a hold of her! Mr Gab has been stressed to the max so much so he has been to the hospital and spent the night for observations. his blood pressure was high and he had some issues with "rocks in is ear being loose" ok that's what they  called it in the hospital. Look it up it is called crystals. causes dizziness and nausea. I know we will get Kelley in school for now we might get social services involved. all I know is I didn't want to stay here another winter yet it looks like we will be!!! Yeah I'm pissed. But granddaughter comes first really and right now I see her being used as a pawn in all this and I think she is the one that's gonna get hurt.And if I can stop that Im gonna!

Happy Happy and Happy

Happy Canada Day to all my friends from the North!

Happy Birthday to Barman as well today is his birthday.
I usually "sing" to my friends here so in true Gab fashion:


Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday dear Barman
Happy Birthday toooooooooooooo yooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuu! And many more!



Then this coming Thursday not only is it America's Birthday it is MINE! Yeah I will admit it even though I dont wanna! It seems like the older you get the faster the years go by.

This year instead of going to South Dakota for my birthday like we always do we are staying here going to daughter's house to celebrate there. She will be hosting the party.

Now you might say but why SD is always where you go for your birthday. Yes, yes it is...But this year some things have changed. Like we have our granddaughter Kelley living with us and not sure how long she will be with us. My oldest grandson has to work, he just changed jobs and so he cant really ask for time off yet. Another grandson went and made plans with his dad. Then my son who is Kelley's dad doesnt drive and wants to be here to celebrate and see his daughter. Now your wondering why do we have his daughter and not him well his ex/g/f has custody of her. But she was doing drugs and another friend intercepted Kelley and brought her here. Why didnt she go to her dad's. Well 1 he lives out of a hotel with his girlfriend and her 2 boys and he uses drugs and drinks. SO it would be like going from frying pan into the fire. SO we have her. Her other grandparents........they hate her! Yes and they have told her that to her face! Nice grandparents right?!
Then either Friday or Saturday we will drive out to SD and stay a few days then!  Hopefully soon things will get straighten out and we can continue our moving like we were suppose to back in June! Like Mr Gab always tells me we should never make plans they never work out!

Ok waiting for number 3

Well you know the old saying bad things come in 3's? We my last post was about our friend who was also our oldest son's god mother. Well Today was my aunt's funeral. She was only my aunt by marriage.. She married my mom's brother Charles.
She had MS. And she fought a hard battle and lost it on Weds of this week.
So I'm now waiting for the other shoe to drop the number 3. In secret Im hoping and praying that maybe it will skip the 3rd one. just once I'd like to not have to have bad new come in 3's! PLEEEEASE

Saying good bye is so very hard to do

This morning Mr Gab woke me up with the worst news you could possibly wake up to. One of our friends passed away yesterday! She was our oldest son's God mother. She was too young to go. She had ALS.
Then comes the hardest part saying good bye to a friend that you are very close to, had loads of fun with, share much with and lots and lots of laughter.
Mr Gab knew her way before I did. They met when Mr Gab was in the Army. I met them when we got married. The same week we got married he called them to tell them he got married. They couldn't believe it because he said he was never getting married. So we drove all the way up there to prove it! Oh and then came the next surprise.....I was expecting......first thing out of her mouth to her hubby was "I wanna baby" that caused a big fight that weekend. But in the end they had 2 boys. She was about 6 months along when we got our son baptized and she had to hold our chunk of a son who at birth weighed in at 9 lbs 1 oz so by the time he was baptized he was a whopping 20 lbs and here she is bigger than a house trying to hold on to him. But it worked out and they became his god parents and life went on. And now we are saying good bye to her. We have our memories of course we will never loose those, and many pictures and many stories. But it just seems totally impossible that she is gone. We love you Marilyn and will miss you very much! May god hold you in his arms and take care of you till we all see you again.

Shocker

This is what I posted on Facebook today:

I wish I could think of a song right now....something cheerful and pertains to my post! NOW MOST WOMEN would NOT tell you their weight But I dont mind one bit and I will tell you why! I started this journey some time last year at 261lbs. and off and on you have seen me post that I've lost more and more weight. Now this is a terribly BIG thing for me because I CAN NOT EXERCISE at all nope nada cant do it! So today when I went into see my neurologist for check-up they put me on the scale! (Now mind you I have had a few set backs or so I thought because I had some candy some pie you know stuff that would put back on the weight) SO when my weight came up on the screen I screamed and everyone rushed out to see what was wrong! I almost started to cry I was soooooo HAPPY! This lady has made it to 202! I'm a short 3 lbs from my original goal of getting under 200lbs! I can now set my next goal of 175 my finally goal is 130-140! I just can't believe Ive done it! But the doctor said once I gave up soda (well I have one every now and again but not like I used to) and DRANK WATER! that was my biggest help! If I could reach my back I'd give it a big pat!!!!


Yes I am one happy person right now! I was kinda mad at my self at the doctors office I had hoped by the time I seen him again I'd been under the 200 mark "missed it by this much" lol
Three whole pounds! That was all I needed to be to be under! But its ok Im happy Im still loosing!
AND My bp was good in fact it was very good!!! hasnt been that good in years!!! I truely am a happy camper!

Little Man Graduated today!

Our little man has graduated Kindergarten!

 we are so proud of him! He is Our daughter's last baby, so there is no more! Thank goodness lol. Oh there is another grandchild to get to kindergarten but she is only 3 so there is a ways to go and we probably wont be here for her granduation!

CONGRATS LOGAN!

MAY 6TH 2013 .....WE MADE IT

ON MAY 6TH 39 YEARS AGO WE SAID OUR I DO'S. THOSE 39 YEARS HAVE NOT BEEN AN EASY ROAD BUT WE MADE IT THIS FAR, AND I FORESEE US MAKING ANOTHER 39 PLUS YEARS TOGETHER AND HOPEFULLY A WHOLE LOT EASIER.

ALSO MAY 6TH 14 YEARS AGO OUR GRANDSON AARON WAS BORN. AND OH THOSE YEARS HAVE NOT BEEN EASY EITHER. THAT BOY HAS GIVING US SOME GRIEF ESPECIALLY SINCE WE CAME BACK HERE TO MINNESOTA. ON MONDAY (May 6th) HE SAID HE WISHED WE NEVER CAME BACK. MR GAB AND I SECONDED THAT!

SO ON MONDAY BECAUSE IT WAS AARON'S 14TH BIRTHDAY MR GAB AND I TOOK HIM TO DINNER AND LET HIM CHOOSE THE RESTAURANT. HE CHOOSE RED LOBSTER. OK NO PROBLEM! WELL MAYBE....................................

WE GOT TO RED LOBSTER ORDERED OUR DINNER AND OUR SALADS CAME AND I STARTED TO EAT A CROUTON AND THEN SOME LETTUCE WHEN I REALIZED SOME THING WAS WRONG. I GOT UP AND WENT TO THE LADIES ROOM AND TOOK A LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND YUP NO TOOTH. IT BROKE OUT AND I SWALLOWED IT!

SO THE NEXT MORNING MR GAB HAD AN APPOINTMENT WITH THE DENTIST AND I WENT IN WITH HIM AND SEVERAL HOURS LATER( as I had to be fitted in between everyone else including Mr Gab) AND $753.00 LATER AS WELL I HAD A TEMPORARY TOOTH.....AND AN APPOINTMENT FOR 2 WEEKS LATER TO GET THE PERMANENT TOOTH PUT IN. UGH WHAT A WAY TO CELEBRATE OUR ANNIVERSARY! POOR AARON BLAMED HIMSELF FOR CHOOSING THE RESTAURANT AND WE SAID NO IT PROBABLY WOULD HAVE HAPPENED ANY PLACE WE WENT! 

Doctor's

Well I went to the doctor's today for my MRI of my neck.....after wards the tech told me she had great pictures for the doctor to check out and he will get in touch with me in about 2 days.
Next week on Friday I am not looking forwards to that appointment at all. They will be sticking electrodes on my fingers and toes on my left side and then putting a needle into my muscles to give me little shocks to see how much I can feel. See last week at my Doctors appointment I had a follow up with another doctor and she was sticking my feet with a needle well right side I felt most of the time left side not so much! In fact about 1 in every 50 pokes I sorta felt. Sometimes I knew she was poking me but it didn't feel sharp when it should have. it will  tell them one way or the other if Ive damaged nerves or pinched
Either way just not looking forwards to it

WALKER?

Well it looks like Walker! Except he's all white! I guess thats what happens when there is too much snow? HEY WALKER WHAT HAPPENED?

I've been..................

Loosing weight! Yay me! growing my nails! Yay me! and finally following Doctors orders........(not gonna toot my horn here lol cause it's something I should do period!)

Ok Lets start with the weight loss.
So remember way back several months ago I had a bad headache and went to ER? And I was very dehydrated? And I had bladder and kidney infection? And I was told I had to drink water? YUCK WATER!

Yeah that's was my feelings back then Yuck water.....I hate water! really and truly. And for me it was almost like gagging when I did have to drink some. I would take the smallest of sips and when no one was looking dump the rest out and say ok I drank it. (yes I would) But with the threat of a hospital stay hanging over me if I didn't drink water for real and lots of it I had to some how force my self to actually drink water. People say to me well just add a lemon or lime to it and give it flavor. BUT PEOPLE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND I DON'T LIKE LEMONS OR LIMES EITHER!
So I got home from ER and I got a glass of Ice water and started with small sips and kept drinking smalls sips till I realized the glass was empty. So I got up refilled the glass and kept taking small sips. Now I did this for several days in a row till it all of a sudden became a HABIT! 1 glass of ice water with small sips turned into several glasses of ice water all with small sips. Some how I told myself a small sip isn't very big and I can get by it. When we went out to eat I only got Ice water. I used a straw and it was still like small sips and low and behold I'm drinking water all the time. And while I'm drinking this water I'm not drinking the pop. At first I had just 1 bottle of pop that would last me all day in between these sips. Then it was soon I opened a bottle of pop and I would drink some and that bottle sat there and all of a sudden it would take me two days to finish it. then three days to drink it. Now I have a bottle that has been sitting here a MONTH and I haven't even wanted to open it. not even in the littlest way have I wanted it. instead I reach for my glass of Ice water!!!! That folks is part 1 of my weight loss!
Now part 2:
I can't exercise! not at all. Why you say....well because of the car accident I cant stand or sit long enough to do any exercise. and when I do what they gave me in PT I end up hurting myself even more so they told me to Stop! that's where the pain pills came in....they wanted me to take them while doing PT and I did but then I over did it because I didn't feel the pain but couple hours later when pills wore off I did and couldn't move at all! Poor hubby would have to pull me up outta chair and drag me to the bathroom undress me help me get on the toilet and redress and drag me back to my chair or to bed and either push me into one or other said before item (chair or bed) and it got so bad for him that he hurt himself and he said NO MORE! So PT stopped and the only exercise I get is walking from bedroom to living room to bathroom and back again each day. and of course Doctors appointments and a few dinner dates out. Which I had a couple BAD experience's there so it got harder to get me to even go out! Well I had read and listened to all they people who talk about how your suppose to loose weight and 2 things stuck in my head. 1 was eat less and 1 was as soon as you start feeling full stop eating. So ok I can do that all by my self I dont have to go to weight watchers to do it. I dont have to buy special food I just watch wand listen to my body.
So I tried it. I had some spaghetti here at home. I took a normal sized plate and I put a scoop full on like I normally did and sat down to eat. But as soon as I started to feel my stomach get full and uncomfortable I gave my plate to my oldest grandson and said take it to the kitchen and leave it on the counter. He said dont you want it? I said no not right now I dont feel very good my tummy hurts. Well yes in a way it did but not really like sick sick. he says ok if I have it? Im like sure. (he hadnt gotten a plate yet so instead of getting a new plate and more food he finished mine)
Ok that was a start I felt full and my stomach felt uncomfortable! Now before I always had thought it was gas or some thing that made me feel uncomfortable, but I think now it was a way of my stomach saying really your gonna put more food here where am I suppose to put it? and then it grew! So I got to a restaurant and order a meal and I eat some till I get the full feeling and I say I need a take home box. I usually never get to eat the stuff I bring home.......either hubby eats it or grandson eats it! I DON'T CARE REALLY AS LONG AS I'M NOT EATING IT! I now hate going to a buffet because its a total waste of money I get 1 plate full and I cant even finish eating that and they wont let you take even that home so I try to avoid those kinds of restaurants now.
I will now find some carrot sticks or some fruit to have as a snack if I do get hungry in between meals but it rarely happens now that Im drinking more water Im usually not hungry between meals like before. AND We arent eating just before bed any more either.
So with all that said Im loosing weight! it was a big surprise the first time I was at the doctors and found out I had actually lost some weight But I had my suspicions. mainly because my pants were falling off me!
as for my nails well getting them done as one of the things hubby forced me to do to get out of the house they have finally grown out and Im not biting them. I still put them up there like Im gonna so its good thing they are   acrlic on top other wise I might have them down to nubs again my now with all the stress that we've had in between getting out truck and my Durango falling apart.
Now first off I have to tell you the truck is a 2003 so its already 10 yrs old. it dont look 10 yrs old inside or out it was kept that nice let me tell you. Yes we got a carfax on it so we know there was NO REPORTED accidents with it. and it was UNDER $10,000!!! Oh yeah under baby under. and we took all of my rent money after we paid taxes and we took Mr Gab's bonus from work and put down on it. But first we had to see if we would qualify for a loan to buy it even with our down. They did finance us. which was a super big surprise. So we put our money down and we have 3 yrs of payments of 188.00 a month. it works out to just 9,999 total then with finance charge but we had to finance the last 3,000 of the truck we just couldnt pull together the rest of the money. And Mr Gab wanted that truck so badly he said ok. NOW WE CAN PULL OUR TRAILER!  and that folks was the biggest problem we had with the Durango it wouldnt pull the trailer!   Yes I am a little worried about the fuel expense but again gas is just as high so no matter if Im  driving an F150 using gas or our F350 using diesel its gonna cost us an arm and leg. But we're gonna be comfortable!

How in the hell do these fools

I watch Duck Dynasty once......that's as much stupid as I wanna be!
How in the hell do these fools run a business? I sure in the hell wouldn't buy from them! They claim the show isn't scripted, if that's true these people are really stupid. and I don't even want to think of doing business with them.

BUT ON THE OTHER HAND MAYBE THAT'S WHAT YOU GOTTA DO......
YOU GOTTA ACT (or really be that stupid) to run a company and make a million dollars!

I don't know but let me tell you something. If I owned a million dollar company and they put me on TV and I acted that stupid and foolish I'd be afraid people would stop buying from me. I mean really. I wouldn't want to show my face any where in public after acting like that on TV.

So I'm guessing the TV station is paying them big bucks to act that stupid. If that's the case hire me I can be stupid too.

I can't understand

What makes a person go back to a person they know has done bad things before? Just because they say they have changed? Well ok some do change But honestly to put your whole life into their hands to claim to love them and possibly want to marry them after all the dirty crap they have done to you? NO NO NO!!
AND BIG SURPRISE he does it again.....................Leopards cant change their spots and he wont change either.
Now your life is in the crapper and you have to dig from the bottom again and this time its not only you your pulling up from that bottom it you and four more.
And of course we sat here telling you no dont do it. but of course you didnt listen and now your crying on our shoulders and the stress is hurting both of us and you. Some times I know you gotta let them fall and pick themselves up and fall again BUT GOOD GOD SAME PERSON? again and again? Sigh.....................I need a vacation

More about the truck

You've seen the pics below (if not go look) We bought a 2003 F350 Diesel Ford Pickup that's loaded.
It got auto start, gps and omg I don't know every thing else but start talking to Mr Gab and you can talk for hours about the truck!!!!!
I drove it home from the dealer. YES ME! and I drove it all around yesterday......2 things I gotta learn.......ONE WATCH MY SPEED.....IT GOES MUCH FASTER THAN THE DURANGO  at a very small touch of the foot feed! and TWO IT'S MUCH BIGGER THAN THE DURANGO SO WATCH IT WHEN PARKING .....I hit a parked car......lol well ok lets rephrase that.... I bumped the car in front of me. No damage no nothing but shocked me that I was already that close to car in front of me. I worry about the cost of diesel but hell gas is expensive too so I guess it works out all most the same. And yeah in the winter we gotta be careful of it gelling but I hope we soon will be in Florida. But a F350 pick up that runs in our price range was a dream come true.
The morning after we bought it I said to Mr Gab "you know I love that truck. But its just the two of us and we are older so do we really need a truck that big?" and he said "NO But we want it and we deserve it and we got it and that's it" So I laughed and go ok. Then he said if we take really good care of it it should be the last vehicle we ever own, and at the mileage it has now it hasn't even been broken in yet. SO Mr. Gab is so very happy its been his dream for such a long time to own a F350 and now he has one. And I'm happy its a very nice truck. Not a color I would have picked but I ain't gonna complain! we got a really good deal

OUR NEW TRUCK

2003 F350 Deisel 4x4 loaded Heated seats, auto start, gps plus much much more. 

Little man having fun with his daddy

HURRAY

Sooooo....................


I went to the Doctor's again yesterday.........this was my arthritis Doctor, but they still make you get on the scale. AND


I WAS REALLY SCARED.........................................


BECAUSE I HAD SLIPPED LAST WEEK AND THE WEEK BEFORE..............................................


BUT


I GOT ON...............             AND..............................    LOST ANOTHER 8 WHOLE POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


OMG I WAS SO SURPRISED AND VERY HAPPY. SO TO DATE I HAVE LOST 50 POUNDS......YES 50!
I'M A LONG WAY FROM MY ACTUAL GOAL (yep I made one, one I thought was unrealistic) BUT NOW AM ACTUALLY GETTING CLOSER TO EVERY TIME I STEP ON THE SCALE AND LOOSE MORE. I CAN DO THIS YES YES I CAN!!!

AND WHAT HELPS THE MOST BECAUSE I CAN'T EXERCISE IS THE FACT IS WHEN I START TO FEEL A LITTLE FULL IS TO STOP THEN NOT WHEN I AM FULL.
MY PLATE MY BE STILL FULL OF FOOD BUT I AM NOT.

???

glug glug glug....................




some days I feel as if I'm drowning.



In Bills


In worrying about the car



In babysitting




In my health


In hubby health


GOD HELP US PLEASE! I put every thing into your hands once again!

I love those kinda of days

Yesterday Mr Gab and I went out to breakfast at Baker's Square. Now for the longest time we stopped eating there because their menu had changed and they didn't have any thing either of us liked. But our daughter's on-again/off-again boyfriend works there and told us they brought back some of the old favorites so we went back and found we liked their breakfasts again. So here we are sitting chatting and eating when I looked up at the window and what do I see? 2 of our grandsons making their way into the restaurant with said boyfriend.
Well let me tell you the smiles on their faces when they seen us and they ran across the restaurant to give us hugs and kisses! Then they wanted to sit with us. But we were almost finished eating plus the table we were at would not accommodate 3 more people. Their faces fell but they took the table right behind us. We had a few more hugs and kisses and then said good-bye and we were on our way.
We then we to the bank, then off to the city to pay our water bill, then over to Target Optical to get our new glasses.
The good news is I can see......The bad news is I can't use the new glasses while on the computer which is where I am 99% of the day! I checked the ones I'm wearing (the pitted and scratched and worn ones) to see if they had numbers on for strength but couldn't find any so, my next option is to take them over to Target Optical and see if they can tell me what it is so I can find another pair like these for just the computer! But it is oh so nice to be able to put on a pair of glasses and not try to adjust them to try to see the words I'm looking at! But there is bad news with this as well.
I have cataracts on both eyes and as soon as I can no longer see with these glasses its surgery time. But of course it doesn't stop there......
One of the medicines I take is causing some kinda thing growing at the back of my right eye. So The ophthalmologists I seen wants me back in 3 months to keep an eye on it Plus talk to my Doctor about either lower the amount I take or getting off it completely.
Monday I go in for my next set of injections this time on my left side. If its anything like last time I will be out of commission for about 3 days well 2 really but the 3rd day I still am hurting just not as bad as the first 2 and I usually am moving better by then! And on those first 2 days I wont feel much like playing on the computer either.
But if its helps any at all like last time I should be able to walk almost totally by myself (maybe even with out a cane) and do some more activities around the house. The first ones in my right hip and back have let me stand and load dish washer all at one time instead of loading a few sitting down loading more sitting down. I was even able to wash pots and pans which before I couldn't even stand long enough to do them. AND MY BIGGEST ACHIEVEMENT was I made Mr Gab Breakfast one morning with out having to say take over I cant stand their any more!!!! And of course sleeping on my right side at night was so much nicer than tossing and turning all night long that I finally am (well almost totally) rested!
My thing now is the nightmares Ive been having But thats a whole different BLOG!
Be nice to one another and remember you don't know if you will be here again tomorrow that's totally up to God!

REALLY?

I am a real person!
I have real feelings!
I cry!
I Bleed when cut!
I eat I breath air I get dressed most every day.
How dare you treat me like shit
How dare you think you can walk all over me.
I will not stand for it
I will not lay down and take it
I will however tell you this:
(LISTEN VERY CLOSELY)

The next time your in a jam DONT CALL ME! I wont be there
The next time you need money DONT ASK ME! I'll be broke every single time.
Next time you just need a friend or shoulder to lean or cry on DONT LOOK FOR MINE it wont be there!

Yes I am being a bitch I learned from the best wanna know who?  GO LOOK IN THE MIRROR!

I think we are almost to the end of raising another child

Our oldest grandson is 17 already. He will be 18 this Nov. He also has one more year of school left. Today he took his written drivers test and passed. Part one done and down the drain. We are almost done raising another child. We have had him pretty much since he was a baby. We are pretty much his parents as his grandparents. And now he can start driving. Behind the wheel of a real car. OMG my oldest grandson is now old enough to drive! waaaaah. I feel very old right now.

Well it does matter to someone

The lies, the back stabbing, the stealing all of it matters to someone. They may never say so, but it does. And the worst part is when its your own family doing it. AH yes family. They are the worst in doing things to hurt others.
I've learned with my own children just to let it go because no matter how many times you say anything to them they will deny it PLUS then they will go home and talk behind your back bad shit about you and say oh your crazy and shit like that. Sisters and brothers do it too.
I always wonder about these families who spend so much time going to church how they all feel when it them who lie? or steal? How do they justify it? to them selves? to god? to the ones they do it too? The voice of experience tells me its gotta hurt like hell either way whether your the one doing it to another or the one who its being done too.
It's too bad they can't just come forward say I'm sorry lets fix this. But nope most times it splits them apart to where most of them never talk to them again! Then when they pass they stand there saying shit like oh I wish we had the chance to make it up I so missed them! DO IT NOW STUPID!!!!!  Dont wait till its too late,  FIX IT NOW. because it matters.......................to someone....................and they probably are hurting....................so it's up to you to fix it...fix it now....................

Shocker

Well, its been a few days. I've had a few things going on. Back at the beginning of Jan (very first weekend in fact) I had to go to the ER. I knew I had a bladder infection but got a shock to learn I also had kidney infection. After I took all my meds I was have several great days so great I actually was able to stand up and do dishes a couple of times. Then we went out one night for dinner just the two of us and during dinner I needed to go to the restroom so I started to get up and go and BOOM I fell flat on the floor. and it take several tries to get me up. I then wobble my way to the restroom go and start back but cant walk all the way to our table. I'm in such bad pain......I thought kidneys because that seemed to be where the pain was. So we go home drop off groceries and find grandson and go to ER again. THIS IS NOT HOW I WANT TO START OUT MY NEW YEAR! They did urine, blood tests and then a CT. all came back ok, the Doctor on call told me it was spasms. And they were caused by me when I over did the days I felt good. So he gave me some pain pills and sent me off home. When I was in ER they gave me Morphine to take the edge off the pain so that they could do the tests. Well it made me goofy and really yucky. I went to bed fell asleep only to wake up and run to the bathroom to be very sick. I was up rest of the night sick. Then I slept the rest of the day. and most of the next night. They wanted me to go see my own doctor 3 days after I had been in ER and I said well that's good cause I had an appointment that Friday morning. Well Friday morning came and I went into see my doctor. and WOW I had some more surprises in store for me. First they weighed me, I never look so I didn't see what it was. SO when my doctor started to questioning me over it I was like WHAT? are you sure? So when I was done with my exam we redid my weight and YES she was right I went from about 242 down to 213! Now while that doesn't seem like a lot to you for me it is. I can't exercise like everyone else can, I 'm not really mobile at all so to actually loose weight well that is great. The other thing that was a super big SURPRISE was my blood pressure. it had been in the 100's both top and bottom numbers sometimes the top number hitting over 200's. well Friday she noted that all three of my visits were normal not high at all. YES!!!! I finally am doing stuff right. SO I AM VERY HAPPY. I will keep eating the good stuff I have been cutting way back on the sweets (I pretty much stopped eating donuts) I am drinking only one can of soda a day and hoping to stop all together. AND I'm drinking more water than ever before.

Hello God it's me again

Hello God it's me again:
I know you haven't heard from me in quite awhile....."WHAT" Oh yeah that was me 5 days ago cussing and yelling at you your right....but that was the sick me. The me who was sick of being sick. The me who thought life was unfair, who wished you would turn back the clock to Oct 6th 2008 and let me make a different choice that day in hopes that I don't get hit by a "WITCH" who ran a red light and hurt me so badly my life changed forever while she walked away unscathed. Yeah that was me your right. BUT this me the one who is talking to you today is saying THANK YOU. For what ever reason my last 3 days and now today have been very good days. I haven't had the headaches and I haven't had the sick tummy. So I've been a happier me, one my family and I like. I know my family wasn't enjoying the other me Heck I wasn't enjoying the other me hence the yelling and cussing I did the other day to you. I really HATED the other me so much so I wanted to END the other me. In away you did end the other me. I went to bed 5 night ago after yelling and cussing at you and I cried and I begged and I pleaded 'PLEASE PLEASE LET ME HAVE SOME GOOD DAYS" I told you I didn't like me sick all the time and I said if you would just let me have some good days I would make the best of them. You did and I have ......so far. So Again:
Hello God it'd me again:
The good me, the not always sick me, the me who can handle the pain somewhat better than before me. and I want to say again THANK YOU FOR LISTENING AND GRANTING MY WISH. I also want to ask if  at all possible if we can keep going like this for awhile more. Everyone including myself likes this me. I'm not crabby, I'm not bitchy. I can actually do stuff. Yes your right I still have to deal with not walking very well, but I can now handle that because I feel better about the rest of myself. I am enjoying each and everyday not cowering in a corner crying. So if you please lets keep this going I LIKE THIS ME. Amen.

The day is coming closer

The day is coming closer...its a day I dread with all my heart! My beloved Pumpkin is coming to the end of his life. He is around 15 or 16 years old. I really don't remember for sure as it seems we had him forever. The biggest part of loosing him is that once again I will feel the loss of Puff. Pumpkin and Puff were the best of friends in cat world. Where one went the other followed I couldnt go to the bathroom with out both being in there with me. AND BED whoo let me tell you Puff was on my head and Pumpkin on my feet. When Puff died Pumpkin took over the job of sleeping on my head. When I was still able to sit at my desk and desktop computer I actually had to have a second computer chair for those two to sit in. And when I would be relaxing in my recliner or on the couch I had two furry babies right along side of me one one either side. When Puff died Pumpkin looked so lost I wanted to get another cat right away.  Mr Gab vetoed that idea. It was 7 months after he passed when Mr Gab himself brought home Lucky. Pumpkin didn't like him at all!
And it took almost 4 months for them to become friends and be together not as close as Puff and him were but close enough. Now that Pumpkin is getting to that point neither cat wants anything to do with the other. In fact I have to watch Lucky because he will hurt Pumpkin on purpose. I know his passing is part of life but I hate it.. 100% HATE IT!

I have entertained the idea of when he has passed and I have done my grieving I will think about instead of adding another cat I will add a dog.

We used to always have 2 dogs 2 cats at the same time before. Then we had to downsize when we came to care for dad. Now as we get into our next phase of pets I think 1 and 1 would be a great idea.

I love my pets.....they arent just pets to us they are our kids our babies our lives. We just cant see our life without a pet in it. And so it goes One door closes another opens.
I just wish I had more time

Where is my 5 year old grandson?

Where is little man? I need him quick......this is AN EMERGENCY!
Our recorder is set to record nothing but spongbob squarepants! and I cant change it. I need a 5 year old to fix it for me.......


OH     WAIT.......................

I DID ASK A 5 YEAR OLD TO HELP ME FIX IT.......................................................
THATS WHY ITS ALL SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS RECORDINGS NOW! lol

Ok then I need a smarter someone to help me stop all the spongebob recording....after all I'd like to record a show or two myself...and NOT SPONGEBOB. I need a drink...ya'll can find me in kitchen...............

Memories

So the other day Mr Gab brought home donuts......usually that doesn't bother me I let grand kids eat them as their treat. But then he told me there was a donut that had slivered almonds on top. Right away memories of dad and I sharing one of those donuts flooded me and I asked him to bring me that donut. He asked if I was sure as I had been trying to eat healthier but I just had to have that donut. I said yes.
As I sat there eating that donut the cat sleeping on my chest woke up and started grabbing for pieces of donut. I said "Hey you dumb cat donuts aren't good for cats!" But he kept trying to get some anyways.
And I didn't count on his paws being faster than my hands pushing him away as he managed to grab some right outta my mouth! and every single little piece that dropped on my shirt he snapped up like he hadn't eaten in 6 months.
After I was done I sat there thinking of all the times I ate one of those donuts with my dad.Most of the time I would be at work with dad and we'd share his lunch when we got to the donut he would pull out his pocket knife and cut the said donut in half and give me my half. Now in my memories of these times something flashed in my head..........that pocket knife!!!!!! OMG dad used that knife on everything. He would use it to gap the spark plugs on his car. He would scrap off the corrosion of the battery in the car. he would dig out slivers in his hand and or fingers he also would use it to pop open any thing that had pus in. good god the things he used that pocket knife for and for the most part all he did was take out his handkerchief and wipe it off and god only knows what he used the Handkerchief for!!!! Then the next memory that came for said pocket knife was the time I washed dads pants......I was standing in the basement and I was going through his pockets and I got to the one with his pocket knife in.....it had screws....nails....washers.....dirt.....greasy something......dirt..........pocket knife.....more dirt......saw dust........coin purse.....loose coins! I pulled it all out and put it all on the kitchen table we had in the basement just for this purpose and then dropped the pants into the washer. I then went over to dad's work bench and grabbed the bucket and carried it to the table. There I took out the coins and coin purse and his pocket knife and the rest I pushed into that bucket. I carried it back to dad's work bench so it was there next time he was down there working. I would put loose coins in my pocket and carry the rest into dad's bedroom and place on his bed. Now this memory brought back the next one.......Dad also had a coffee can next to the kitchen table with screws nails washers nuts and who knows what minus dirt and greasy something. Where at any point at dinner he would push his plate forward to middle of table grab said coffee can and spill some on table to look for what ever. I know I used that can many times myself when I wanted to hang something in my room. So then of course can my next memory......dad sitting at table drinking his tea......he would take tea bag out squeeze out all the water and tea and wrap string around bag then said is it open? One of us would check out garbage can and either say yes or no wait a sec while we removed the top. After giving the all clear dad would toss tea bag across table and into can yelling score! Some times he would try it with a paper towel most times that missed and one of us would have to pick it up and toss it where it belonged.
All these memories over a donut!
and to think he used that "DIRTY POCKET KNIFE TO CUT MINE" and in those days we didn't seem to notice or care!

I did what I set out to do

YOU KNOW WHEN YOUR A PARENT YOU TRY TO DO EVERY THING RIGHT BY YOUR CHILDREN. YOU DO THE TOOTH FAIRY THE EASTER BUNNY AND THEN SANTA. AND YOU TRY TO MAKE EVERYTHING MEMORABLE FOR YOUR KIDS.
WELL I GUESS IT DIDN'T WORK ON MINE.
SO WHEN I STARTED GETTING GRAND KIDS I THOUGHT OK HERE'S MY CHANCE AGAIN. A SECOND CHANCE IF YOU WILL. I HAD TWO OF OUR DAUGHTER'S BOYS LIVING WITH US FOR AWHILE WHEN THEY WERE YOUNG(actually I still have the oldest)
SO I DID ALL FOR THESE BOYS.........BUT AT CHRISTMAS I DID MY ALL I REALLY WENT ALL OUT......NOW I WENT ALL OUT FOR OUR KIDS TOO I DECORATED TO THE 9'S AS THEY SAY. I PLAYED THE CHRISTMAS SONGS AND SANG(badly if ya ask me) I TOOK THEM TO SEE SANTA. I TOLD THEM THE CHRISTMAS STORY AND THE STORY OF BABY JESUS.
I DID IT ALL.
AND WHEN THE KIDS AT SCHOOL TEASED THEM FOR BELIEVING IN SANTA I TOLD THEM NO MATTER WHAT YOU BELIEVE SANTA IS ALIVE AND WELL AND THAT SOME CHILDREN CAN'T BELIEVE BECAUSE OF THE WAY THEIR FAMILIES DO THINGS.
IN OTHER WORDS I MADE CHRISTMAS AS SPECIAL AS I POSSIBLY COULD.

WELL IT WORKED.

THIS YEAR JUST ON CHRISTMAS EVE MY OLDEST GRANDSON WENT TO HIS MOM'S TO BE WITH THEM CHRISTMAS MORNING. HE ASKED HIS LITTLE BROTHER WHO IS 5 "DO YOU KNOW WHO IS COMING TOMORROW NIGHT?" HE SAID "NO" MY OLDEST GRANDSON GOT UPSET. HE ASKED "DON'T YOU KNOW ABOUT CHRISTMAS?" HIS BROTHER SAID "NO"
SO HE ASKED"WHAT DO YOU THINK CHRISTMAS IS ABOUT?" AND HIS BROTHER SAID "STUFF I WANT"
MY OLDEST GRANDSON WAS SO UPSET HE ACTUALLY CRIED THEN CALLED ME AND SAID HIS LITTLE BROTHER KNEW NOTHING ABOUT CHRISTMAS OTHER THAN GIVE ME GIVE ME. AND HE SAID HE REMEMBERED WHEN HE WAS LITTLE HOW I MADE IT SO SPECIAL. HE SAID HIS MOM BLEW HIM OFF WHEN HE WANTED HELP TELLING HIS BROTHER ABOUT CHRISTMAS. SO I GOT INTO ACTION ......
I FOUND THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS COPIED IT SENT IT OFF TO HIS CELL FOR HIM TO READ TO HIS BROTHER. I FOUND THE CHRISTMAS STORY ABOUT JESUS AND SENT THAT TO HIM. I THEN SENT HIM THE LINK TO FIND THE CHRISTMAS SONGS AND SOME OF THE MOVIES BOTH ON YOU TUBE. THAT THEY COULD LISTEN TO AND WATCH TOGETHER. I ALSO SENT HIM THE LINK TO NORAD TO TRACK SANTA. THEN SAT BACK AND LET HIM HELP HIS BROTHER UNDERSTAND CHRISTMAS. THE NEXT DAY LITTLE MAN CAME TO ME AND ASKED DID I KNOW ABOUT CHRISTMAS THE REAL CHRISTMAS?  I SAID "YES YES I DID" I SAID "WHO DO YOU THINK TOLD TJ AND AJ ABOUT IT?" HE LOOKED AT ME AND GOES" YOU?" AND I SAID" YES" THEN I TOLD HIM I TOLD HIS MOM AND HIS UNCLES TOO BUT I GUESS THEY FORGOT. HE TOLD ME HE LIKED THE STORIES AND THE SONGS AND HE LIKE THE JESUS STORY THE BEST.
I GUESS I DID MY JOB.
I REALLY TRIED TO MAKE SURE THEY REMEMBERED THE TIMES THEY SPENT WITH THEIR GRANDPARENTS AS GOOD TIMES AND NOW I KNOW THEY WILL REMEMBER CHRISTMAS WITH GRANDMA AS SPECIAL.

THE THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY

WELL I HAVE STARTED 2013 ON A CRAZY NOTE BUT ONE THAT MAKES ME HAPPY IF NOT CRAZY.

OUR DAUGHTER HAS 4 BOYS. AND EACH AND EVERY TIME THEY HAVE HAD THEIR VERY FIRST LOOSE TOOTH I'VE BEEN THERE TO PULL IT.
SO NOW IT WAS LITTLE MAN'S TURN. HE WILL BE 6 AT THE END OF JAN.
HIS SHOWED ME HIS FIRST LOOSE TOOTH JUST BEFORE THANKSGIVING. I TOLD HIM HOW I PULLED ALL 3 OF HIS OLDER BROTHERS VERY FIRST TOOTH, AND HOW I WANTED TO BE THE ONE TO PULL HIS FIRST LOOSE TOOTH.
WELL TODAY HE CAME AND SHOWED ME HIS VERY LOOSE TOOTH. I SAID ITS TIME.
SO GRANDMA GOT A PAPER TOWEL AND REACHED IN AND WELL WAS SUPER SURPRISED THAT IT JUST KINDA FELL OUT. IT BLED A LITTLE OF COURSE AND HE SAID HURT A LITTLE BUT I THINK IT WAS MORE THE SHOCK OF SEEING HIS TOOTH OUT THAN REALLY HURTING. SO NOW AS OF TODAY JAN 1ST 2013 I HAVE PULLED ALL 4 OF OUR DAUGHTER'S BOYS VERY FIRST LOOSE TOOTH. I AM SO PROUD.

I DON'T KNOW WHY IT WAS IMPORTANT FOR ME TO BE THE ONE TO PULL THEIR FIRST LOOSE TOOTH BUT IT REALLY WAS AND IM GLAD IT DIDNT FALL OUT BEFORE TODAY. SO TJ AJ JJ AND LJ HAVE ALL HAD THEIR FIRST LOOSE TOOTH PULLED OUT BY GRANDMA GAB!!!!

A SAD NEW YEAR EVES

TODAY IS NEW YEARS EVE......A DAY OF LOOKING FORWARDS TO MAKING NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS AND STARTING OUT A BRAND NEW YEAR. YET OUR FAMILY IS MOURNING. WE HAVE LOST ANOTHER FAMILY MEMBER.
ONE OF MY MOM'S BROTHERS PASSED AWAY THIS MORNING. AT 8AM.
I NEVER GOT TO MEET THIS UNCLE AND NOW WILL NOT TILL I JOIN THEM ALL IN HEAVEN...UNLESS IM SENT IN THE OTHER DIRECTION LOL.

SO WITH A SAD AND HEAVY HEART I SAY

HAPPY NEW YEARS!

I WILL BE ALONE TONIGHT AS HUBBY WORKS AND GRANDSON WILL WORK TILL ABOUT 1AM.
BUT PLEASE IF YOUR OUT DRINKING PLEASE DON'T DRIVE. HAVE A GOOD TIME AND I HOPE TO SEE YOU ALL IN THE NEW YEAR.

It was a Wonderful Christmas

 Our Oldest son Jack Jr and  his daughter Kelley

 Oldest son daughter Kelley his girlfriend Nickki her boys Dillion and Dorian

 Our daughter Tonya and her 4 boys Tj Jeremy Logan on her lap and Aaron

 Our youngest son Timothy his 3 Tim jr Kaitelynn and James

 Tim and his kids and his girlfriend Shawn and her son Jamal

In this Picture its Mr Gab and me and our kids with their kids! I am on end of couch under Tj who is holding Kaitelynn! If you click on each picture you can enlarge them to see each one better.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

MERRY
                        CHRISTMAS


FROM 
             GAB AND MR GAB.
and a very HAPPY NEW YEARS!

HOPE YOU ALL HAVE THE VERY BEST DAY TOMORROW. AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Me day today

I went and got my nails done today.

And the grandkids got our tree done for this year. I think they both look good

A tribute

Twas' 11 days before Christmas, around 9:38, when 20 beautiful children stormed through Heaven's gate.

Their smiles were contagious, their laughter filled the air they could hardly believe all the beauty they saw there.

They were filled with such joy, they didn't know what to say. They remembered nothing of what had happened earlier that day.


"Where are we?" asked a little girl, as quiet as a mouse. "This is heaven," declared a small boy. "We're spending Christmas at God's house."

When what to their wondering eyes did appear, but Jesus, their savior, the children gathered near.

He looked at them and smiled, and they smiled just the same. Then He opened His arms and He called them by name.

And in that moment was joy, that only Heaven can bring those children all flew into the arms of their King.

And as they lingered in the warmth of His embrace, one small girl turned and looked at Jesus' face.

And as if He could read all the questions she had He gently whispered to her, "I'll take care of mom and dad."

Then He looked down on earth, the world far below He saw all of the hurt, the sorrow, and woe.

Then He closed His eyes and He outstretched His hand, "Let My power and presence re-enter this land!"

"May this country be delivered from the hands of fools" "I'm taking back my nation. I'm taking back my schools!"

Then He and the children stood up without a sound. "Come now my children, let me show you around."

Excitement filled the space, some skipped and some ran. All displaying enthusiasm that only a small child can.

And I heard Him proclaim as He walked out of sight, "In the midst of this darkness, I AM STILL THE LIGHT."


Author wishes to remain Anonymous

Terrible

What happened yesterday was just plain terrible. A gunman went into a school with a gun and killed innocent children and adults. Kindergartners  5 and 6 year old's. Kids who still believed in Santa. Who most hadn't even lost their first tooth yet.  And why? for what reason? No one knows and we may never know. The gunman killed himself as well.....and his mother. The whole thing is just stupid. How does this happen? So many unanswered questions.  I pray for the families. I hug my own grand children even more. I wonder should I send them to school? Could this happen here? We all take it for granted we send our children off to school thinking its one of the safest places for them to be....to learn...to socialise....to become adults......not to die. It made me so sick and scared. I cried. I cried not just because they were killed but because they wont know things like growing up getting married having their own children and grand children they wont become the president or develop the cure for cancer they just wont. they could have but now wont. God holds them in his hands. God has plans for them all I know. But I still think its cruel that God would take small children. I'm sure many parents are asking God why as well. But we will still pray, and hope and start anew. But the fear will be there stronger now. More and more parents will wonder should I send my child to school or teach them at home? People say he was sick...People say he was a Monster. They say he had a split personality and wasn't taking his medication. He was probably sick and was a monster for sure when he killed those children. Everyone has an opinion. No one knows for sure. Police hope to piece it together for some kind of answer but Im not sure they will find one. I hope they do for the peace of the parents who lost those children.

TODAY JUST PLAIN LUCKY

TODAY WE WERE JUST PLAIN LUCKY. MR GAB OUR GRANDSON TJ AND I HAD WENT OUT TO BREAKFAST. WE WERE ON OUR WAY HOME. IN FACT WE WERE JUST 4 BLOCKS FROM  HOME. THE LIGHT WAS GREEN MY WAY. AS WE APPROACHED THE  INTERSECTION WE NOTICED THAT A WHITE VAN WAS MOVING VERY FAST TOWARDS THE INTERSECTION WITH NO INTENT AT STOPPING. I HIT THE HORN AND THE BREAKS SLID OVER TO RIGHT LANE TO MISS BEING HIT. AS SHE CAME AROUND THE CORNER MR GAB NOTICED THAT SHE WASN'T EVEN LOOKING UP AT ALL SHE WAS LOOKING DOWN AT HER CELL PHONE. AND GOING WAY OVER THE SPEED LIMIT.
THEN WE NOTICED SHE WAS FROM ANOTHER COUNTRY AS SHE WAS WEARING THE BLACK SCARF(VEIL) THOSE WOMEN WEAR. AS SHE PASSED AND WE WERE SAFE WE COULDN'T BELIEVE IT. FIRST SHE WOULD HAVE HIT US IF WE HAD PROCEEDED THOUGH THE INTERSECTION SECOND SHE ALMOST HIT US COMING AROUND THE CORNER IN HER LEFT TURN AS SHE TOOK OUR LANE. WE WERE JUST DAMN LUCKY TODAY.
IT WOULD HAVE BEEN A VERY BAD ACCIDENT. ONE WE MIGHT NOT HAVE WALKED AWAY FROM.
I'M SO GLAD SOME ONE WAS WATCHING OVER US. THANK YOU!

Uh sorry?

LOL

Sorry about the break in blogging.......I got the cold my grandkids had and it took me down HARD! I'm not quit over it yet but better!
The cold isn't helping my arthritis either so my fingers are stiff and a little hard to manage. I was hoping by working (playing) on Face book that it would keep me nimble but no such luck. Then last night it was a very bad night Hip and back hurt Plus the arthritis so I ended up using a pain pill which I try not to use but some time just have to.  Daughter has been helping me at least once a week doing my pots and pans, i can usually load dishwasher but pots and pans I cant stand long enough for.
I used my pitance of a settlement and bought a rocker/recliner love seat. I probably should have got a mattress for our bed so Mr Gab and I can sleep together again.....or a scooter so I can get around better. But if you had seen  our old couch you'd understand why we got the loveseat .
I am so wishin we had gotten to Fl this year this cold weather sure isnt helping me. I swear the colder it gets outside the worse I get. Here in the house most days I wear shorts because I get to hot.....then I get to cold and put on jeans which then makes me to hot again. Back and forth till Im sick. UGH!
and then comes the grand sons...with their colds, flu and what nots and I'm sick again.
In fact Jeremy is home today with the Flu so I probably will get sick this weekend! never ending circle. Ah the joys of being a mom then grandma!

Was gonna

I was gonna post something here, something I was very strong opinionated about but then I realized every one has their own opinion about stuff so I cant be mad! And what difference does it make to you you believe that way you believe and they believe what they believe. Once someone "knows" what they think they know you can talk till your blue in the face and they probably wont change their minds. Too many have the wrong information and too many heard the wrong stuff and then formed their own opinion based on the wrong information. So with that said I wont say any thing. But I will say Im happy with my choice and I also heard about the bad stuff but stopped to hear the right stuff then formed my opinion from that!

Is there something wrong with me?

I just seen a commercial saying they have almost got it down to a science to exactly when you get pregnant. What ever happened to lets try to get pregnant and hope for the best? Not take this pill or this test or what ever just ok honey I want a baby its time can we try? is it in our budget (or maybe not) Why do you gotta take a test to see when to the minute you get pregnant? I like our way better you either did or didnt you took a chance a lottery if you will. And you didnt know for sure till you seen a doctor. We didnt have sticks to pee on either. We either started to feel ill or noticed that we missed a period or two and then made an appointment with the doctor and found out if we were or not and usually we were and then from their the doctor would "guess" at the due date. Just because you know the exact minute you become pregnant doesnt mean you know when this baby will be born because no matter what its still up to the baby and god! And then of course there are the ultra sounds to now tell you if your having a boy or girl. We didnt have those either we waited till we delivered.
Now let me throw something at you. Now a days people have the ultra sounds to see if its a girl or a boy right? and now a days lots of these kids are being put on drugs for problems they have adhd add whatever right? Is it possible these ultra sounds are causing this to these kids? Im just saying maybe some one should check into this! I mean I never had to put my kids on drugs they maybe should have been but they weren't!

Thanksgiving

HERE IS MY FAMILY SANS GRANDKIDS.....
MR. GAB WELDING THE REMOTE AND WATCHING FOOTBALL
ME I PUT ON SHORTS THE HOUSE WAS TOO HOT FOR ME
YOUNGEST SON TIMOTHY CANT GET HIM OUTTA THOSE DAMN HATS
DAUGHTER TONYA THIS IS HER HOME
OLDEST SON JACK ASKING ME A QUESTION RIGHT AS PICTURE IS SNAPPED.

OLDEST SONS DAUGHTER KELLEY WAS NOT WITH US. (long story)
DAUGHTER'S 4 BOYS TJ,AJ,JJ,LJ WERE ALL EITHER PLAYING ON VIDEO GAMES OR OUTSIDE RUNNING AROUND (was nice day for it)
YOUNGEST SON'S KIDS JAMAL,JR,JAMIE,KAITELYNN WERE ALSO EITHER OUTSIDE OR WATCHING OLDER KIDS PLAY VIDEO GAMES.
DAUGHTERS BOYFRIEND YOUNGEST SONS AND OLDEST SON'S GIRLFRIENDS WERE SNAPPING PICTURES.
DO WE LOOK BORED? THIS IS ACTUALLY BEFORE WE ATE!!!

Blank canvas

naw I'm not talking about painting a picture. Lol I cant even draw very well. I suppose I could do some abstract thing and call it a painting. But no I was more along the lines of nails. I took off the nail polish I was wearing. And my nails are blank or clean or plain. a Blank canvas if you will. As I sit looking at them wondering if I should paint them again myself, wait till tomorrow and go have them done or just leave them blank awhile my mind keeps jumping to blank canvas. My friend Jenn has done some amazing things on her nails and I wonder how hard it would be to try it myself?  Well first I'd have to go get a few things to even think of trying for one I need more polish remover. When I was removing the polish last night I realized I barely had any and was praying that I could make it last through all 10 nails! it did barely! So I'd want to get more before I tried anything spectacular because if it doesn't work I wanna make sure I can remove it and start over! Then there would be at least one other color, because you really need two to work with! Well I think so any ways. I've one color and one sparkles and yeah that would work but I was thinking more along the line of two colors with the sparkles. like blue on top and purple on bottom with sparkles all over! or maybe other way around purple on top blue on bottom and sparkles all over. or maybe one hand one way the other hand opposite. IDK thats why I have a blank canvas! well if and when I figure out what I wanna do if they come out ok I will post a picture here. other wise if you see nothing it either didnt work or I went and had them done!

happy turkey day

HAPPY 

             THANKSGIVING!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING:

 TO ALL MY BLOGGER FRIENDS:

TO ALL MY FAMILY:

TO ALL MY POGO FRIENDS:

TO ALL MY FACEBOOK FRIENDS

MAY YOU HAVE AN ENJOYABLE DAY, EAT OR NOT EAT TOO MUCH, HAVE FAMILY AND FRIENDS TO ENJOY THE DAY WITH AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU!

and if you find yourself alone today think of me and pretend I am there with you to share this day, because if I could I would be with each and every one of you today!

I thank God each and every day when I wake up that he has granted me another day! 

We have so very much to be thankful for

My Mother in law had major surgery last week. She had a tumor removed that was cancerous. And with her age is was one of those cross your fingers and pray a lot. In a way I was almost holding my breath through out the day. Then finally my sister in law posted on face book that surgery went well and mom came through it with flying colors. Mom is home now ...recovery will take a bit but it really looks good for her. I am so very happy. I don't want to loose my mother in law just yet. Yes that is selfish but I would like her here for a few more years. And I know she isn't really ready to go yet as she has much to still do. She has grand children, great grandchildren and I even think great great grandchildren! She is a very special lady and I can't thank her enough for giving birth to her son and keeping him, as she was unmarried at the time. So I am truly grateful! So this Thanksgiving I have so very much to be Thankful for .....myself my family my mother in law making it though a tough surgery and still having a home to live in.


THANKS!

I think it will be fact

I think Mr Gab and I have now decided that we will be getting a condo in Florida. Two reasons. 1) of course is our age....we are at the point we don't want to do yard work any more and just want to enjoy the out doors. and 2) I think Mr Gab is hurting more than he is letting on.
So I started to look at a few condos and I like some of them then came the shocker ....No not the price....The stairs....... just about every one had steep steps. I mean almost straight up and down step not angled like most steps. and one look at those and I said oh oh sorry nope not interested any more.
I revised my search to one level and found 5 available homes. That is not a lot. So then I tried a different area of Florida.......that one gave me 30 homes. ok better.....till I realized that some of these supposed one level homes were actually 2 levels and in a couple of cases were 3 and 4 levels but the ones for sale were on first level of building. Hummmm guess that counts right? LOL ah well I shall keep looking as we have 6 months to look.

regrets

There comes a time in everyone's life when you have regrets of one kind or another.
I have had a lot lately and wonder why I even choose some of the paths I went down only to be slapped in the face or be told they wish I hadn't.
Thanksgiving is coming up....................
I AM NOT DOING IT AT MY HOUSE!!!! every year I did it at my house I bought the groceries did most of the work preparing the meal and did most of the clean up while I had my son's girlfriend sit around and watch. So I put my foot down and said NOPE NOT HAPPENING. Thing is even though we told her we'd like some help cleaning up she would A) have to go home or B) just sit there like a bump on a log and stare at us like you can't possibly mean her. BIGGEST thing that bugged the hell out of us...she wouldn't even get her own kids a plate of food! We had to do it. One year we got every ones food but their's thinking she'd take the hint and every time one of her boys asked about when they were gonna get a plate she would say you gotta wait for grandma to get it for you. OMG
I told her go ahead help your self and get the kids a plate but noooooo not her she waited till either my daughter did it I did it or grandpa broke down and got it for them which really made him mad. You don't want to make Mr Gab mad!
I even went so far to set every thing up buffet style so that every one could help them selfs and I said sit where you want except grandma and grandpa's chairs and we didn't do a prayer or anything and she still waited around for some one else to feed her kids.
Now this year we said we were going to a restaurant to eat. But daughter didn't like that so we finally agreed to go to her house so I called youngest son and asked are you and the kids and her coming for thanks giving? He said IDK you gotta call and ask her. So I text her to ask her and got no answer. SO I called son again and I'm like look we gotta know who all is coming so we know how much to buy, so he talked to her then text me back and said she wont come because they have to come all the way down here every year. So I'm like ok. But I text her and said Id come there in a heart beat if she didn't have so many steps I CAN"T DO STEPS!
But there is another reason I will never ever go to her house for any meal. its a pig sty! worse than a pig sty. YOU CAN"T IMAGINE! she has stuff every where and the cat has peed and pooed on every thing at least a dozen times. She leaves her dishes till the mold is 6 inches thick and then trys to wash it. I told son toss it out.
and the few times we have eaten at her place we have gotten so sick that I just don't want to repeat it ever again. What surprises us that CP has been there and they know how bad her place is but they give her a warning make her clean it up and that's it till next time. when she knows she has almost one to many strikes against her she moves. I keep hoping some day they will catch up with her and take the kids away but so far no luck.  So this year it will be daughters house and she has already ordered a prepared meal that we will just heat up on Thanksgiving. And I will buy a few extras that are family tradition and that will be our meal. Oldest son said him and his girlfriend will be there which is ok as long as they are sober. Hopefully next year we will either be in S.D. Or FL. at Thanksgiving!

THANK YOU

TODAY IS VETERAN'S DAY

SO ALL I CAN SAY IS:



THANK YOU!!!!!!

THANK YOU FOR MY FREEDOM
THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART FOR THE RISK YOU TAKE EACH AND EVERY DAY.
THANK YOU FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO CAME HOME BUT HAD BEEN INJURED
THANK YOU WHO RETURNED HOME AND NOT INJURED BUT HAVE NIGHT MARES BECAUSE OF WHAT YOU SEEN AND DID FOR US.


THANK YOU. ITS NOT ENOUGH I KNOW BUT ITS ALL I CAN SAY. AND I CANT SAY IT ENOUGH.

He's 17!

TODAY IS GRANDSON T.J.'S 17TH BIRTHDAY



HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR T.J.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUU!
and many more!



OMG I can't hardly believe that TJ is 17! Old enough to drive .......YIKES!
if you could have seen him on his Big wheel when he was 3 lol hell on wheels was that one......just like a stunt man! and then when he was big enough for a bike......geeze the same hell on wheels! yup yup yup he was one fast moving little guy. I really hope he doesn't do that when he finally gets that lisence! aww I don't think he will as I do believe as he got older he got wiser.

Its fun to think back of the days when he was just a little guy. and its a shock to see him as big as he is now.
OH he got one of his wishes from back when he was 3.

He came to me one day and said "grandma I want to be as big as grandpa when I get older"
and I told him " Well you just got to wait and see"

Today he's at least 2 inches taller than grandpa but weighs about the same. So yep I guess that wish came true.

I told him way back when he was 3 that no matter how old he got I was always gonna call him baby so he better get used to it. I try to do it only here around the house but he's always gonna be baby to me and thats my right as a grandma to call him that!!!

So Baby Happy 17th Birthday. Love you lots.....xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
grandma!

Scared

We have lived here in Bloomington for 37 years and never ever had any real problems to worry about. Oh yeah there is a couple of times we worried about the sex offenders that were living down the street....Oh and there was the time we think now mind you we really didn't have much proof of the whore house 2 doors down. But you know when cars come and go at all hours and woman of all sizes shapes and ages were going in and out and wearing next to nothing PLUS the light on the porch was a red light well gee I think that spoke for itself.
BUT NOW:

Now we seem to have an arsonist running around our neighborhood. Yeah ok most of the houses are several blocks away but still way to close for comfort. So far it's been just garages that they are burning BUT who the hell knows if or when it will change to something more. several of the garages are attached to the houses but thankfully they got there and contained it to just the garages. But last week it was just up the street and this time the whole garage was a total loss. it was a super hot fire. Worse than all the others put together. Straight up the street from us they block off one end and the school bus couldnt go though and the smoke was so thick. this one really upset me alot and scared me.
I jump at every noise now and go check our garage often. and of course Im watching all over our neighborhood. I'm one of the few home during the day. I just keep praying they dont come our way. and that they catch them soon. Its been about 8 months now.

OH NO NO SAY IT AIN"T TRUE

So we are sitting here yesterday watching TV when there was a funny part that came on and we all were laughing.
I all of a sudden stopped got up looked around went to the kitchen looked around some more then came back into the living room and sat back in my chair with a totally funny look on my face.
My Gab looked at me like what is wrong but he didn't say anything and neither did I.

Then as we watched there was another funny part in the show and all of a sudden we all are laughing like crazy when I stopped jumped up and said "did you hear that"? Mr Gab says"hear what" I said dad and Uncle Harold! I can hear them laughing".
Mr Gab goes "yeah its you"! "WHAT"? I go "what do you mean its me"?
Dad and Uncle Harold are brothers Uncle Harold is the oldest and dad is the youngest. Both have very different laughs "BOTH HAVE PASSED ON"
So I sat there and thought about it and realised he was right I have been sounding like them. Some times I sound just like dad some times just like Uncle Harold!
BUT I DON"T WANNA SOUND LIKE THEM!
I want my girly laugh back.......my tinkly sounding laugh or my outrageous loud laugh. Not my dad or my uncle Harold's laugh.
I mean I loved them both but not enough to want to laugh like them. after all I'm a girl not a guy. So yeah I dont know why but lately I have their laugh and I dont really like it. I want my laugh back.

I love but Hate

I love the fact that we are turning back the clock an hour.....it means an extra hour of sleep in the morning.
Well maybe!
I also hate the fact that we turn back our clocks an hour......
our cats are on old time....so come 6:30 they want to be fed.....they don't care that we set the clocks back an hour because their clocks say its time to eat! And to bad if you wanna sleep that extra hour they want food. I turned away from them put my face to that wall covered my head with the blanket. Only to have them jump on my side which by the way hurts. Then of course my face is showing so they get into it up close and personal and meow at me. By this time all I want to do is fed them to get them to leave me alone.
Go back to bed you say Yeah that never happens!
its like once Im up Im up! Maybe later I can take a nap and yes some times I do.
Then comes the afternoon. Now I try to make them wait as long as possible but as soon as the youngest grand kids get home from school at 3:15 they want to be fed PERIOD! Pumpkin will start standing on my laptop Lucky will get on my chest. So I will ask one of the grands to feed them. Funny thing The time from 6:30 am to 3:15 pm is not that  long of period of time....but from 3:15 pm to 6:30 am is a really long time. But the cats can wait that length of time. IT MAKES NO SENSE! these cats are crazy!

So here we are at Sunday already school is tomorrow which means I gotta get up early again and I still didn't get to sleep in. I'm really thinking of putting the cats in kennels at night! Last time I did that they cried till I let them out!


I've been putting stuff on Craigslist to sell.....I've put stuff on E-Bay. You know that name up there on the right hand side. I used to have it to go right to my page on E-Bay but since all the changes are happening here I some how lost it and can't figure out how I did it LOL

I think I have decided to sell it all. Period! Only thing I'm thinking of keeping is a couple of clocks and 1 set of salt and pepper shakers the first set my mom ever gave me.
That should be enough.

Happy Birthday

A little birdy told me it's Btexpress's birthday today.....so in true Gab fashion(as always)


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO  YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR TONY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOOOOOO YOOOOOOUUUUUUUUU!
and many more!

yes another year has passed us by and it is once again Tony's birthday. I'm sure Lori will give him the best present of all(she usually does) BUT the thing that is shadowing Tony's birthday this year is the aftermath of Sandy.
I can say and I will say that Tony and Lori didn't suffer much loss and they are ok (Thank you God) so they can celebrate Tony's birthday today together. Have a good one Tony! xoxoxox

Why dont we have stuff like this today?

This was sent to me by a friend of our who lives in South Dakota. He sends us stuff all the time and a lot of time it is very good. Today it was great!
I wish we had comedy like this today......instead of all the swearing that most comedians use in their acts. Sure that can be funny but ya know this is just as funny if not funnier! Enjoy

Hurtin'

Yep


I over did it!

And this morning I added to what I had already done yesterday by getting up peeling potatoes and eggs for potato salad. Then when I got the potato salad in the fridge to cool I started squash. By the time I sat back down again I could tell I was in trouble.
Not only did my back hurt but my upper legs hurt, my arms hurt and my hands hurt!
The arthritis kicked in and decided today was the day to add to my pain and so I had to deal with that as well.
I know better! BUT .......you know as I sat in their very comfy chair at the nail salon getting my nails done I didn't notice my back. Then when I got up and went to the Beauty shop next door to get my hair cut I didn't have to sit in a bad chair for long and the chair you sit in for getting cut (styled and everything else) wasn't that bad either. SO I didn't notice it much till I came home. Then sliding out of the Durango I knew I was gonna pay for it. I then had to make a quick trip to the dollar store to buy candles for grand kids pumpkins and while I was standing there in line my legs started shaking so badly I thought I was gonna land on my face before I got out of there.
and when I got home I sat in my recliner and put the heating pad on my back and didn't move till bed time. It was then as I was relaxing all the way into dream land that my body was letting me know I had over done it.
But I had promised Mr Gab that I would make this for lunch today as I had already put it off from yesterday so I had to make it.'
We are trying Dinner at lunch time to see if it helps Mr Gab sleep better before he works the over night shift.
Which was why I was making this stuff early in the morning.
After all was made/cooked and Mr Gab made the steaks we ate our meal (which by the way he was very nice and made me up a plate) I took the whole afternoon off and just rested! Tomorrow I will need to do the dishes but that will be tomorrow!

Here are the boys pumpkins:
Top pumpkin is Jeremys big pumpkin from grandma and grandpa.
next is Aaron's
Next is Logan's
next is Jeremy's little pumpkin he got with his Big's
and last is T.J's
TJ s did a what the heck with a hammer to the back of his pumpkin's head. and of course the guts spilling outta his mouth....a little on the dark side yes but we said he could do what ever he wanted and that's what he did!